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Old 02-08-2016, 12:17 PM
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Nice one guys! Inc - just wait till you start getting going with the exercise. You will feel even more awesome!

Anyway, it's just a quick hello from me. All good this end. I realised earlier today that yesterday I hit 10 months, so double figures

Keep on trucking

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Old 02-11-2016, 07:24 AM
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Nice one guys! Inc - just wait till you start getting going with the exercise. You will feel even more awesome!

Anyway, it's just a quick hello from me. All good this end. I realised earlier today that yesterday I hit 10 months, so double figures

Keep on trucking

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Congrats OMD on hitting ten months! I just checked my phone today and saw that I am also at 300 days and ten months! It's funny how the whole keeping track of time has slipped into minor irrelevance as we have moved into stages of our lives that are not dominated by alcoholic thinking.

I was talking a little with my wife about how I feel a little stalled in my personal development right now and feel a little low energy overall. I still have not been able to harness the inner energy that I know is lying within me to be able to burst forward and get things moving forward in many aspects of my life. I am slowly trying to move upward in my Maslow's pyramids of needs. Such first world problems!!

This time last year, I had totally waved the white flag as I was swirling around the drain. I was losing everything of value in life but my job, and was trying hard to screw that up too. I lived to drink, and drank to live. I had finally admitted to myself that I had totally lost control of my life. I was a physical, mental and emotional wreck. I had given up on ever having a life that had any meaning besides gritting my teeth and trying to survive the next 24 hours with a drink in my hand.

The benefits of monthly milestones for me is that I get a chance to reflect back on the past, and actually see how much incredible progress I have truly made over the past 300 days. After all, I was a drunk for decades, and only sober for a handful of months. I may not be where I ultimately want to be in my life, but I have taken a whole bunch of steps in the right direction with the wind at my back!
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Old 02-11-2016, 07:58 AM
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Hey guys! It is so true about the difference that just a few months can make. It's not about alcohol anymore, just about each person doing their own thing. WHAT A MASSIVE RELIEF!! I'll be up for 10 months in 9 days but have also been blissfully unaware of time. In fact, a friend asked me last week how long I'd been sober and I got it wrong saying 8 instead of 9 months. Feels good to be free!
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Old 02-11-2016, 12:00 PM
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Hi guys,
Just checking in. I was watching a documentary online just now entitled Wasted. I was going to share the link but it says it's only available for viewing within Canada. It aired on CBC's The Nature of Things on January 21, 2016. It was very interesting. It was about the science of evidence based treatments, and how alcoholics brains are different, and the alternatives to shame based treatments like AA or other treatment centers. It was very interesting, and I think the medical professionals are finally getting IT.

I am doing well, by the way. I actually had another drinking dream recently, but in this dream I didn't drink, instead I gladly walked away from a group of family and friends who where getting drunk while we were out camping. I recall feeling empowered in my dream, and I woke up feeling completely relieved. I look at this as further proof that not drinking is ingrained into my psyche as a new way of life. With that being said, I am still consciously aware of my addictive characteristics, and will continue to build up my armor against a relapse!

Life has a weird way of working itself out. I truly believe in the saying, when one door closes, another door opens. Or, another way of putting it, everything happens for a reason, and one must find the positive, and go with it. Well, this couldn't be more true then what has been happening this month! I told you I was having a hard time recently, but everything has changed for the better! It's amazing actually, but this is how life does work, though being lost in an alcoholic fog, we don't see it this way. For this, I am eternally grateful!

Alright, back to work I go~

Have a wonderful rest of the week and I will check in again soon!
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I just want to say hi and hope you all are doing well. This is such a great group.
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Old 02-13-2016, 06:20 AM
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Hi Angie! We here are all pulling for ya as you sort things out and move forward with your life. You can do this!
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Old 02-13-2016, 08:05 AM
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Thanks SG. Pretty cool huh!

Hello all, including Angie! Nice to hear from you - I really hope you're doing ok.

Settling into a good busy sporting weekend. 30 miles on the bike this morning, going swimming later and have a long run planned for tomorrow. Tomorrow night I shall be having a huge pizza!

Told you about my friend who moved out. His wife doesn't want him back. The words she used were "free" and "relieved". I can't help. All a bit grim. Lucky escape for me.

Anyway, gotta run. I hope you all have a lovely weekend!

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Old 02-15-2016, 06:48 AM
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None for me today.

Been job hunting for an upgrade. I have two companies interested so far. No offers yet, but progressing through interview process.

One of them, I believe, will have more opportunities for me in the future, the other will help me out immediately.

It's tough because I desperately need help now. Can't afford health insurance and barely make enough after child support to drive to work and back.

I broke a tooth several months ago and I believe it's infected now. The pain is getting worse. But I can't afford to see a dentist.

We'll see what the offers are and make a decision from there. I'm willing to "suffer" shirt term for long term gain. Just need to make sure short term income is adequate.

One thing is for sure....I am really glad I'm not drinking. This morning I had a store tour with a store manager for one of the companies I'm exploring. I was nervous going in. There is nooo doubt in my mind that I would of made a couple drinks to prepare for that in the past. I would have walked with a new potential employer drunk.

