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Old 09-20-2015, 04:46 PM
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Just got in from work and my allergies are horrid - ragweed everywhere. Still better then drunk! Have a nice night all.
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Old 09-20-2015, 05:01 PM
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Day1

I'm back again for my "last first day" sober. I was in the August class but switching to September because I think that is meant to be.

Rebirthday: September 20, 2015
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Old 09-20-2015, 05:03 PM
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Last night I got drunk for the last time. I need to write down how horrible it is so I can remember when tempted.
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Old 09-20-2015, 05:17 PM
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Old 09-20-2015, 05:48 PM
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Welcome, sports fan!

Congratulations, Cali!!

Worked in the garden all day here. It is hot and neighbors invited me to the pub. I declined: plenty of nonalcoholic options, but u didn't feel the need to put myself in temptations path.
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Old 09-20-2015, 06:19 PM
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Great decision, Matilda. 👍
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Old 09-20-2015, 06:30 PM
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Have a great sober week folks. Hope your weekend was bearable. Don't worry...soon enough you'll be back to enjoying the weekends without doing the "Alcohol Shuffle."

Congrats to all for making through another weekend dodging temptation!
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Old 09-20-2015, 06:39 PM
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Fricka, I was thought "weird" too. Bookish and awkward looking as a kid and painfully shy. My mom is a glass half empty sort of person too, which probably didn't help. For years I traveled around the world giving talks and her constant remark was, that's great, but when are you getting married? When are you having children? I'm married now (no children, not able to) and now, every time I talk to her, she is asking me if I've finished my current book. Argh! I know I'm not a child and I should let it go, but boy, she knows my soft spots and how to press them. I told my partner I'd like to forego the requisite trip back home for the holidays and maybe just go somewhere fun, either just the 2 of us or with the dogs.
I relate so much. This is weird but I realized after I broke up with my exbf that he is so much like my Mom it is.....frightening actually. I'm dating my Mom. Wow. Even told me I'm socially awkward....amongst many other things. Thanks Mom...er I mean, honey. I think some distance from the family can be good, especially if they still set off old unresolved stuff. I actually think I've finally realized that my Mom did only what she knew how to do. And she is as introspective as a 2X4 so she will never change, never question, never grow. Just life the exbf. Ahhhh denial. I won't be home for the holidays either!
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Old 09-20-2015, 06:40 PM
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Originally Posted by foreverfuzzy View Post
Checking in, sober, not on top of the world but sober...
What's up fuzzy? It's normal to have ups and downs. Hang in there.
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Old 09-20-2015, 06:46 PM
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Originally Posted by CaliButterfly View Post
Checking in on day 12. Last two nights have been really hard. Got married on Fri and took off for a weekend out of town. Seeing my new DH drinking and I couldn't was uber difficult. My AV was trying to override my resolve, but I held out. My DH was so supportive, helped me abstain, and I made it through unscathed.

To all that are struggling, hang in there. We'll have good days and bad days, and pretty soon the good ones will far outweigh the ones with cravings. It's worth it!!
Wow congrats. Day 12 and married. You will never regret being sober for the big day. Just awesome.
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Fricka, are you sure we didn't date the same man? �� but seriously,, for most of my 20s and 30s I dated my mom. Hyper critical men who were always trying to put me in my place. ugh! So glad to be off that train!
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Have a great sober week folks. Hope your weekend was bearable. Don't worry...soon enough you'll be back to enjoying the weekends without doing the "Alcohol Shuffle."

Congrats to all for making through another weekend dodging temptation!
And my alcohol shuffle seems to have ended. Sheesh 3 days of dancin.....a shuffleathon. It's over thank god.
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Old 09-20-2015, 06:52 PM
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Welcome SportsFan I'm glad you've set a new Day 1. Hope to see you here often.
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[QUOTE=matilda123;5566018]Fricka, are you sure we didn't date the same man? �� but seriously,, for most of my 20s and 30s I dated my mom. Hyper critical men who were always trying to put me in my place. ugh! So glad to be off that train![/QUOT

Strangely my first hub was pretty low key. Nice guy really. But he was more friend than husband. Divorced him then married another pretty good guy. He had his demons but he loved me, and I him. Unfortunately he passed. I think my self esteem was slaughtered at that point from drinking and the dark side of that relationship and watching him slowly die from cancer...codependent and manipulative. I was ripe for a critical, over bearing, selfish, perfectionist. In a way I asked for it. All the things that attracted me to him eventually became what made me insane. I've learned so much. Never again.
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Originally Posted by Frickaflip233 View Post
And my alcohol shuffle seems to have ended. Sheesh 3 days of dancin.....a shuffleathon. It's over thank god.
Well that's great news FAF! Of course you can expect some more dancing on the days to follow. But sounds like the hardest is over for you. That's awesome!!!!
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Well, Folks. I think I've worn myself out these last 2 weeks. I've tried to keep really busy, doing lots of extra exercise, eating okay, but not sleeping well. I think I'm getting a cold, besides. Heading off to bed. Have a good sleep everyone. See you tomorrow.
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Fricka, so sorry to hear about your partner's death. I can't imagine what that would be like to go through.

Strangely, my first marriage was to someone who was more friend than lover. I was awful in that relationship and he finally left. Funny enough, I'm with a nice guy now. I have to say my inclinAtion isn't to go in that direction, but I also know that is another part of my av talking. Abusive relationships, sadly, seem more "natural" to me.

Had to laugh about the 2x4 comment-- I can relate
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Well, Folks. I think I've worn myself out these last 2 weeks. I've tried to keep really busy, doing lots of extra exercise, eating okay, but not sleeping well. I think I'm getting a cold, besides. Heading off to bed. Have a good sleep everyone. See you tomorrow.

Good night, rar! I hope you sleep well. Congrats on two weeks--that's fantastic.
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Well that's great news FAF! Of course you can expect some more dancing on the days to follow. But sounds like the hardest is over for you. That's awesome!!!!
Yes it feels good. I'm so much calmer today....can't explain it. Interesting I was sober for almost two years and not once did I experience this level of ambivalence. I had a couple of close calls (before finally deciding I could fake being a normal drinker....I knew I couldn't...have no idea what I'm trying to say) but they were sudden, extreme, then once I prevailed, gone. This was quite different. I think that last dry period was full of expectations, goals and false bravado. I think I was faking it quite frankly. Good faker I am. Who knows. Hopefully I won't have to do a 72 hour shuffle again.
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Just checking in to end the day. Good to hear folks were able to make it through their shuffles, and glad to see a new face or two marking their last first.

Hope you all have a good week
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