Class of September 2015 Part 4
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Day 13 and the LO and I are sick with colds yuck. Laid around all day. But at least I'm not hungover!
Unhappy about my weight. Thought a few pounds would fall off from not drinking (and no soda too!)but have not lost any weight. Just stuck, and have been since my LO was born 5 months ago.
I know it takes time, but like any addict, I want immediate gratification.
Unhappy about my weight. Thought a few pounds would fall off from not drinking (and no soda too!)but have not lost any weight. Just stuck, and have been since my LO was born 5 months ago.
I know it takes time, but like any addict, I want immediate gratification.
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Well I seemed to have tweaked my rotator cuff yesterday. Not super painful or super bad but super worrying as I tend to overdo the gym as much as I overdo everything in my life. The only plus is that it seems to have taken the focus away from alcohol.
After today I'll have made exactly one month. This and the fact it's Monday (a day I never drank) have given me a feeling of serenity and calm. The weekend cravings were horrible but I am so happy to be on the other side of them. I feel a good spell coming up. I'm just so happy to be leaving the tough first month behind.
Couldn't have done it without SR and its posters. Especially the people sharing and helping in this group.
After today I'll have made exactly one month. This and the fact it's Monday (a day I never drank) have given me a feeling of serenity and calm. The weekend cravings were horrible but I am so happy to be on the other side of them. I feel a good spell coming up. I'm just so happy to be leaving the tough first month behind.
Couldn't have done it without SR and its posters. Especially the people sharing and helping in this group.
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Day 13 and the LO and I are sick with colds yuck. Laid around all day. But at least I'm not hungover!
Unhappy about my weight. Thought a few pounds would fall off from not drinking (and no soda too!)but have not lost any weight. Just stuck, and have been since my LO was born 5 months ago.
I know it takes time, but like any addict, I want immediate gratification.
Unhappy about my weight. Thought a few pounds would fall off from not drinking (and no soda too!)but have not lost any weight. Just stuck, and have been since my LO was born 5 months ago.
I know it takes time, but like any addict, I want immediate gratification.
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congrats on one month, Midton. That is fantastic and an inspiring milestone. I hope that your injury heels soon.
Mondays are long, but I have to say, I'm ready for this weekend to be over. Temptations both today and yesterday, from both situations where I'd normally drink, as well as some emotional triggers. I suppose the positive side is I got lots of chances to "think it through." Nonetheless, I'm glad to put this weekend behind me.
Hope everyone has a good night!
Mondays are long, but I have to say, I'm ready for this weekend to be over. Temptations both today and yesterday, from both situations where I'd normally drink, as well as some emotional triggers. I suppose the positive side is I got lots of chances to "think it through." Nonetheless, I'm glad to put this weekend behind me.
Hope everyone has a good night!
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OMG!!
Had my FB account hacked. What an ordeal. They posted HARD CORE PORN on the sites I belong to in my name, and on my wall! Talk about a mess to clean up. Composed and sent letters of apology and explanation to admins of sites. You know, just the autism and diabetes communities. Aaaaack.
Had my FB account hacked. What an ordeal. They posted HARD CORE PORN on the sites I belong to in my name, and on my wall! Talk about a mess to clean up. Composed and sent letters of apology and explanation to admins of sites. You know, just the autism and diabetes communities. Aaaaack.
Day 37
Missed the bus in the morning (1 hour wait time)
Miss the bus going home (1 hour wait time in the cold dark countryside)
So I left my house at 7:40, got back at :7:30 and spent a total of two hours waiting for busses. Grrrrrrrrrrrr
I need a new gig.
Soon enough.
Other then that the day was okay. Its getting chilly here and I don't fit any of my old coats because I'm all skinny and whatnot. Kinda feels awkward wearing a suddenly baggy leather jacket. I needa replace what once was fat with muscle.
Missed the bus in the morning (1 hour wait time)
Miss the bus going home (1 hour wait time in the cold dark countryside)
So I left my house at 7:40, got back at :7:30 and spent a total of two hours waiting for busses. Grrrrrrrrrrrr
I need a new gig.
Soon enough.
Other then that the day was okay. Its getting chilly here and I don't fit any of my old coats because I'm all skinny and whatnot. Kinda feels awkward wearing a suddenly baggy leather jacket. I needa replace what once was fat with muscle.
One month is awesome midton!
Kinz-- sounds like a rough day but at day 37 it's much more manageable I'm sure
Took the day off today, just to extend my birthday and have a day to myself. Got the kids off to school and now I'm ready for a jog. I'm going to the cemetery today to visit my dad. I've only been a few times since he died in January and I keep hoping I will find some connection with him or peace there. Also I remember him asking us where he should be buried, here or back home in NJ and he asked if we would "visit" him. I miss him so much and it's so much more raw when I'm not numbed with alcohol or a hangover. But I know that's the only way through the grief, not numbing or escaping.
Anyway, I am a little worried about today- I love time alone but it's also very dangerous for me. I can hear that voice in my head telling me I can drink and it will be my last chance for a while. Chance?? Chance for what ??? To feel like crap?? Ugh!
Kinz-- sounds like a rough day but at day 37 it's much more manageable I'm sure
Took the day off today, just to extend my birthday and have a day to myself. Got the kids off to school and now I'm ready for a jog. I'm going to the cemetery today to visit my dad. I've only been a few times since he died in January and I keep hoping I will find some connection with him or peace there. Also I remember him asking us where he should be buried, here or back home in NJ and he asked if we would "visit" him. I miss him so much and it's so much more raw when I'm not numbed with alcohol or a hangover. But I know that's the only way through the grief, not numbing or escaping.