Super glad I'm sober and moving forward.

None for me today.
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Old 02-15-2016, 07:15 AM
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Had a surprise change of managers at my store last week. New manager came in and totally shook things up and now is away on vacation for two weeks, leaving myself and my fellow assistants to pick up the wreckage.

So glad that I am not drinking these days!

Have a good week everyone!
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Old 02-16-2016, 12:55 AM
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Hey guys! Nice to hear from you Angle! Hope you are doing well!

Inc, I'm sure your new opportunities will pan out for you. You have shown so much persistence and will power. If you stick with it I'm sure it will come good

OMD: hope you enjoyed all the sport at the weekend! I managed a 10km run on Sunday but as a rule I've got sport on the back burner right now. Modern life is such a balancing act!

SG: hope you sort our your woes at work. A new broom in the office can sometimes be a good thing. Who knows. You know what they say? New broom sweeps clean but old brush knows all the corners! Either way, coming in like a tornado and then taking yourself off on holiday is a strategy I hadn't heard of before!!

Cauliflower: Good to hear from you and thanks for the info on that documentary.

I'm doing pretty well myself. I've thrown myself hammer and tongs into my business and am thinking about expansion. It's an exciting, if nerve-wracking time. Something I wouldn't have been prepared to deal with if I was drinking!

Great to see the gang still together here! You guys are amazing!
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Old 02-17-2016, 01:53 AM
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Good luck Inc on the job hunt. It really is easier getting a new job if you currently have a job already, so the time spent working now will be worthwhile in the long run.

Great news about your business Amp! Not something you could have done drinking I'm sure.

It's my Friday, so I have that going for me.

Have a great day everyone!
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Old 02-17-2016, 03:09 PM
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Hi everyone!
Tough week here. Lord knows there's lots going on. Am managing though and doing so is so much easier when sober. I do still miss going from 100 to zero in 15 mins after a big day but that's a small price to pay when I can get up and do my job. And also when I see the ongoing destruction to a family near me.

So all in all I can't complain and when I go out now I never even bother to make any excuse about what I am drinking, so that's that.

To answer your question Amp it was a big sporting weekend with some aches by Sunday night but I still got up and went again yesterday after a day's rest, so I am feeling on top! Your business expansion sounds interesting - good luck with that!

Inc you are an inspiration. Keep the faith, you will get there. I had toothache for ages because when I used to smoke and drink heavily I hated my teeth and avoided the dentist. Eventually a tooth literally broke. Now, all repaired and good as new. Your turn will come.

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Hang in there OMD!
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OMD...I hear ya on 100-15. Sleepy time tea helps but just not the same. I find chilling out watching a brainless TV show works well.

Have a dentist appt set for Monday. $100 for X-ray and initial visit. Yay.
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I must admit that I occasionally miss booze at the end of a hard day or hard week but only fleetingly. What I still find a challenge is socialising. While I can rationalise my way out of the mindset to an extent, I still find it tough to sit around a table where the others are enjoying a drink. This normally peaks just before we eat, but even when others are drinking only moderately I find it hard to relax and truly enjoy myself in these environments. I think that if it wasn't for my wife's insistence I would have become quite a recluse by now!!! It's something that I'm hoping may improve over time...
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Old 02-19-2016, 09:15 AM
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I do still miss going from 100 to zero in 15 mins after a big day but that's a small price to pay when I can get up and do my job.

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I totally agree. I often have to close the store at midnight and be back at 8:00am. It always takes me a while to settle down after work, so I always slammed down some drinks to relax. Though I never regret not drinking when getting up the next morning .
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I must admit that I occasionally miss booze at the end of a hard day or hard week but only fleetingly. What I still find a challenge is socialising. While I can rationalise my way out of the mindset to an extent, I still find it tough to sit around a table where the others are enjoying a drink. This normally peaks just before we eat, but even when others are drinking only moderately I find it hard to relax and truly enjoy myself in these environments. I think that if it wasn't for my wife's insistence I would have become quite a recluse by now!!! It's something that I'm hoping may improve over time...
I totally agree Amp and don't enjoy these situations at all anymore. It is still a little awkward, and I don't socialize nearly as much as I used too. I am really ok with that , though it is tiring when everyone at the table keeps asking if I need a drink. NO , I really don't.
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Old 02-21-2016, 08:07 AM
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Hope your weekends are all going well!

Made it through the week, another busy one to look forward to. Ah well.

I am actually ok socialising without booze now. It's like my party piece. Hey look I can have a good time without booze! It's only the work/client situation now and I just get around that by thinking about the following day. I have definitely lost some business by not drinking but I am way more efficient and probably win more in other respects, by not drinking. No more lost days etc.

I think fundamentally life just stresses us out sometimes and that's why I used the booze every day - to slow down and in some cases to escape. Then things got out of hand and I was never really present in my life.

We're in a good place now!

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Old 02-22-2016, 12:48 AM
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Morning guys and happy Monday! I believe that Inc, Cauliflower and myself have joined the double digit club (10 months) over the weekend so congratulations to all!


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Congrats to everyone passing the ten month mark! Hard to believe sometimes just how far we've come.
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