Class of September 2015 Part 4
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Originally Posted by Midton 
Sunday morning and I'm up and over yesterday's cravings.
I have mixed feelings though. Naturally I'm overjoyed to not have given in but I feel a little down about how pathetic I was yesterday. I feel I was like a child just selfishly wanting and then throwing a tantrum when I didn't get what I wanted.
I don't have excuses for wanting to drink yesterday. I can understand people, after some time sober beginning to doubt they have a drink problem. I've been there. Yesterday wasn't that. I know that if I drank yesterday I would have hit it hard, hit it to get drunk, been "onnit " as they say.
I seen a lot of posts on this site where people say "play the tape". Yesterday I either played the wrong tape or played the right one but didn't play it long enough.
I'm off to the gym which will drag me out of this funk.
I have mixed feelings though. Naturally I'm overjoyed to not have given in but I feel a little down about how pathetic I was yesterday. I feel I was like a child just selfishly wanting and then throwing a tantrum when I didn't get what I wanted.
I don't have excuses for wanting to drink yesterday. I can understand people, after some time sober beginning to doubt they have a drink problem. I've been there. Yesterday wasn't that. I know that if I drank yesterday I would have hit it hard, hit it to get drunk, been "onnit " as they say.
I seen a lot of posts on this site where people say "play the tape". Yesterday I either played the wrong tape or played the right one but didn't play it long enough.
I'm off to the gym which will drag me out of this funk.
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Join Date: Aug 2015
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Happy birthday FABL! Hope you have a good day!
3wolves, I am so sorry the way things went with your Mom. I try not to make things more than what they are with my Mom. For my own sanity I just can't. ((Hug))
Sounds like y'all are pushing through and doing a job well done. As you go just keep finding ways to deal with your addiction and it's really about learning to live differently. Change the things you used to do and replace with healthy activities. Try to be positive to replace the negative AV that still lives in you and is still pretty active right now. That AV is the dumbest thing you know. Don't listen to it!
Have a good sober Sunday! ((Hug))!
3wolves, I am so sorry the way things went with your Mom. I try not to make things more than what they are with my Mom. For my own sanity I just can't. ((Hug))
Sounds like y'all are pushing through and doing a job well done. As you go just keep finding ways to deal with your addiction and it's really about learning to live differently. Change the things you used to do and replace with healthy activities. Try to be positive to replace the negative AV that still lives in you and is still pretty active right now. That AV is the dumbest thing you know. Don't listen to it!
Have a good sober Sunday! ((Hug))!
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Happy Sunday Class
Its a cool morning. Kiddo is still sleeping....of course. Yoga this AM, then yard work. Not sure what we'll do after that. Slept good last night. So, well, all is well. Hope everyone has a great day!
Its a cool morning. Kiddo is still sleeping....of course. Yoga this AM, then yard work. Not sure what we'll do after that. Slept good last night. So, well, all is well. Hope everyone has a great day!
(just had to put that second one in there--never saw it before 
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Thanks for the bday wishes 
Had a nice lunch, my mom had wine but I refrained. See- that's the easy part. Now I'm home alone for a couple of hours and really tempted. Which is stupid since just this morning I posted how sure I was I wouldn't drink.
It's really been a great day so far and as much as beer sounds appealing to me right now in my little drinking fantasy- the truth is that my day will quickly go downhill if I drink. I worked hard on my yard and porch today and the weather is nice but if I drink I'll just feel lazy and loopy and not even go out and enjoy it. When my kids get back, I'll be buzz and not connect with them like I do sober. I'll either pass out early or stay up too late and wake up feeling like crap for my day off tomorrow, hating myself for not only drinking but for breaking my promise not to drink on my birthday ever again.
Sounds like loads of fun, doesn't it??
Boy, typing that out really helped. I swear I was about 5 minutes from going to the store and buying beer- ha! Take that AV!!
Had a nice lunch, my mom had wine but I refrained. See- that's the easy part. Now I'm home alone for a couple of hours and really tempted. Which is stupid since just this morning I posted how sure I was I wouldn't drink.
It's really been a great day so far and as much as beer sounds appealing to me right now in my little drinking fantasy- the truth is that my day will quickly go downhill if I drink. I worked hard on my yard and porch today and the weather is nice but if I drink I'll just feel lazy and loopy and not even go out and enjoy it. When my kids get back, I'll be buzz and not connect with them like I do sober. I'll either pass out early or stay up too late and wake up feeling like crap for my day off tomorrow, hating myself for not only drinking but for breaking my promise not to drink on my birthday ever again.
Sounds like loads of fun, doesn't it??
Boy, typing that out really helped. I swear I was about 5 minutes from going to the store and buying beer- ha! Take that AV!!
