Class of July 2013 Part 21
Thanks Dee. Not 6 months until the 21st...but it will be a truly significant milestone for me. There was a while back there when I didn't think I'd make it this time. To say I am feeling grateful would be an understatement.
Thank you for your unending support and for being you
Thank you for your unending support and for being you
Jeni what beautiful inspiration words to read from you my dear friend
Everything you said , is just what I want. Drinking is NOT. Living.
Bless you for coming here & allowing me to read something so poignant & that resonates with me .
We certainly do have a love for our children & that has to win out , doesn't it.
I am so proud of you for almost getting to 6 months.
That's just brilliant .
I know how you struggled in the early days and look where you are now.
You and your beautiful girl have such a great relationship now .
I really need to dig deep . I've done it before , I can do it again.
Your lovely message gives me so much hope.
Thank you darling one , I'm so blessed to have such dear friends like you who genuinely care and want me well. Your support means the world to me
I CAN and WILL do this .
I love you xxx
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Everything you said , is just what I want. Drinking is NOT. Living.
Bless you for coming here & allowing me to read something so poignant & that resonates with me .
We certainly do have a love for our children & that has to win out , doesn't it.
I am so proud of you for almost getting to 6 months.
That's just brilliant .
I know how you struggled in the early days and look where you are now.
You and your beautiful girl have such a great relationship now .
I really need to dig deep . I've done it before , I can do it again.
Your lovely message gives me so much hope.
Thank you darling one , I'm so blessed to have such dear friends like you who genuinely care and want me well. Your support means the world to me
I CAN and WILL do this .
I love you xxx
X
Morning darling Wolfy
Crois , I agree . Something has definitely clicked with me today. I remember how much I love my sobriety , how good I felt , the weight I've lost .
You and Jen have reminded me of how good it can be. I'm not happy , how could I possibly be .
I have not picked up today . I will not pick up tomorrow. I have to pick Holly up from Kapunda. Nearly 4 hour return trip. I'm looking forward to it .
Shaun is coming with me to an AA MEETING this week .
I've surrendered my atm card and cash to Shaun . We share our money anyhow , but I don't want to have anything available to me .
It may sound dramatic but tough times call for tough measures .
Onwards and upwards my friends xx
Crois , I agree . Something has definitely clicked with me today. I remember how much I love my sobriety , how good I felt , the weight I've lost .
You and Jen have reminded me of how good it can be. I'm not happy , how could I possibly be .
I have not picked up today . I will not pick up tomorrow. I have to pick Holly up from Kapunda. Nearly 4 hour return trip. I'm looking forward to it .
Shaun is coming with me to an AA MEETING this week .
I've surrendered my atm card and cash to Shaun . We share our money anyhow , but I don't want to have anything available to me .
It may sound dramatic but tough times call for tough measures .
Onwards and upwards my friends xx
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Snooz, I'm so happy for you. you really are blessed that your family are taking this so seriously.
If the card and cash need to be taken, then so be it. Now, look after yourself these next few days....give yourself the love and care you give to others.xx
If the card and cash need to be taken, then so be it. Now, look after yourself these next few days....give yourself the love and care you give to others.xx
Goodnight lovely , sleep well , you've earnt it
Crois , you're right , they know this one could have been my last one.
But why should I let this bastard beat me. I'm stronger than that.
I'm going to walk my dogs tomorrow with Shaun. What a lovely doc I have , giving him 3 days compassionate leave to look after me .
Geez I sound like I'm 80 lol .
Maybe this was a test . I don't know what I believe in as a higher power but grtgrampa told me it can be anything you choose it to be .so I shall see what unfolds .
:-)
Crois , you're right , they know this one could have been my last one.
But why should I let this bastard beat me. I'm stronger than that.
I'm going to walk my dogs tomorrow with Shaun. What a lovely doc I have , giving him 3 days compassionate leave to look after me .
Geez I sound like I'm 80 lol .
Maybe this was a test . I don't know what I believe in as a higher power but grtgrampa told me it can be anything you choose it to be .so I shall see what unfolds .
:-)
Snoozy, I'm glad to see you feeling stronger and determined. Remember, don't beat yourself up. We have a disease. We need to manage it. Get all the help you can and I love that you're posting here, I love reading your posts. You are a loving and giving woman, give to yourself now, day by day. That's what I need to remember to do for myself currently. The anxiety is horrible, but I'm happy I haven't numbed out with pills, I'm glad I returned them to the pharmacy. No substance, or destructive behaviour will ever make things better. I realize I was/am clingy/needy, running after trying to find a man to assuage my diminished spirit. It's broken, yes, but not unmendable.
