saoutchik

Well done All Blacks

Tooshabby

Aghhhh!!!!! Just about to race over to Mum's and watch delayed coverage!!!! Deliberately not looking at news but saw you'd posted so of course had to read it. I'd thought yesterday don't do that just in case and forgot. Bloody SR addiction strikes again!!

Ha ha....at least I won't be nervous now.

Love you guys :-)

Jsbodhi

Hi Team,

Just checking in, still sober, not sure which day I'm at, but my phone will notify me at 30 days
I love dogs too Ven, but like you my schedule isn't good for a pet .
Not much planned, cooking, meditation class, river, study.
I'm quite boring
Xoxo

Feel better sao

saoutchik

Oh crap! So sorry Shabby. It would have been a nail biter with a happy ending too

Thanks Jen - I am feeling better. You are definitely not boring

Tooshabby

Your life sounds wonderful, Jen!!! Do you live near a river?

No problemo, Sao. I think I would have been racked with fear the whole game if I hadn't known we would win. Bit too close for my liking

saoutchik

Like the new avatar Shabby

NestWasEmpty if still you read this thread I hope you are well

Clocks went back last night, it is 5pm here and getting dark already

Cissy

I oopsed. Had a case of extreme anxiety two days ago. Took 1mg of Ativan and tried to walk my way through it. Tried to analyze what I was feeling, figure out what triggered it, etc. Time passed and it didn't resolve. I ended up caving and had a few light beers. Then yesterday I just did it again cause I'd already opened that door that had been shut.

Shutting it again today and walking through that first week of sobriety yet again. Day #1 here.

Dee74

Welcome back Cissy

any ideas on what you might do in that situation again?

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Cissy

Go for a drive. That usually puts me into a more relaxed frame of mind.

Venecia

Sorry to hear that, Cissy. Keep moving forward -- I've got faith in you!

There is a gap of time between when the urge seems overpowering and the act of drinking itself. Come to SR when the urge is eating away at you. Post here or if you're involved in your class, put out a call. Or both. Or the Newcomers Forum. I know that chat can be inconsistent, but most times, there is someone there.

Get back on the horse.

Tooshabby

I've got faith in you too, Cissy. Just a minor hiccup along the long route to sobriety. (Well, mine has been a long route, anyway). After my last slip up, I really noticed how much better I had felt staying sober compared with the real 'down on myself' lacking in energy thing that happens if I drink - even just once.

Let's not give up so we get there! (((hugs))) I didn't post last time I caved in - that's one thing I can do differently.

We face Australia in the final - gulp. Scotland should have won that game, it really 'p's me off actually. They take gold medals away from athletes I don't know why they can't just say, sorry, our mistake Scotland won. Anyhow. Sour grapes. Those poor Argentinians, they tried so hard.

Hope you guys are good, Ven, Sao, Jen, Dee, and Nesty if you're there!!

saoutchik

Glad you are still on board Cissy.

I am sorry that you have feelings of extreme anxiety. Maybe if they happen again you could post in the newcomers forum

Obviously post here as well Cis but there are not enough of us on this thread to guarantee a quick response

Like the others I have faith in you too Cissy - you'll get there

Cissy

Day 2

Thanks, everyone. The problem with boards like this is they don't help me when I'm struggling. I know Frank got a lot of strength out of coming here and just keeping occupied when the temptations came on, but for me, I don't feel it helps at all. Sorry.

I've never been a group therapy or that sort of person and I don't gain strength from things that are outside of me. It all has to come from within or from above. That's why I get so much more strength when I lean on God vs people.

I'm going to go back to that mentality. I have enjoyed hanging with you guys and gals but I do hate counting and it's never gotten me anywhere but right back to "day 1." Just how I'm built, somehow. So back to not counting, back to not hanging out on sobriety forums and back to not talking about booze.

(((((Hugs)))))

Tooshabby

You have to do what's best for you, (((Cissy))). We will miss you here though.

saoutchik

I understand where you're coming from Cissy but like Shabby I will miss you

Venecia

I wish you well, Cissy.

Remember, the door's always open and the coffee's always on.

Tooshabby

Maybe you could pop in for coffee every now and then, Cissy? :-)

saoutchik

I was gonna say it sounds like the Cheers Bar "where everybody knows your name" but then I realised how inappropriate that is for an SR thread lol!

I think I am going to have to buy some new clothes at the weekend (or soon anyway) Since I stopped drinking, ate more healthily and started jogging I have lost a ton of weight. I probably won't hate shopping as much knowing that my size no longer begins with several X's

Tooshabby

Lol! I've got that song in my head now. That was a great programme. I wish they'd repeat it. I preferred Kirstie Alley though, Shelley Long was a bit irritating.

Hey, what a great feeling, Sao. Good on you. When you do go, as well as getting the basics, splash out and get yourself something colourful. To celebrate sobriety and the new and improved version of Sao :-D

I've actually gone the opposite way a little bit - put on 3 or 4 pounds. I'm fine with that though I had some leeway. I think 'the universe' spared me weight problems I had so many others!

Tooshabby

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=81QluTS-mWc