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Old 08-25-2015, 10:15 AM
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Quitting cigarettes was alot easier than I imagined then again I only smoked for like a year,

Funny thing though I do get thoughts of it still today here and there although I quit about 7 years ago.

Quitting alcohol is MUCH harder for me so I too wonder if it will get easier.
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I am hearing that the first few months are a little tough but that it will even out..Im hanging in! Hang in there too everybody! We can make it!
Keep on keeping on, one day at a time!
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Hi everyone :-)

I get triggered by watching people drink or just hearing people talk about it. It's weird. I even felt like drinking after watching 'Amy'. You would think that would make me feel like never picking up a drink again, but that's the insanity of addiction, I guess.

I hope you hear soon, BBB. It could be just a case of not getting around to things. A bit rude they haven't responded though. Good for you for chasing it up.

No, haven't heard from DD or FABL. Hope to hear from them shortly. Come to think of it, where's Toadie?
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Hey everyone! Hope everyone is doing well on their particular journey here.

Finished up one league of bowling last night (seniors), our team came in 6th out of 12 teams. I did win the high average prize, I managed a 204 average in this league. I've averaged higher, but sobriety is affecting my bowling!

Tonight we finish another league, the one I bowl with my two nephews in. We are currently in 3rd place out of 34 teams, only have a chance to move in to 2nd, but could drop to 4th if we falter tonight. My bartender/waitress at the alleys strongly supports my abstinence plan, so no pressure there! I've known her for 20 years now.

Anyway, enough bowling talk...catch you all later tonight!
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I think DD and FABL are MIA.

BBB you are so young but wise for your age. 32 here i feel old now Can you join an outdoors group or volunteer group? Maybe a cycling club? Anything to meet others that doesn't involve booze.

I watched the new true detective. First i couldn't follow the story sober. Very confusing. The characters are drunk/high or both most of the show. Its overkill but they really romanticize it. Its hard to watch and not start drooling a little like pavlovs dog.

Anyway tried to hide out right now. Its happy hour and the free booze is flowing. Going to hit the meeting tonight or read the Carr book or both.
Have a good one!
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Originally Posted by Holds1325 View Post
Day 40, stopped on July 16th,

Seems to get only tougher as I head into sobriety,

Hope you all are going strong as it seems hard to take a step forward sometimes.
I'm probably paraphrasing this wrong, but, from what I've read in early recovery, as we all are, we can hitch a ride on what is termed "The Pink Cloud". Our bodies, brains, and minds are clearing and it can be exhilarating when we look back and realize what a powerful step we've taken to get sober. But that is temporary. The real work starts later when we use our tools to learn to inhabit this alien world we now find ourselves in.

I'm not not using flowery language as a metaphor: to me it really is an alien world. People, places, events, and relationships seem different to me. Not bad, not good, just different. If you move from a po-dunk little town to LA its gonna take a while to get comfortable.

It's been 53 days now and I'm starting to like this place :-) It's got potential! Maybe, just maybe I can become the kind of person I wished I could be before I became a drunk. Maybe I, WE, are turning into those people! People we can be proud to be.

Have a nice sober eve y'all!
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Hey guys. Feeling pretty damn low today. I messed up. I had family come into town that we very rarely see and ended up drinking. It was nobody's fault but my own, and I'm so angry at myself. Waking up today, feeling crap, disappointed, sluggish and ill. I know this doesn't change my efforts for the past month, in fact if you'd have said that I would only drink once in a month a while back I'd have taken that, but I'm so disappointed in myself for not showing resolve, for being complacent, and ultimately for taking that first beer.

I'm not letting this be the end of my efforts. I'm stepping it up again, putting all the systems in place that have seen me through the past month, and making sure that I don't balls things up again. I feel embarrassed typing all this out after all the strength and help I've taken from here in the past month. Things need to change in my head and in my heart to stop this from happening again.
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Don't worry about it, cbf. I did a spectacular epic fail several weeks ago, and just got back on the horse. The main thing is we don't let it get us down, because that does nothing for our will power. We're with you!!!
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Old 08-25-2015, 10:55 PM
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Don't worry about it, cbf. I did a spectacular epic fail several weeks ago, and just got back on the horse. The main thing is we don't let it get us down, because that does nothing for our will power. We're with you!!!
Thanks, TS. I know that being negative isn't going to help, so I want to stay positive. I think I'm just scared by how easy I let my guard down. A week ago I'd have balked at the idea that I'd end up feeling like this again. Like you say, time to get back on the horse. I need to use this as motivation not to feel this way again. Thanks again for your thoughts.