Wehav2day, Casey, Wolfie, thanks as always for the belief in me. I doubt myself daily, but it's so lovely and kind to have your support, from all the Julyers too. I pray that some day I will find a modicum of peace and contentment.
Jeni, thanks for your post and congratulations on your hard won upcoming 6 months!
Dee, hope you're feeling better. I saw on another thread that you'd been feeling ill. You are one awesome man. I respect and admire you so much.
Wehav2day, Casey, Wolfie, thanks as always for the belief in me. I doubt myself daily, but it's so lovely and kind to have your support, from all the Julyers too. I pray that some day I will find a modicum of peace and contentment.
Jeni, thanks for your post and congratulations on your hard won upcoming 6 months!
Dee, hope you're feeling better. I saw on another thread that you'd been feeling ill. You are one awesome man. I respect and admire you so much.
It's a lovely Saturday morning here.
The heat has finally broke and we're enjoying a sunny temperate day.
I hope to take Leah for a walk soon and do some work around the house.
Nothing too stressful, just tidy some things up a bit.
Wendy, what is going on with your sobriety reminds me of the time I quit in 2007. I had found out that I was suffering from high blood pressure and pre-diabetes. Now that I look back it seems it was a fear based response to stop. I didn't want to get full blown diabetes or have a stroke from the HBP.
So, I quit for 14 months. Worked hard. lost weight and exercised daily.
Why did I start drinking again?
I got a "good job, you're completely healthy again".
Within a month I was trying to "moderate".
Back to full blown drinking and passing out again.
It wasn't until 2013 that I finally stopped for good.
Problem is, now I have full blown diabetes.
Seems to have gotten worse over this past year.
Scary part is, I'm not obese or terribly overweight.
Somewhere along the line I have damaged something that didn't return to normal. I need to pick myself quite often to check my glucose levels.
Watch what I eat and exercise when I can.
It's frustrating to know that I could have stopped this years ago.
I don't want to see you do something to your body that is irreversible, Wendy.
It poisons our minds and our bodies.
We both want to be around when our kids get married, and to help them with their issues in life.
The heat has finally broke and we're enjoying a sunny temperate day.
I hope to take Leah for a walk soon and do some work around the house.
Nothing too stressful, just tidy some things up a bit.
Wendy, what is going on with your sobriety reminds me of the time I quit in 2007. I had found out that I was suffering from high blood pressure and pre-diabetes. Now that I look back it seems it was a fear based response to stop. I didn't want to get full blown diabetes or have a stroke from the HBP.
So, I quit for 14 months. Worked hard. lost weight and exercised daily.
Why did I start drinking again?
I got a "good job, you're completely healthy again".
Within a month I was trying to "moderate".
Back to full blown drinking and passing out again.
It wasn't until 2013 that I finally stopped for good.
Problem is, now I have full blown diabetes.
Seems to have gotten worse over this past year.
Scary part is, I'm not obese or terribly overweight.
Somewhere along the line I have damaged something that didn't return to normal. I need to pick myself quite often to check my glucose levels.
Watch what I eat and exercise when I can.
It's frustrating to know that I could have stopped this years ago.
I don't want to see you do something to your body that is irreversible, Wendy.
It poisons our minds and our bodies.
We both want to be around when our kids get married, and to help them with their issues in life.
I have not picked up today . I will not pick up tomorrow. I have to pick Holly up from Kapunda. Nearly 4 hour return trip. I'm looking forward to it .
Shaun is coming with me to an AA MEETING this week .
I've surrendered my atm card and cash to Shaun . We share our money anyhow , but I don't want to have anything available to me .
Have a safe trip to Kapunda, wherever that is. Sounds very exotic to these Texan ears.
All is good here. Busy busy night at work last night. Hopefully tonight will be more of the same. Had a co-worker last night pressure me pretty hard to meet her and others at a bar, but that wasn't a temptation at all. I like where my life is headed now and don't want to go back down that road.
Wishing you all the best today. I love this class...
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Love your posts above, Bob. So true.
I'm feeling a bit pissed off about a couple of things today. Finding that balance sometimes around feeling the annoyance about something, then letting it go and moving on. Tricky balance....and there's a fine line between dealing with anger in a healthy way or just sweeping things under the carpet.
That's my little challenge these past few days.
I'm feeling a bit pissed off about a couple of things today. Finding that balance sometimes around feeling the annoyance about something, then letting it go and moving on. Tricky balance....and there's a fine line between dealing with anger in a healthy way or just sweeping things under the carpet.
That's my little challenge these past few days.
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Snooz, it's a great idea to get Shaun intimately involved in your recovery--and for him to control your ATM card! I'm glad you've gotten rid of it all and are not going to drive by any tempting places.
I am proud of you!
I am proud of you!
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