Class of August 2015 Part 3
Hi! Today is day 20. Sun streaming in, funny cat at my feet, coffee in the future, kettle on the stove. Morning is such a lovely time of day.
I think a lot about my high school friend's sober anniversary, and how she said "so many less messes". I'm beginning to understand it, a tiny bit. It's not like just the act of not drinking magically takes away woes. Theres a clarity, I think. I'm sensing a clarity as the fatigue lifts. Im very consciously reminding myself that real,life is not something to avoid, that it's problems are nothing compared to drunk life problems. Drinking, I'd get all riled up about some real life annoyance or some thing that happened in the past, that's horrible but over and done with, and let them turn into ghosts just following me around. It's a habit that's hard to break but I know that I have the propensity to do that and I'm working on it every day and while it's not enthralling per se, the messes are getting a tiny bit smaller.
I think a lot about my high school friend's sober anniversary, and how she said "so many less messes". I'm beginning to understand it, a tiny bit. It's not like just the act of not drinking magically takes away woes. Theres a clarity, I think. I'm sensing a clarity as the fatigue lifts. Im very consciously reminding myself that real,life is not something to avoid, that it's problems are nothing compared to drunk life problems. Drinking, I'd get all riled up about some real life annoyance or some thing that happened in the past, that's horrible but over and done with, and let them turn into ghosts just following me around. It's a habit that's hard to break but I know that I have the propensity to do that and I'm working on it every day and while it's not enthralling per se, the messes are getting a tiny bit smaller.
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Hi guys. Just sat down with a delicious green smoothie to check in and read. I feel so much better ans optimistic today. Got the kids off to their first day of school, got some bread baking and walk/jogged 3 miles. My bff told me a few months ago that she was going to do a disney half marathon and I said oh cool, count me in! Oh my, what have I got myself into? So now that I have some alone time everyday I'm going to start working towards that goal. I know recovery for me is so much easier when I am active and feel good about my body.
Thank you all for the welcome. This seems like an awesome class. I think since February I've probably popped into every class. I'm pretty ready to get off this merry go round. I had 5 days last week and knew something was coming on Sunday to make me want to drink, I should have been more careful. After 3 days of drinkinhand a bit of embarrassment I'm here ready to give it my all. I'm looking through AVRT again. I will do an online smart meeting later this evening. I plan to journal, meditate, pray and exercise. It's time to look into a counselor also I think. And I will be around here lots.
Looking forward to getting to know you all.
Thank you all for the welcome. This seems like an awesome class. I think since February I've probably popped into every class. I'm pretty ready to get off this merry go round. I had 5 days last week and knew something was coming on Sunday to make me want to drink, I should have been more careful. After 3 days of drinkinhand a bit of embarrassment I'm here ready to give it my all. I'm looking through AVRT again. I will do an online smart meeting later this evening. I plan to journal, meditate, pray and exercise. It's time to look into a counselor also I think. And I will be around here lots.
Looking forward to getting to know you all.
Hi everyone. Day 13 here. "Hi" to all the new folks.
Had a tough time last night -- got into an argument with my wife and just felt like "F*** it" and felt a strong urge to drink. But I stopped, played it though in my head, and didn't do anything to act on it. Pretty happy with myself today.
Had a tough time last night -- got into an argument with my wife and just felt like "F*** it" and felt a strong urge to drink. But I stopped, played it though in my head, and didn't do anything to act on it. Pretty happy with myself today.
You go ChickChick! You can do it! One of my employees does that Disney run and many marathons. I love to exercise. Never much of a runner tho. I'd rather ride my bike these days when I have time. Like ellipticals and spinning classes. Take care!
It's a short book, and one which I may keep on my shelf to re-read when I need a little help. It helped me yesterday when I hit a difficult patch.
I'm not sure what "book likes" is -- do you mean the book club sub-section?
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Day 1 again for me. The most I've gone is 9 days. This year I have definitely gone to a new level of drinking. New lows for sure- drinking and driving, drinking during the day, etc. My anxiety and depression about the drinking are killing me (I'm sure the alcohol is probably as well). I deserve better than this. So does my family. This time i will add new things to my toolbox to help me succeed. SR is one of those things.
I have enjoyed reading people's posts and look forward to posting on my many sober days to come.
Day 1 again for me. The most I've gone is 9 days. This year I have definitely gone to a new level of drinking. New lows for sure- drinking and driving, drinking during the day, etc. My anxiety and depression about the drinking are killing me (I'm sure the alcohol is probably as well). I deserve better than this. So does my family. This time i will add new things to my toolbox to help me succeed. SR is one of those things.
I have enjoyed reading people's posts and look forward to posting on my many sober days to come.
Yes im in agreement there Rusty! Back on day 2 in part because I was trying too much, complete overhaul of life. Back to the simple just dont drink or listen to AV! Overhaul of life later after not drinking. One thing at a time for me, dont drink today
At this point you'd think I would be an "expert" on surviving day 1s...but this time it seems I've forgotten everything I've learned...
I woke up with panic waves again...now I'm stressing out about the silliest little things like what to make for supper...
If I had to give someone advice I would say to go for a walk, take a bath, etc...but I'm still feeling the effects of drinking 24 hours straight for the past few days...I have 0 energy and an anxiety that's consuming and paralyzing...
Please remind me how to survive the first few days of sobriety....
I woke up with panic waves again...now I'm stressing out about the silliest little things like what to make for supper...
If I had to give someone advice I would say to go for a walk, take a bath, etc...but I'm still feeling the effects of drinking 24 hours straight for the past few days...I have 0 energy and an anxiety that's consuming and paralyzing...
Please remind me how to survive the first few days of sobriety....
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Agreed. It's the single greatest emotional release us humans have, and like it or not, it is a healthy release. A good cry will release more stress and tension than anything else out there. Anyone who says differently can go take themselves and their ego and F off.
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