Class of April 2015 Part 9
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Will be heading to my parent's later. My dad starts drinking beer at noon and my sister and her daughter and boy friend will be drinking rum and wine all afternoon. Feeling good with no urges or worries about drinking. Crazy warm here now, actually slept with the windows open. Merry Christmas everyone !
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Hi, All! Merry Christmas 
I'm glad you hear you are all well. I am happy to say I am one month sober today and this is the first Christmas in many years that I am not hungover. Yesterday was rough with all the emotions flowing, but I made it through okay.
Just wanted to pop in and say thank you for your support since April and for continuing to post your progress. I gives me something to look forward to on my sober journey I hope you all are having a wonderful holiday. Take care!
I'm glad you hear you are all well. I am happy to say I am one month sober today and this is the first Christmas in many years that I am not hungover. Yesterday was rough with all the emotions flowing, but I made it through okay.Just wanted to pop in and say thank you for your support since April and for continuing to post your progress. I gives me something to look forward to on my sober journey
I hope you all are having a wonderful holiday. Take care!
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Join Date: Mar 2013
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I've been moving along at a nice slow clip here. Still, at least once a week I am totally leveled. Ultra tight muscles, totally exhausted, sleep all day even though it's 85 and I'm living on a beach. I'm not working out, but compared to CT a month ago, I'd say I'm at 300% higher activity. Just normal walking around and doing things, I'm doing more. I'm making a lot of decisions and that always stresses me out. And probably raised stress because I have no clue what's going on with my life. Today was one of those days. I never left the house. Foggy head, joint pain, exhaustion.
So since I wasn't as smart as you guys I'm on like 30 days again. My activity levels were extremely low at home and I avoided decisions like the plague because they cause me so much anxiety.
I got 'chronic fatigue' and fibromyalgia at 19 and it was brutal. It was followed by serious depression and now I just don't know what is what. A 'healthy person' should progress pretty well if they decreased from daily use to bi-weekly use, right or wrong? Do I just need several months to burst through this?
You guys have experience. I definitely am going to see a couple of doctors, a new psychiatrist, and a couple of specialists when I go home. But I also would like some encouragement. I know I haven't really been here for you. :/
What do you think?? It's very frustrating. When I was 8 years younger I could quit for 5 days and start working out, hard core, immediately. I still cannot work any job. (yet!!)
So since I wasn't as smart as you guys I'm on like 30 days again. My activity levels were extremely low at home and I avoided decisions like the plague because they cause me so much anxiety.
I got 'chronic fatigue' and fibromyalgia at 19 and it was brutal. It was followed by serious depression and now I just don't know what is what. A 'healthy person' should progress pretty well if they decreased from daily use to bi-weekly use, right or wrong? Do I just need several months to burst through this?
You guys have experience. I definitely am going to see a couple of doctors, a new psychiatrist, and a couple of specialists when I go home. But I also would like some encouragement. I know I haven't really been here for you. :/
What do you think?? It's very frustrating. When I was 8 years younger I could quit for 5 days and start working out, hard core, immediately. I still cannot work any job. (yet!!)
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My experience is once you cross the line from normal drinker to alcoholic one, any about of alcohol knocks you around Johnny - whether it's biweekly or not, the kindling effect comes into play.
For me, it took several months of no booze, eating right and getting enough sleep and exercise for my energy levels to get anywhere near normal.
D
For me, it took several months of no booze, eating right and getting enough sleep and exercise for my energy levels to get anywhere near normal.
D
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Thanks D. I think you're right. Anything basically resets the entire clock once your body and brain becomes alcoholic, that's it. Anything throws off the equilibrium. Well around a month is a decent start (again). I don't even know how long because I'm just doing the beach and walking around and keeping track of nothing except one day at a time.
These kids are driving me crazy. The most selfish little bastids. Can't wait to be rid of them and have the condo to myself. I'm going to have a meltdown.
These kids are driving me crazy. The most selfish little bastids. Can't wait to be rid of them and have the condo to myself. I'm going to have a meltdown.
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Sober Christmas here. It's been much easier than expected. Apart from my brother telling me how sorry he was that I hadn't started drinking again and offering me wine all the time (!!!!), I found it easy. Didn't really want to drink apart from a couple of urges which were easily rationalised. First hangover free Boxing Day in over 25 years!!!
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Been battling depression. Xmas is hard because I feel bad about tearing up my family and having no money and self conscience over how little I can give my boys. Even had a bout of suicide idealization.
Feeling pretty good now. Just comes in waves. My mind will go to a dark place then I have to work on pulling out. Thankfully I am getting better at that.
To pull myself out, I'll think about how much better this Xmas is and how much better the future will be. It's really nice that sobriety is my strongest asset.
My boys are with my mom and brother. They're all coming over in about an hour. Will hang here for a couple hours then I have to take the boys home. That'll be tough.
I'll want to cry, so I'm planning on doing just that. I might even make myself cry if the need is not all that strong. Just to let that emotion out. I plan on taking a few minutes after drop off to let those emotions play out. I'll feel better afterwards.
After that, in meeting somebody at my old house so they can pick up a couch I sold on Craig's list. That'll brighten my day as I'll have $160 cash in pocket which I desperately need.
