Cbf123

Thank you, guys. I always feel so welcomed and supported here.

Letitgo, family are great. Fortunately my stupidity isn't affecting them (at least not directly) but I cringe when I think about the difference between me sober with them and drunk. Horrible.

I'll keep plugging away. Going to read over all the helpful advice I'd had before and try to reinforce things.

KeyofC - thanks, as always. Congrats on the big 100!!

Hope you are both ok

KeyofC

It'll get better Cb (hug)... Trust in yourself. Just get a bigger better plan. Keep trying. Eventually it'll stick, I'll pray for you. Brush off, go again. Don't dwell back there. You live today, not yesterday. Learn from it friend.

letitgo

Happy 100 Key!!!

Tooshabby

I have every confidence you will get there cbf :-) The vast majority of people fall a number of times before they kick it for good, as long as they stick at it. Plus keyofc's prayers really work!

Cbf123

Small victory - I was at a 'do' with work tonight where drinking was more than option. I didn't, and I'm home sober.

Little steps.

Cheers Shabby - always nice to hear from you :-)

Tooshabby

Great cbf! I bet you are a lovely dad :-)

tokidoki

Hi All,

cbf- Glad you're back and that your family is well! Good job on resisting the drinks.

KeyofC- Congrats on 100 days- Yay!

Shabby- What's up? I'm confident you'll get here some day and you can visit wherever you want. (and maybe we can go to Memphis..)

letitgo- Thanks for telling me how to stalk- ha! I *have* read through long-term members threads, but never thought to look at 'forum activity' to see if folks have been posting.

Holds- I looked at newcomers forums and am so sorry about the struggles. Please stay strong!

tokidoki

It's another cold and gray day up in the driftless zone.

Yesterday after work I went to an appointment with my shrink. When she picked me up in the waiting room she said, "Oh, you're looking good. " Huh? Oh, the skirt..." "No, I meant the colors". I looked down. I was actually wearing colorful clothes! A trivial thing maybe, but is occurred to me that I've been wearing mainly black for a while. Black skirts, black dresses, black yoga pants(?). Little splashes of white and maybe a few scarfs with color, but when I did laundry I'd sort through a big bundle of black. Onward and upward.

Had chimes practice a bit ago. We sounded pretty good if I do say so myself. Come Sunday who knows...

Take care, everyone.

Cbf123

Morning class. I've had some absolutely devastating news overnight. One of my colleagues (and a personal friend for the past 11 years) that I was with last night has a 16 month old daughter who tragically passed away in the small hours of this morning. I'd been with him last night at the work event when his wife rang to say that she wasn't well and was taking her to the local hospital. His daughter had already had two major heart operations in her short life, and unfortunately, the virus that she appears to have picked up has caused some complications.

Both my wife and I are devastated, both for their loss and as parents of our own beautiful daughter.

Going to need all my strength today. Utterly devastated.

Tooshabby

Oh God, cbf. I am so, so sorry. That is utterly devastating. Those poor people, and so hard for you and your wife too. I wish there was something I could say, but at times like this words seem so insufficient (((hugs))) Please keep checking in with us as much as you need to.

letitgo

Prayers for them and their family

tokidoki

Prayers from me as well.

Cbf123

Thanks all. Such a terrible feeling, especially the speed with which it all came about. My friend's wife and I go way back, we were in the same classes for almost every subject in school, and we've always got on as friends rather than just colleagues. To see their world turned upside again so easily is just heartbreaking.

Prayers to them.

tokidoki

So, so sorry, cbf...

I'll be keeping you, your family and your friends in my thoughts and prayers.

Upwardspiral

Oh dear, Cbf, that is heartbreaking news. My condolences to the parents and to your family as well.

fantail

That is heartbreaking, CBF. I can't even imagine the pain those parents must be going through, and your family as well. I will also keep them in my thoughts.

Tooshabby

Thinking of you and your friends, cbf. My partner lost his son a bit over 5 years ago. I have some idea of how hard this is. Much love xoxo

Hope everyone is doing well. That's funny isn't it toki..noticing little things like wearing vibrant colours again - so lovely :-)

Upwardspiral

Hi all, just checking in. I'm so grateful that I've made it this far, that I'm sticking with the AA program, that I'm being patient with myself.

It has taken many failed attempts at quitting to get to this point, but I believe in the road I'm on now and love every day of my sobriety, no matter what else happens.

Tooshabby

That's great, Upwards! I hope I have already had my last failed attempt. Feeling more certain than ever. I don't want to go back there again....

tokidoki

Hi All,

cbf- Continuing to think of you.

Shabby- I'm so sorry. That's just awful....
(Btw, glad you don't want to 'go back there'.)

fantail- Happy you popped in.

Upwards- "love every day of my sobriety"- excellent!