needtostopthis

Jsbodhi- Yikes! That is a long day of work!

As for me I have the worst heartburn, my normal prescription is not even touching my heartburn. I feel like i have fire in my throat. I am also so tired. I need to get some food in this house but can't get motivated to do anything.
Right now i don't feel any pull to drink but who knows how i will feel by tomorrow.

forabetterlife

Great posts everyone just checking in from work.. Day 4. A real battle going on inside my head .. What do I want more? Sobriety or to instant short term pleasure of drinking followed by massive consequences. Should be a no brainer, but my addiction keeps screaming that is ok. No it's not!!! I like myself sooooo much better sober.

Elizabeth333

Hi - I let other people affect me two days ago and drank. That said, I am joining this month and back on the path. Thank you all being here.

carebearlost

I can relate to what you are saying. My AV voice is saying, "oh, you are only on day 6, not that long, you can drink tonight and start over" I think to myself, sure when would that be a month a year from now? I have worked very hard for my 6 sober days and will not lose them. AV voice will lose.

MiaG

Had a Friday night challenge tonight....i'd usually have skipped post work drinks but was bosses pre wedding drinks. I went along for a coke, was tough watching everyone sink pints but I got out after an hour....was tempted to pop in one of the many pubs in way home but bought Ben and Jerry's instead haha. Take that av!

I just kept playing that tape....comparing Saturday after drinking to the Saturday I have planned.

Hope you're all doing OK...

CaseyW

You've got to get off this yo yo of constantly relapsing at some point, FABL. No better day than today. Keep posting once a minute if that's what it takes to not take that first drink. You know it's the right decision, even if it is a hard one.

needtostopthis

Forabetterlife- Don't do it! Look at me, i caved in 2 days ago and it was the worst mistake. I still feel awful, physically and mentally. I know your AV is saying otherwise but don't give in. It is a trap! Carebare- I was at day 5 and i said the same thing. My AV was like it won't be a big deal because you can just start over. What a liar my AV is!

Incontrol15

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FacingFuture

Wishing strength and wellness to each and every one of you.

For those of us on the early days... Just remember, these first 3-5 are the hardest. Do we want to keep doing them over and over? Or should we get through them and start really enjoying life again?

aussieblue

Welcome to all our new September members!

DAY 5

I am staying strong by not drinking , once I get past the evening meal I don't seem to have the urge to drink , the hard part is from around
3 pm to dinner time that's when I used to do most of my secret drinking until my husband came home then I would join him in drinks. My headaches are still bad , I have them most of the time all day , not throbbers but dull all the time , today I just feel like sh*t physically. I reckon I have around another week or so of this from previous experiences getting dry.
Stay strong everyone.

CharlieFox

Day 21 of being sober.

Glad to join this group here, I'm hoping I'll be able to find something I've been unable to find just by myself. I've gone through the worst of my physical cravings, and I'm just trying to avoid alot of my 'triggers', which is unfortunate being a bartender and working in the food service industry. I haven't touched a drop since I got my 2nd dwi a few weeks ago, but I can see my problem clearly now and how difficult it's going to be in the future.

kinzoku

Hey all.

Five days down. Last night, friday, was absolutely the hardest. I really missed a drink on my own after a long day.

Its funny that, my excuse to drink has always been keeping an active social life, yet its easy for me not to drink, or even possible to moderate socially.

Whats impossible is drinking alone. I go off the rails.

And thats when I most want to drink. For me, not for anyone else, but for me to ease anxiety and pain. To escape.

Five mornings without a hangover is insane. I feel like I'm walking in a dream. My mind is lacking its usual fog. My life is lacking its usual drama of the hangover, the frenetic race through the day to kill the hangover with booze.

How strange it all is.

I am grateful.

-Kin

Dee74

Good for you kinzoku

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forabetterlife

Casey, you are right about me having to get off this yo yo thing- it's been going on far too long.
Sometimes I think this pattern has become my new normal- sabotaging myself with drinking followed by the natural high of sobriety. I don't know. Whatever it is, I want off.
Needtostop- thank you. I have been in your shoes a million times and always regret it terribly. I hope you feel better soon and we can move on sober in September together.

Once I've moved past my nightly craving and accept that I won't be drinking, I just want to go to bed and sleep... Sometimes that's as early as 7:00! Not that there isn't plenty to do, I just am done. Maybe fighting the craving on top of my already way to stressful day is just too exhausting. But it also feels a little sad that I just want to sleep if I can't drink. I hope that goes away soon.

I plan to be around a lot this weekend and I hope all of you are as well

forabetterlife

Kin, I'm a mostly alone Drinker too. Pretty easy for me to say no or moderate socially but alone, there's no one watching and I slip into my own little bubble. Five days is great - and five days without the drinking physical, mental, and emotional drama when we can actual feel a moment or two of peace. Love it.

snarky

Kin, that's awesome! Today is day 7 for me. I am. Solo binge drinker. In public I won't even drink. Gotta keep up the facade I guess. Congrats!

tiredofme

Hello day 5 here had a relaxing sober lie in beats using a day off to recover from an hangover any day.

Seems quite a few of us drink normally in public but at home alone all bets are off. Didn't start out like that for me alcohol give me false confidence in social situations that i didn't have it hid my shyness and quietness so I could fit in. How this poison takes hold till we need it just to be alone deal with feelings or just to get through the day.

Anyway plan for today is cinema meal then hospital visit finished off with telly watching and cake got to have some treats lol.

Hope you all have a great Saturday

JaneLane

Hi everyone

Today is my day one. Turns out my habit of isolating and not talking when things get hard, doesn't work out too well!

I'm disappointed in myself but I went to a meetings already this morning and a friend told me that there's nothing I can do but learn from it and push forward. It's made me feel less ashamed.

I'm reworking my programme and have taken an extra commitment at one of my regular meetings. I make awful coffee though so I don't know if they know what they've let themselves in for! Ha.

Anyway good to be here and I'm looking forward to catching up :-)

JaneLane

Hi boozefree, good to see you and that's brilliant about the counsellor. I'm seeing my addiction counsellor next week after not seeing her for *ages* and it definitely helps!

JaneLane

That's brilliant that you are so self aware and I'm sending you lots of positivity. You can do this!