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Old 09-14-2015, 08:30 AM
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Dalekingston, welcome! I'm back after a hiatus too. Was sober for 6 months and then slowly drinking crept back until I found myself drinking wine every night. My situation is similar: on the surface life and work are going well. But I have known enough drinkers and read enough stories to know I'm flirting with disaster here. And once I have a few more sober days under my belt, I need to grapple with why, if my life is so great, I'm feeling the need to drown in wine every night.

Take care and I hope you have a great day. You have so many reasons not to drink, that beautiful 3 year old among them. So love kids T that age!
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Old 09-14-2015, 08:33 AM
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Made it 12 days and I'm back to day 1. I hadn't been on SR since Friday. Reading how great everyone is feeling today, versus me with my exhaustion and headache is making me so depressed over screwing up. It was so not worth it. Never is of course. Had a rough memorial for my husbands grandma. All the family and emotions really exhausted me.
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Old 09-14-2015, 08:36 AM
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Originally Posted by matilda123 View Post
Good morning everyone! I had a rotten night's sleep. Kept waking up and very vivid dreams. Stinks too because I won't be home from work until 10 or so. That being said, if I had drank last night, I would have slept poorly AND been hungover, so I guess it'll be a better Monday than it usually is! Bring on day 6!
Me too, Matilda. That and the night sweats! We're both on day 6, sounds like we're both at the same place in withdrawland. lol It IS a better Monday, and working til 10 will keep your mind occupied. Blessing in disguise. We can get through this.
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Old 09-14-2015, 08:41 AM
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Originally Posted by saoirse View Post
Made it 12 days and I'm back to day 1. I hadn't been on SR since Friday. Reading how great everyone is feeling today, versus me with my exhaustion and headache is making me so depressed over screwing up. It was so not worth it. Never is of course. Had a rough memorial for my husbands grandma. All the family and emotions really exhausted me.
It's ok Saoirse, this can happen to any of us. The most important part is to get up, dust yourself off, and keep going. I made the mistake early last year to just say F - it, after I slipped 9 days into sobriety. It has taken me until now to kick myself in the butt and I have lost so much time with the ones I love because of it. Don't regret your regression, just learn from it and keep trying. It WILL stick and we're all here for support.
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Old 09-14-2015, 10:58 AM
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Have a nice evening everyone
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Old 09-14-2015, 12:26 PM
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In all reality I should have been in every class....
Me too.
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Old 09-14-2015, 12:42 PM
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Day 1, again need to get a grip I've been relapsing loads over the last few months, so tired of it all. Just seem to have run out of my sobriety steam and a lot of my fight has gone.

Glad to see you back Applecat and congratulations on the baby, hope you and she/he are well There are a few of us here from the November class, I'm still on that thread too.

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Old 09-14-2015, 12:55 PM
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Still here, day 11 . I'm completely amazed that I made it this far. I have been having a lot of thoughts about a glass of wine. I usually turn my attention towards undone tasks and that gets me over the hump. I can't wait to get active on the forum again but for now I'm laying low and getting rest. Hope everyone is doing well!
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Old 09-14-2015, 01:02 PM
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Hi Everyone. Had class today and am now swimming in glorious homework. Keeps the mind occupied.
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Old 09-14-2015, 01:44 PM
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I thought you went quiet Peach ideal time to get plan building

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Old 09-14-2015, 02:10 PM
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Hi everyone,
I haven't been posting as much as I had intended, I am trying for day 1 again.
I know I need a better plan because I really don't have a plan in place at all, other than to post and not drink. Lately it just seems like it takes everything I have to just get through the day. What I am doing isn't working and I know I need to change something, I just don't know what right now.

My doctor gave me Antabuse to try & help me get back on track. This has never been anything I wanted and I got the prescription a week ago and still haven't taken it. I am doubting that I will take it at all. It makes me nervous as it looks like you can have a lot of reactions with it, and I don't like being sick like that. He also gave me Naltrexone which seemed to help me in the past but stopped for some reason. I might try it again as it was helpful for a while. Still hoping against hope that I can get another stretch of sobriety going.

I hope everyone is doing well and is having a good start to a new week
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Old 09-14-2015, 02:10 PM
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Lazy couch day here. Marathon watched season 3 of Hannibal. AMAZING! I'm not sure what to do now that I've finished it..... There are a bunch of things I could and probably should do but I just don't have the energy for it today. Feeling very blah.

