Class of April 2015 Part 8
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Originally Posted by stargazer016 
I have been feeling really good about not drinking and have not had any urges to speak of recently.The last couple weeks have cruised by smoothly. I am feeling at peace with myself about quitting drinking and the thought of taking a drink and messing up what I have established over the past five months seems incredibly foolish to me now. That is the ultimate defense against drinking, I think.
Have a great weekend everybody!
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Originally Posted by Angie247
Well I'm five months sober as of today! I don't know why I was thinking it was Monday. 
. I'm very happy about it, haven't had the best time of it lately but I'm determined to try to fight those moods a little more than I have. Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend and thank you for being here for me.
. I'm very happy about it, haven't had the best time of it lately but I'm determined to try to fight those moods a little more than I have. Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend and thank you for being here for me. 150 days not drinking is a pretty incredible feat. It shows that you have been able to deal with a whole lot of ups and downs without resorting to our former answer for every problem, alcohol.
Keep it up! You rock!
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Originally Posted by amp123
Hey! Just read this by someone who has chosen to live drink-free not because they feel they have a problem (though sounds like they drank quite a lot) but as a choice. This piece is written at 5 months, the same as us. I found it interesting on the benefits of abstinence. Hope you find it useful too!
Sober for Five Months, I Drank. Here's What Happened. | elephant journal
Sober for Five Months, I Drank. Here's What Happened. | elephant journal
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Hi guys, sorry I'm not posting much. I'm just hanging on. Anxiety has been through the roof. I'm still not sure if it's totally the fault of one of my meds. Guess I'm going to have to bite the bullet and suffer through another try.
Be happy you aren't drinking. Occasional use this summer prevented me from doing every major thing I wanted to do. I never built up physical stamina.
Getting rid of my apartment and getting my motorcycle license were the big ones. 2 full 9 hour days to get the license is too much for me. There was a 4 day class which I enrolled in and they changed the schedule around because they combined 2 classes. I still don't have my $300. I also had a total breakdown at the place and later on. Drugged myself like a horse that night and still didn't sleep. (Safe drug called seroquel that just puts me out from my doc).
Can't deal with this burning anxiety. I had to make some changes, new phone, new computer (I finally think I am going to keep one instead of changing my mind). Brutal anxiety like something stabbing my heart. But drinking doesn't help at all. It makes it worse.
Nothing like drinking to relieve the anxiety and have the booze drive you into a spiral of horror. Oooffff. No good.
Ok, watching TV tonight. Back to therapist tomorrow (every week). And I contacted Psychiatrist via email to get in there.
I'm reading up on you guys.
Thanks
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Be happy you aren't drinking. Occasional use this summer prevented me from doing every major thing I wanted to do. I never built up physical stamina.
Getting rid of my apartment and getting my motorcycle license were the big ones. 2 full 9 hour days to get the license is too much for me. There was a 4 day class which I enrolled in and they changed the schedule around because they combined 2 classes. I still don't have my $300. I also had a total breakdown at the place and later on. Drugged myself like a horse that night and still didn't sleep. (Safe drug called seroquel that just puts me out from my doc).
Can't deal with this burning anxiety. I had to make some changes, new phone, new computer (I finally think I am going to keep one instead of changing my mind). Brutal anxiety like something stabbing my heart. But drinking doesn't help at all. It makes it worse.
Nothing like drinking to relieve the anxiety and have the booze drive you into a spiral of horror. Oooffff. No good.
Ok, watching TV tonight. Back to therapist tomorrow (every week). And I contacted Psychiatrist via email to get in there.
I'm reading up on you guys.
Thanks
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I hope you can sort out the anxiety with your doctors Johnny.
I'm glad your alcohol use has been occasional - alcohol can take a moderate anxiety problem and really amplify it. I had to deal with that for 20 years.
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I'm glad your alcohol use has been occasional - alcohol can take a moderate anxiety problem and really amplify it. I had to deal with that for 20 years.
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Hi, All. Johnny, good to see you are still here. I hope your doctor is able to help you out with the anxiety.
I've been up and down all weekend. Feeling down now but am not drinking. Don't really feel like writing but just wanted to check in with you all. Hopefully will be feeling more verbose tomorrow.
I've been up and down all weekend. Feeling down now but am not drinking. Don't really feel like writing but just wanted to check in with you all. Hopefully will be feeling more verbose tomorrow.
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Aww, thanks for checking in anyways Kim. I hope you feel better soon.
SG- I am grateful that I discovered AVRT early in my recovery. It really helped me get through some events.
Amp- The article was very good. I could relate to her for sure; nothing external makes me happy.
Last night's lunar eclipse would have have been an excuse to have a bottle of wine while watching, but the thought never crossed my mind until later while I was soaking in the tub reflecting on the day. Instead, my son and I were sat at the end of our driveway with a camera and binoculars. He was riding his bike back and forth and doing somersaults into the ditch. It was fun!
It's a crisp chilly morning. Fall weather has arrived, after our summer like weather this weekend. Have a fantastic day or evening, I love being sober!
SG- I am grateful that I discovered AVRT early in my recovery. It really helped me get through some events.
Amp- The article was very good. I could relate to her for sure; nothing external makes me happy.