Anyway, I am a little worried about today- I love time alone but it's also very dangerous for me. I can hear that voice in my head telling me I can drink and it will be my last chance for a while. Chance?? Chance for what ??? To feel like crap?? Ugh!
Midton - well done on a month! sorry to hear you hurt your rotator cuff, hopefully it heals up soon.
Matilda - I'm with you, glad this weekend is over. I wasn't seriously tempted, but I had a lot of free time this weekend and I do better when I'm more on-the-go and occupied. I have a lot of things going on this week so that's good.
FABL - happy belated birthday! Try to remember why you want to be sober. For me it helps to think that yes, these early days/weeks/months are hard but if I put off getting sober is it really going to get any easier next week, next month, next year? No, it's not. Hang in there!
Matilda - I'm with you, glad this weekend is over. I wasn't seriously tempted, but I had a lot of free time this weekend and I do better when I'm more on-the-go and occupied. I have a lot of things going on this week so that's good.
FABL - happy belated birthday! Try to remember why you want to be sober. For me it helps to think that yes, these early days/weeks/months are hard but if I put off getting sober is it really going to get any easier next week, next month, next year? No, it's not. Hang in there!
"Nothing changes if nothing changes."
Have a great day all.
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Hang in there FBL
I'm sorry about your father. It sounds like you were close. Have you thought about maybe postponing that visit to a time when you feel stronger? I hope that doesn't sound insensitive but your recovery is pretty important. Oct 31 is the anniversary of my hub's death....its really hard losing someone. I understand what you're saying about wanting to feel some connection with someone who is gone. I don't know that that is possible. I guess it becomes about acceptance and remembering the good times. I don't really know, frankly.
I do know that drinking will not help.
I'm sorry about your father. It sounds like you were close. Have you thought about maybe postponing that visit to a time when you feel stronger? I hope that doesn't sound insensitive but your recovery is pretty important. Oct 31 is the anniversary of my hub's death....its really hard losing someone. I understand what you're saying about wanting to feel some connection with someone who is gone. I don't know that that is possible. I guess it becomes about acceptance and remembering the good times. I don't really know, frankly.
I do know that drinking will not help.
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I'm very sorry to hear about the loss of your father, FBL. I cannot imagine what that must feel like.
Today is my longish day, so I won't be here as much, but I'm sure others will. stick close if you can and if you feel like drinking, check in first. I've done that more than once and it really does help. xo
Today is my longish day, so I won't be here as much, but I'm sure others will. stick close if you can and if you feel like drinking, check in first. I've done that more than once and it really does help. xo
Hi everyone. I'm a little late to join but my first day of sobriety was September 15 so I am on day 20 now. It's been a while since I have been sober this many days in a row. I moved past the withdrawal phase and the urgency phase and now I am in what is for me the head game phase. My mind wants more, everything bores it. It needs to be constantly fed and I do fear at any moment for no particular reason I will pick up and drink to feed it or to numb it out.
For now, in this moment I am sober and have a certain level of peace and anxiety if such a thing is possible. I know that doesn't make sense but what does anymore?
Glad to have a place to call home. I hope to get to know all of you on our journey of learning to live life without alcohol.
For now, in this moment I am sober and have a certain level of peace and anxiety if such a thing is possible. I know that doesn't make sense but what does anymore?
Glad to have a place to call home. I hope to get to know all of you on our journey of learning to live life without alcohol.
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Welcome, Memra!
Jupiters, I know what you mean about not liking the feeling. I think for me sometimes the novelty of all the fabulous things about sobriety start to become routine and it is easy to forget what life was like before. It is one reason I like to do a weekly inventory: makes me take note of changes, and also helps me trace them too.
Hope everyone's Monday is off to a good start.
Jupiters, I know what you mean about not liking the feeling. I think for me sometimes the novelty of all the fabulous things about sobriety start to become routine and it is easy to forget what life was like before. It is one reason I like to do a weekly inventory: makes me take note of changes, and also helps me trace them too.
Hope everyone's Monday is off to a good start.
Monday is on the books. A good day, but frustrating. Training my boss' wife. She doesn't come in til five hours into my eight hour shift. Expects me to stop and go over what I've done. How about being there at five thirty when I get there and start from the top of my day? Then keeps calling me off task to go to her.....how about trotting your ass over to me and let me help you without leaving what I'm doing. I see it as passive aggression. Drives me nuts. Her husband, whom I've worked for years with, and my boss know.....tell me what my goals are on top of my regular tasks, and it will get done, and done right. I've worked for this company 32 years.....I know my STUFF.
Hubs was home today. He had Lyme disease....to the point before catching, that neurological side effects occurred. Short term memory impairment, headaches, easily frustrated. So today was a prone on the couch day for him. Poor lovey. Will be a quiet night here.
It was so nice to wake up feeling good. I felt happy before I ever threw the covers back!
Enough complaining. Grateful to be alive and sober.
Hugs all around!!!!
Hubs was home today. He had Lyme disease....to the point before catching, that neurological side effects occurred. Short term memory impairment, headaches, easily frustrated. So today was a prone on the couch day for him. Poor lovey. Will be a quiet night here.
It was so nice to wake up feeling good. I felt happy before I ever threw the covers back!
Enough complaining. Grateful to be alive and sober.
Hugs all around!!!!
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Became a little quite here. Hopefully those of us remaining can stay the course, keep posting and supporting.
Personally I've nothing to report other than I'm going through a good spell and feeling pretty good about the universe at present.
Personally I've nothing to report other than I'm going through a good spell and feeling pretty good about the universe at present.
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