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Join Date: Aug 2015
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Originally Posted by forabetterlife
It's really been a great day so far and as much as beer sounds appealing to me right now in my little drinking fantasy- the truth is that my day will quickly go downhill if I drink. I worked hard on my yard and porch today and the weather is nice but if I drink I'll just feel lazy and loopy and not even go out and enjoy it. When my kids get back, I'll be buzz and not connect with them like I do sober. I'll either pass out early or stay up too late and wake up feeling like crap for my day off tomorrow, hating myself for not only drinking but for breaking my promise not to drink on my birthday ever again.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
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OMG!!
Had my FB account hacked. What an ordeal. They posted HARD CORE PORN on the sites I belong to in my name, and on my wall! Talk about a mess to clean up. Composed and sent letters of apology and explanation to admins of sites. You know, just the autism and diabetes communities. Aaaaack.
Had my FB account hacked. What an ordeal. They posted HARD CORE PORN on the sites I belong to in my name, and on my wall! Talk about a mess to clean up. Composed and sent letters of apology and explanation to admins of sites. You know, just the autism and diabetes communities. Aaaaack.
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Wow 3wolves. That blows!!
Reminds me that my email was listed on the Ashley Maddison hack. I joined out of curiosity more than anything. I know now that curiosity definitely kills cats and more. It's curiosity that got me on drugs, cheating on the wife with somebody from work, porn addiction, poker addiction, alcoholism....
I'm not completely healed. But I'm over all those addictions. The one I still haven't dropped completely is porn. Every once in a while I hit that. And now, I'm making the claim....no more. It's just a really bad addiction. Should be an easy one to drop completely.
Thanks 3wolves.
You got the wheels turning.
I hope everything settles alright for ya.
Reminds me that my email was listed on the Ashley Maddison hack. I joined out of curiosity more than anything. I know now that curiosity definitely kills cats and more. It's curiosity that got me on drugs, cheating on the wife with somebody from work, porn addiction, poker addiction, alcoholism....
I'm not completely healed. But I'm over all those addictions. The one I still haven't dropped completely is porn. Every once in a while I hit that. And now, I'm making the claim....no more. It's just a really bad addiction. Should be an easy one to drop completely.
Thanks 3wolves.
You got the wheels turning.
I hope everything settles alright for ya.
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Originally Posted by Popeye2014
Day 16 for me I had a close call yesterday but made it without drinking! I encourage everyone to have a plan for the urge when it hits you. I didn't have a plan and almost drank. I feel better Today
I made it through the weekend alright. Was kinda in a funk for most of it. My AV likes to take advantage of that. Tells me if this is what sobriety is gonna be like you mind as well drink.
I will not drink thank you very much.
Night everyone.
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Join Date: Sep 2015
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Day 22!! Twenty freakin' two!
Beautiful day here in Oz. Still tired as hell but I'm going to spend my day lazing at the beach with the kids.
The ex wants to take us away for a weekend to a holiday resort, just a mini break for the kids for the school holidays so there I was, excitedly scrolling through all the hotels we could stay in, what they had to offer etc, and it suddenly hit me....in the past when we have done this, and we used to do it a lot, the whole point of it for me would be getting those kids in bed so we adults could get drunk.
So many things I did in my life revolved around alcohol, how bloody sad. I'd be on holiday with my kids and all I'd be waiting for was bedtime so I could have my wine. (If I even lasted that long)
We are probably going sometime next week, so that is going to be my first real test. It will be like going back to day one here at home, when I didn't know what to do with myself, when I was sat there thinking 'what now'.
Will have to make sure I'm armed with all my nice food and soft drinks and colouring books and anything else I use here at home. I'm also going to have to ask him to not drink too......eek.
Beautiful day here in Oz. Still tired as hell but I'm going to spend my day lazing at the beach with the kids.
The ex wants to take us away for a weekend to a holiday resort, just a mini break for the kids for the school holidays so there I was, excitedly scrolling through all the hotels we could stay in, what they had to offer etc, and it suddenly hit me....in the past when we have done this, and we used to do it a lot, the whole point of it for me would be getting those kids in bed so we adults could get drunk.
So many things I did in my life revolved around alcohol, how bloody sad. I'd be on holiday with my kids and all I'd be waiting for was bedtime so I could have my wine. (If I even lasted that long)
We are probably going sometime next week, so that is going to be my first real test. It will be like going back to day one here at home, when I didn't know what to do with myself, when I was sat there thinking 'what now'.
Will have to make sure I'm armed with all my nice food and soft drinks and colouring books and anything else I use here at home. I'm also going to have to ask him to not drink too......eek.
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