I also plan on spending time tonight planning out the next couple weeks. I still have bankruptcy to deal with. Child support found my new job already and is leaving me with $130/wk to live on, so I need to make calls and try to get that fixed. Stuff like that. Spending time tonight making plans to address stresses will help.
With that plan comes New Years resolutions. I'm going to make a plan to address smoking.
So at the end of the day, I'll feel good about the future.
Feeling pretty good now. Just comes in waves. My mind will go to a dark place then I have to work on pulling out. Thankfully I am getting better at that.
To pull myself out, I'll think about how much better this Xmas is and how much better the future will be. It's really nice that sobriety is my strongest asset.
My boys are with my mom and brother. They're all coming over in about an hour. Will hang here for a couple hours then I have to take the boys home. That'll be tough.
I'll want to cry, so I'm planning on doing just that. I might even make myself cry if the need is not all that strong. Just to let that emotion out. I plan on taking a few minutes after drop off to let those emotions play out. I'll feel better afterwards.
After that, in meeting somebody at my old house so they can pick up a couch I sold on Craig's list. That'll brighten my day as I'll have $160 cash in pocket which I desperately need.
I also plan on spending time tonight planning out the next couple weeks. I still have bankruptcy to deal with. Child support found my new job already and is leaving me with $130/wk to live on, so I need to make calls and try to get that fixed. Stuff like that. Spending time tonight making plans to address stresses will help.
With that plan comes New Years resolutions. I'm going to make a plan to address smoking.
So at the end of the day, I'll feel good about the future.
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Sorry to hear you're going through a down period, Mike. Depression is quite a cyclical thing so hang in there and you may find yourself back on the up soon. I agree that Christmas can be a catalyst for depression but it's important to keep perspective. Sounds like you're doing that. Keep checking in here for support. Crying when you need to is not a bad idea. Better out than in and all that. Take care!
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Inc,
Christmas has always been one of my least favorite holidays, working in retail the past thirty some years. Job pressures, family pressures, money hassles, unrealistic expectations, gray skies, and on and on. Glad you have been able to pull yourself out of the depths.
You have got a lot to deal with. Thank goodness you are doing it sober.
Christmas has always been one of my least favorite holidays, working in retail the past thirty some years. Job pressures, family pressures, money hassles, unrealistic expectations, gray skies, and on and on. Glad you have been able to pull yourself out of the depths.
You have got a lot to deal with. Thank goodness you are doing it sober.
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Complete 180 today. Feeling good. The holiday madness is over. I survived another one!
Thank you for your support. Means a lot. Last night wasn't all that bad really. Mad some decent plans and took some action today. So that felt good.
I'm off from my retail job tomorrow. Set some sales Appts for insurance tomorrow. Always busy. Barely a moment to breath. I think that's part of the problem. Always working and stressing, yet treading water financially.
Although that's stressful, I know the horizon looks much better. And treading water is A WHOLE LOT BETTER than drowning.
I tend to look at it all as before I grow or move forward in anything, I have to stop going backwards. I've been able to move forward in many parts of my life. The money part hasn't taken hold yet. BUT...I have stopped going backwards. And I am thankful for that.
Thank you for your support. Means a lot. Last night wasn't all that bad really. Mad some decent plans and took some action today. So that felt good.
I'm off from my retail job tomorrow. Set some sales Appts for insurance tomorrow. Always busy. Barely a moment to breath. I think that's part of the problem. Always working and stressing, yet treading water financially.
Although that's stressful, I know the horizon looks much better. And treading water is A WHOLE LOT BETTER than drowning.
I tend to look at it all as before I grow or move forward in anything, I have to stop going backwards. I've been able to move forward in many parts of my life. The money part hasn't taken hold yet. BUT...I have stopped going backwards. And I am thankful for that.
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Incontrol, depression is horrible, I know dude. I'm sorry about that. And I'm with you on the money front. I need to get self sufficient. It's going to take work and I'm going to to have to come at it from multiple fronts. 3 or 4 projects going to see if something sticks. I am surrounded by the ultra wealthy. It boggles the mind. No money worries at all. Don't look at any prices just swipe the Amex. I parked between a $450,000 Lamborghini Aventador and a Porsche GT3 ($250,000?) at the drug store yesterday. I was terrified when I had to back out that I was going to scratch the damn things. 😬
☀️I made it tonight.🌠 This was the danger night for me. Walked 4 miles on the beach from 11pm to Midnight. I wanted to get in the shallow water and cool down but I was too tired. And OMD I did it in the Keens! No boots with huge supports 😉. Btw I used the little rubber ball under my feet today. That's kind of a yoga thing I think. My sister bought it for me. You stand on it with the arch of the foot on it and tension from the body gets released.
Thanks guys.
☀️I made it tonight.🌠 This was the danger night for me. Walked 4 miles on the beach from 11pm to Midnight. I wanted to get in the shallow water and cool down but I was too tired. And OMD I did it in the Keens! No boots with huge supports 😉. Btw I used the little rubber ball under my feet today. That's kind of a yoga thing I think. My sister bought it for me. You stand on it with the arch of the foot on it and tension from the body gets released.
Thanks guys.
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