SoberLeigh

Goodnight, LadyBug.

I'm trying to get to bed early tonight; loads of yard work awaits me tomorrow. Fall clean-up time!!!!!!!

SnoozyQ

Hi guys

I'm so proud of you Ladybug. No disappointments here. Like the others said, we've all had many day ones. I , like Crois felt your hubby didn't know but I'm the last one to call anyone out on it. I've been in your shoes too many times Hun.

I bet you are relieved :-) . You've got a good hubby there love.

Holly has gone to her Dads birthday dinner so yet again , I MUST watch the batchelorette Crois and relay the events ! ( cough )

Soberwolf

Hi Snooz & all the Julyers & co

Croissant

You are a very good Mum to selflessly watch the Bachelorette for your daughter, Snooz.
#teamsasha

He is to die for!

letitgo

Omg you are so funny.

Ladybug2

Good morning,

I feel like a have a fresh start and, although I wish I didn't have a to be here again (starting over), I am. All because 6 months ago I thought I was ok and could moderate. Big lesson learned. I will never be "ok" with alcohol and I can never touch the stuff again. I didn't really realize, until very recently, how badly our bodies crave alcohol once it is in our system. The mornings after I drank I would usually wake up craving it. I think the only thing that kept me from drinking every day and before evenings was the fact that I was nursing Abby during the day. I never drank and nursed her, but I do worry about all of the early mornings when it could have, and probably was, still in my system Ugh, all of the regrets. Why can't we see all of this when we are actively drinking? Why does everything seem ok and not a big deal when we are drinking and then when we. stop we are like "what was I thinking??!!" It's scary how much power our AV can have over us.

Upwards and onwards. All of this regret, worry and anxiety is what can still keep us in this viscious cycle, right? I need to let it go and view it as a second chance.

Hope you all have a great day!! Really hoping Casey and Leshar are ok. Love to you all.

letitgo

I feel you ladybug. I did the samething last year. I dont have a problem i just need to control it better. Thats was a bunch of bs. I went right back to it but worse.
Its not easy. Just look foward 1 day at a time.

Soberwolf

I'm going to get my haircut as I see the dermatoligist this Saturday and I want him/her to see the patch in its totality its worsening again & I don't know why I'm a lot cooler about it now no wearing hats etc but still I want to get to the bottom of it all I know is its autoimmune and its my white blood cells attacking healthy cells as it sees them as invaders or something I don't know

turned 27 months today I knew it was coming up & then I forgot again

Time for a big grouphug

SnoozyQ

Hoya guys hope it all goes well Wolfy , it must be very frustrating for you xx

Ladybug , you are right there girlfriend! Being a mother is hard enough , when drinking is included in the mix it's a double edged sword.

There is absolutely no point in regurgitating the past. It is what it is.
This bloody AV is always lurking , ready to strike.
I had so many drinking thoughts today.

I don't know why, probably cos Hollys at her Dads for his birthday and all the girls are there.

I cleaned up the house which is ALWAYS a trigger for me. I used to drink and go through cupboards til 3 am etc.
It's a warm night and I've had passing thoughts but know I can't act on it.

Sure enough , it passed like I knew it would.
I've had 2 litres of iced coffee to suffice. Ugh now I feel soooooooo bloated lol.

I feel great now , house is beautiful and clean , my backs getting back to normal , I had my last gym session today Ye hah !

Had a really nice lunch out with Mum , my Aunty and my cousin ? So many laughs, it made me realise I haven't laughed for a long time.

I wish I laughed more , it feels soo good.

Have a lovely day / evening , my little chickadees.

Maybe cos my Aunty and cousin drank wine for lunch got me thinking about it. I was honest with them .... told them I've not long been back from rehab. They were shocked ! But were very understanding about it and wish I'd told them before they bought a drink.

They said they will just have what I'm drinking next time we get together in 4 weeks time.

So lovely that they will do that xx

Soberwolf

Snooz your post has made my day so happy for you

Went & got my haircut even gave him a tip as he waited for me & done an excellent job cutting my hair

Having homemade chicken macaroni pasta bake for dinner tonight

KeyofC

Wolfy congrats!!! Big ol hug!!!
Snoozy I love your posts too! (Hug)
Ladybug hand in there..
Crois and Let...hiya!
I'm doing just fine. HP is working some things out in the inside and I'm ok with it. Seems like it's always a huge epiphany when it happens. A humongous AHa! moment usually entails. Huge improvements to me but so subtle in every day life, I am so amazed how the doors just keep opening.
Thanks for all your posts..love this group! (Hug)!!!

SnoozyQ

Wolfyyyyyy & Key

So good to see you both , I just love your posts :-)))) xx this thread really truly is the bestest lol xxx

Be even better when Leshar & Casey check in.
Just a quick hi would be great guys.

We miss you. You are family

KeyofC

I agree

Soberwolf

I am really missing Casey & Leshar too I hope they touch base soon

Hi to Bob, Croiss, D, Leigh, Gilmer, Ladybug, NCG, Pete, Key, Snooz, Let

It's amazing having epiphany's isn't key so subtle yet so profound way to go you

Your doing great Snooz love ya loads

SnoozyQ

Lesharrrrrrrrrrrr Caseyyyyyyyyyy





Xxxxxx

SnoozyQ

Crois I , like Sasha , but there's just something about him ...I dunno . I kinda like Richie , I think Michaels gonna get the arse next! Ce la vie . Xx

venuscat

UH OH....you wouldn't be talking about The Bachelorette now would you Snoozy my love? Nah....if I read back, I would see that I was way off base.

Love to all of you....I have been having a really tough time...trying to get my self together.

Croissant

Alex has to go.

Hugs Venus. Yes, Bachelorette is the topic. Hehe.

SnoozyQ

Venussssssss ((((( hugs ))))))) it's so good to see you back sweetheart


Alex .... You're fired !
He's gotta go Crois.

I reckon you're right , it looks like team Sasha. He's definitely smooth.

Poor old Richie didn't get the peck he was hanging out for after the date !

It's def Sash in my book !

Not that I'm Into it or anything , purely an observation so I can comment to Holly when she gets home from work !

Croissant

Haha Snooz. Richie should not have bombarded her with his friends. Fatal move. That was the worst home date ever.