Sober and present to help my son with his math homework. He's a lefty so he's always trying to work backwards and gets himself confused, but as soon as he works at it the right direction he's fine. I've had him tested for dyslexia and they said he's not but I'm still not so sure? He's almost 11 and still writes some letters and numbers backwards. Must be hard though to have to write and understand things against his natural inclinations. He wants to reverse everything ya know?
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Old 09-14-2015, 02:10 PM
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Day 8. Tucked up in bed. ... looking forward to reaching double digits. Hoping everyone well and winning
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Old 09-14-2015, 02:14 PM
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Hi all,

I will join in please. Another 'day one again' candidate here I was doing better than I have in months and managed a brilliant, sober birthday weekend last weekend (I did a tree-top adventure and fish and chip supper instead of my usual 'its-my-birthday-so-I-can-get-hammered-guilt-free routine). I was doing something productive every day and had started a new job. Then BAM! yesterday I had a sudden urge to buy wine when I went to the shop to buy a birthday card for a friend. I drank it faster than I've probably downed anything before; it was almost as if it wouldn't count if I could get rid of it. How screwed up.

I am so disappointed in myself. However I've spent the whole day reading positive literature, have made myself a GP appointment for tomorrow (hoping to start on some meds), have my cbt session tomorrow afternoon and have sorted out transport to/from an AA meeting on Thursday night. I'm determined to keep posting on here too.

Thank you all for the support
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Hi everyone,
I haven't been posting as much as I had intended, I am trying for day 1 again.
I know I need a better plan because I really don't have a plan in place at all, other than to post and not drink. Lately it just seems like it takes everything I have to just get through the day. What I am doing isn't working and I know I need to change something, I just don't know what right now.

My doctor gave me Antabuse to try & help me get back on track. This has never been anything I wanted and I got the prescription a week ago and still haven't taken it. I am doubting that I will take it at all. It makes me nervous as it looks like you can have a lot of reactions with it, and I don't like being sick like that. He also gave me Naltrexone which seemed to help me in the past but stopped for some reason. I might try it again as it was helpful for a while. Still hoping against hope that I can get another stretch of sobriety going.

I hope everyone is doing well and is having a good start to a new week
Hi and welcome back. I have taken antibuse in the past and have had no bad reactions, but everyone is different. I have a prescription now and will pop one if I really feel I might drink. It is not a solution as it does nothing to deal with the obsession with alcohol (to me that is the crux) but it can help a person get some sober days strung together. I have taken naltrexone too but for me it did nothing. I can find a reason to drink over anything so at the end of the day I have to deal with my 'brain' more than my body. You can do this!
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Tuesday morning and double figures, day 10, for me.

I've been in 3 classes previously and basically try to quit drinking the day after anytime I drink. Numerous half-hearted attempts and numerous inglorious failures. Something is different this time. Previously I've always had something looming, a time I felt obliged to drink. I never believed I was going to quit forever. This time I can actually see that possibility, I honestly can. I'm feeling fantastic in numerous ways and am seriously looking forward to waking up sober each morning.

I don't know what's happened this time but I've had no cravings since I've quit, the odd thought but not a gut wrenching compulsion.

And the best thing of all is that this can continue. I can feel this way most of the time and all I have to do is don't.
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Glad to see this board so active today! It seems to be hot and cold lately, but I know that reading all of your posts is so helpful to me, whether you are on day one or day 12. I'm in the middle on day 4. Like many of you , so many failed attempts as well as some good sober stretches. All I know is that everytime I drink, I regret it, and every time I stop drinking for whatever length of time, I feel great. Seems like it should be so easy, right?
Midton, that is awesome that you are feeling so committed and without temptation. I have had moments where I feel like that and they are beautiful

I wake up feeling great and committed, but it wanes as the day goes on. By late afternoon, I start considering a drink "later". This is where it can go either way. If I set my mind to it, that's just it. But if I talk myself out of it and come up with a different plan, I'm safe. Like today, I came home and went for a jog. I'm no athlete and desperately trying to lose weight as well as quit drinking, so exercise does wonders for me. Ate dinner, and now I'm good. But all it takes is one twist or turn at that crucial moment, and it's all over.

Everything about myself begins to change for the better when I remove alcohol. It's like it has serioulsy become a poison to me, physically and mentally.
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Hi Team,

Just taking a break from work.
I have a 3 hour philosophy class tonight, it's called: sex, love and death! Sounds very interesting.
Talk soon xx
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All I know is that everytime I drink, I regret it, and every time I stop drinking for whatever length of time, I feel great.

Everything about myself begins to change for the better when I remove alcohol.
Write these down and pin them up where you can read them every time you think about drinking. You can do this.
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Day 1, again need to get a grip I've been relapsing loads over the last few months, so tired of it all. Just seem to have run out of my sobriety steam and a lot of my fight has gone.

Glad to see you back Applecat and congratulations on the baby, hope you and she/he are well There are a few of us here from the November class, I'm still on that thread too.

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I'm the same, I was thinking of changing my username to day 1 because I say it so much....
I remember you from nov too
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