Last night's lunar eclipse would have have been an excuse to have a bottle of wine while watching, but the thought never crossed my mind until later while I was soaking in the tub reflecting on the day. Instead, my son and I were sat at the end of our driveway with a camera and binoculars. He was riding his bike back and forth and doing somersaults into the ditch. It was fun!
It's a crisp chilly morning. Fall weather has arrived, after our summer like weather this weekend. Have a fantastic day or evening, I love being sober!
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Nice to hear from you Kim! Thanks for checking in! Stay strong. All things will pass!
Johnny, one step at a time. Keep setting yourself managable goals and keep stringing sober time together
Cauliflower: eclipse sounds fun. It was 4am where I live so I had to skip it. Nice to make those alcohol free memories
Take care all!
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Johnny, one step at a time. Keep setting yourself managable goals and keep stringing sober time together
Cauliflower: eclipse sounds fun. It was 4am where I live so I had to skip it. Nice to make those alcohol free memories
Take care all!
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Hi, All. Well, I drank again last night. Just wanted to numb the feelings. It's not a solution. I'm having a hard time right now. I finally have my doctors appointment today so I can get referred to a therapist. I need to figure out ways to live my life sober. It isn't easy, but I don't want to live my life a drunk so there's no other choice. Feeling down, but I'm here because I want to be sober. As always, thank you all for being here and being supportive.
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Good luck Kim and Johnny. Great to see you check in - stay with it!!
I've had all manner of things going on today, have a very early start tomorrow with the same nonsense, and for the first time In a long time I seriously thought about a drink. But none for me today, to be honest only because I want to wake up tomorrow sober. I don't know if that's really a good enough reason but I'll take it. Tomorrow is another day.
Take care all.
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I've had all manner of things going on today, have a very early start tomorrow with the same nonsense, and for the first time In a long time I seriously thought about a drink. But none for me today, to be honest only because I want to wake up tomorrow sober. I don't know if that's really a good enough reason but I'll take it. Tomorrow is another day.
Take care all.
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OMD, one of the best reasons not to drink is to not have a hangover. Whatever keeps you sober works!
Doctors appointment went well. Was "diagnosed" with mild depression and prescribed Wellbutrin. I have a follow up in three weeks to see how the drug interacts with me. She also gave me a reference number for addiction therapy/counseling.
Time to give it another shot!
Doctors appointment went well. Was "diagnosed" with mild depression and prescribed Wellbutrin. I have a follow up in three weeks to see how the drug interacts with me. She also gave me a reference number for addiction therapy/counseling.
Time to give it another shot!
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Good for you Swim. You keep taking the steps necessary. Love it. And I'm happy that you're prescribed Wellbutrin. It works differently for everybody of course, but it does help me.
Seeing an addiction specialist would be HUGE. They are counselors on steroids. Of course a good counselor would also be BIG.
Maybe you can hook up with a psychiatrist too. They just deal with the meds. Normally better than GP's. Make sure you see your doc in 3wks, good or bad. There's several different AD's that work different neurons.
Seeing an addiction specialist would be HUGE. They are counselors on steroids. Of course a good counselor would also be BIG.
Maybe you can hook up with a psychiatrist too. They just deal with the meds. Normally better than GP's. Make sure you see your doc in 3wks, good or bad. There's several different AD's that work different neurons.
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Fifth day in a row of getting up at two am for work. I will be glad to have a couple of days off starting tomorrow. I just can't force myself to get to sleep much before nine even when getting up early. Pretty tired physically and mentally. It's funny how when I'm very tired, drinking thoughts pass through my head. Not urges at all, just thoughts about drinking. I guess the AV will always be lurking quietly deep inside, looking for an opportunity to express itself in case I let my guard down.
Have a great Wednesday all!
Have a great Wednesday all!
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Sorry to hear you drank, Kim, but it does sound as if you're taking plenty of positive steps to help get some momentum going.
One of my favourite Beatles songs is Hey Jude. There's a lyric in it that, on the surface, sounds very cryptic but to me it makes perfect sense:
"The movement you need is on your shoulder"
It's about using your will power to create your own momentum... At least that's how I always interpret it. There are whole parts of that song which I find so relevant to different parts of life
"So let it out and let it in"!!!
Glad things went well at the doctors!
Salutations to all of April!
One of my favourite Beatles songs is Hey Jude. There's a lyric in it that, on the surface, sounds very cryptic but to me it makes perfect sense:
"The movement you need is on your shoulder"
It's about using your will power to create your own momentum... At least that's how I always interpret it. There are whole parts of that song which I find so relevant to different parts of life
"So let it out and let it in"!!!
Glad things went well at the doctors!
Salutations to all of April!
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SG...I have the same issues when tired. Goes to show HALT is real.
Amp...love that song. Now I'll have a new perspective. Thank you!
None for me today. Insurance job is hanging by a thread. I need full mental abilities. Glad I am not drunk or hung over!
Have a great sober day.
Amp...love that song. Now I'll have a new perspective. Thank you!
None for me today. Insurance job is hanging by a thread. I need full mental abilities. Glad I am not drunk or hung over!
Have a great sober day.
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Hi all, well, still sober. I think for me it's now about how else to go from 100 to zero when I'm tired and wired. On a day like today I would have dumped a bottle of wine in 30 mins and bingo. Anyway, just another day. None for me because I want to participate in my life.
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