letitgo

I have seen a chiropractor before and it really helped with back pain. Something you may consider Bob. Also if you know anyone with an inversion table. It seemed to help also.

venuscat

I used to have wicked back pain when I was cleaning houses. Mostly the bed making. When I had to do four or so beds in one house as well as all of the other cleaning, it did me in. It's awful. Hope your back gets better Bob.

Love and hello to all ♥

~ Thinking of Wendy ~

Soberwolf

Morning Julyers

I did see that moon this morning half asleep

Croissant

Leshar, lovely to see you post.xx

Happy Wednesday, everyone.

I had some good news today on some potential contracts, and I literally was air-punching at home that such good things were happening. Not just for me, but today, for Wendy. It's a good day.

Leshar, we have to get some more air-punching, good vibes for you.

letitgo

Good morning all. I have been up since 430 am and got some exercise in..i know i have a 10-12 hour work day ahead. Think i am stressing knowing its going to be a long and tough day. Traffic in philly is horrible. I wish i could just sleep through the night and not wake up. I think the booze helped me sleep but it wasnt good sleep. I still got 5-6 hours in so i think thats is healthy. Day 60 and i am happy to.report i have driven past numerous stores with really no urges. Samething on.the cigarette front. I notice them everywhere and think for a second one would be ok. But then i think $7 a day habit to not breath and stink. I think i will see my doc about my sleep issues if they persist when i get home. Have a great Wednesday.

Ps: SR chat last night was about forgiveness. They always have great topics and fantastic discussions. I wish our friends from the uk could attend but i bet its like3-4am your time. hug

Croissant

Congrats on Day 60, Letitgo.

Yeah, I think we learn to "stress" about things when we drank too. Now I stop and question a lot if I really am stressed about something, and usually, I'm not, it was a learned habit. Part of the cycle of dronking.

Dee74

Congrats letitgo

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venuscat

on 60 days letitgo!!! ♥♥

Soberwolf

Congrats Letitgo

Today my breakfast & lunch which I've just had now was 2 small tangerines segmented, 2 squished Kiwi's & a chopped banana

We have a blender & food processor now so making smoothies juices etc is gonna be easy & delicious

Croissant

Dronking, lol. I meant drinking, but dronking kind of fits too, hehe.

venuscat

Drinking, dronking, drunk...well not today. Not us. So that's good!

Croissant

Agreed! That is a good feeling,

Well, night night all.

Ladybug, hope you are doing ok, too. These days will add up to weeks, but the fight is hard. I remember one day actually sitting on my hands so I wouldn't reach for keys to go get alcohol. Those fights can be mentally torturous and exhausting. Please don't think I forget how foul that feels.

remember you don't ever want to feel like this again.

Anyway, hope you are doing ok as you rise to start your new day.

Ladybug2

Thanks Croissant, I am doing ok. Some days are just so hard. I can't figure out why some days the AV is nowhere in sight and other days it is relentless? It is just exhausting sometimes and I wish I could be rid of this obsession. I think I agree with what you said earlier about day counting - it is driving me crazy. Instead of worrying about what day I am on I am just going to get up and say "today I will not drink". Then hopefully it will get easier and before I know it a month, year etc will have gone by. Thanks for thinking about me

Hope you all have a wonderful day/night. Going to try and get some house things done after my daughter leaves for school (if the little one cooperates ) We are in another heat wave here so no outdoor activities for us

Leshar

Well done, letitgo, 60 days is great!
Croissant, thanks for your support. I'm glad some work may be coming your way.
I'm not sleeping despite prescribed Lorazepam 1mg. I'm going to be honest and say that I have an enormous temptation/urge to just take a handful of them now to numb out and sleep on the couch all day, how pathetic is that? I'm trying the urge surfing techniques I've read about here. It would be as bad as drinking. Because I live alone, I could get away with it. Man, I'm really struggling! It's loneliness/anhedonia, just wanting to escape life. I'm posting because I don't want to give in to taking the pills that way. I want to get better and learn to enjoy life again.
Some encouragement would be much appreciated.
I was thinking about our dear Snoozy last night as I lay awake. I hope she's settling in and coping. Looking forward to hearing her news.
Thanks, Julyers!

Gilmer

I'm glad you've checked in here, Leshar. I'm glad you have resisted overdoing the Lorazepam. Why not call your doctor and see if he has any other suggestions in sleeping pills?

Soberwolf

I agree with Gilmer Leshar phone the Dr let them know

Were here if you wanna talk

CaseyW

Congrats on 60 days, letitgo! You're doing great.

Leshar--so glad you're not giving in to the temptation to take those pills. Maybe after you call the doctor, you should get out of the house for a little bit? Go for a drive in the country or go sit in a park and do some people watching or something. Just something to get out of your own space for a bit. Anyways, we're here for you 24/7, don't be afraid to post once a minute if you need to. You're in my thoughts and prayers, as are dear Snoozy and Ladybug.

Croissant

Leshar, what does your doc say? That this melancholy will continue and not do any activities?
Being inside and isolated will perhaps kind of perpetuate those thoughts. I wish it was possible at least for you to do some socialising, or soemthing to brighten your day, even just a little, so those good feelings could grow. You seemed to be ok when Rod was around, does it not feel like it's worth the effort if it's just you?

I've had depression where it made me feel detached from the world, like I'd never feel an ounce of happy again. I'm not sure if it's anything close to how you feel, but I do know it made me feel helpless, a waste of space and that I had no capacity to feel happy again, so what was the point?

When you were practising Psychiatry, did you see many cases like yours? I hope there were people you were able to help, so that still gives you hope that you can get through this too?

Thinking of you today.

Soberwolf

Leshar going to keep you in my prayers I pray for everyone everyday

Love to you all goodnight Julyers

resolute50

Reminds me of my all time favorite line in a movie.
"I don't need a gun, I have a Donk".
"What's a Donk?"
"DONK!!!"


From Crocidile Dundee 2.