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Cbf - I'm glad you are back. You sound as if you aren't getting yourself down about it which is the correct thing to do Remember you still have that sober time which is no mean feat. Can I ask if you had a plan for what you would do around your family when drinking came up? Ive kept myself out any situation with alcohol involved so far. I'd like to think that with a solid plan I'd be fine, yet at the same time I don't want to sail too close to the wind. I've got a lot more to lose than what I could possibly gain from the situation at the moment.

Letitgo - Cycling club sounds great. I've looked into it and there is a club relatively nearby. I'm going to fire off an email today and see if they'll have me. I absolutely love being out on my bike, so doing it wth others would kill two birds with one stone.

Day 42 here. I'm a bit nervous today as the letter I sent to my boss will now have arrived. I'm expecting a phone call at some point. Still, I have to remember that it is none of my business what others think of me, I know what I'm doing here and they are just going to have to like it or lump it.

Other than that, I had some news that my mum fell at work yesterday and has broken two of her fingers. She's just had 3 months off work for a broken foot bless her, I think she's made of cinder toffee. (You Americans may have to Google that one!).

Heading out for a bike ride. Take care all
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Hey, BBB. Thanks for the kind words. I'll be honest, I hadn't really thought about what I'd do - which is obviously the problem! Put in the situation, I just fell back into an old mentality very quickly. I'm not an overly social creature, I rarely go out these days (sober or otherwise), so I hadn't really thought about that situation cropping up (was a kind of surprise visit). I guess I know that I need to be more on my guard should anything creep up again,
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Hey guys. Feeling pretty damn low today. I messed up. I had family come into town that we very rarely see and ended up drinking. It was nobody's fault but my own, and I'm so angry at myself. Waking up today, feeling crap, disappointed, sluggish and ill. I know this doesn't change my efforts for the past month, in fact if you'd have said that I would only drink once in a month a while back I'd have taken that, but I'm so disappointed in myself for not showing resolve, for being complacent, and ultimately for taking that first beer.

I'm not letting this be the end of my efforts. I'm stepping it up again, putting all the systems in place that have seen me through the past month, and making sure that I don't balls things up again. I feel embarrassed typing all this out after all the strength and help I've taken from here in the past month. Things need to change in my head and in my heart to stop this from happening again.

Glad your back CBF
This is my 3rd go at sobriety CBF. Its nots easy to acheive. Breaking the chains of lifeling habits take time. Read somewhere else on the forum that its very important if you slip to not slid also. Great metaphor slipnslide. I slid my last 2 times. Meaning you just go right back to you old ways. It sounds like you already recognized the issue here and are back on the right path.
I relapsed at a party. I did so well for 3 months and was with coworkers. 90 day curse lol
When we feel to comfortable its time to recognize what is really going on.
SR has chats at 9pm est tuesday and friday. The last 2 topics where complacency and what do you when things get hard. Really great discussions and topics to think about. Hard to make depending on where you live but i know BBB said they have smart meetings also. I beleive the meetings really help.

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This is my 3rd go at sobriety CBF. Its nots easy to acheive. Breaking the chains of lifeling habits take time. Read somewhere else on the forum that its very important if you slip to not slid also. Great metaphor slipnslide. I slid my last 2 times. Meaning you just go right back to you old ways. It sounds like you already recognized the issue here and are back on the right path.
I relapsed at a party. I did so well for 3 months and was with coworkers. 90 day curse lol
When we feel to comfortable its time to recognize what is really going on.
SR has chats at 9pm est tuesday and friday. The last 2 topics where complacency and what do you when things get hard. Really great discussions and topics to think about. Hard to make depending on where you live but i know BBB said they have smart meetings also. I beleive the meetings really help.

I think the meetings sound like a great idea. I'll check what time that is here in the UK, maybe too late, but I'll certainly look. *edit* Yeah, it's 3am my time. If my daughter was still feeding in the night I might have made it, but I'm just not enough of a night owl to see 3am these days!! Will pop in and have a look today though, not seen the chat before.

I really have no intention of sliding. I'm the same as others in that this isn't my first attempt to get sober, and I too have been hit by 3 month lapses before. I knew even last night when I was drinking that I'd be back here today, making sure that I know why it's such a bad idea to be drinking. There was no pressure on me to do it, I made the mistake and I have to fix it. Been so long since I woke up with a hangover - who the heck'd want to do this everyday!!

Onwards and upwards. Thanks to all of the class for your support!
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Let it go & cbf - Yeah, SMART have online UK meetings every day (usually late evening). You can choose to just type if you don't want to talk (there's always 5 or 6 typers at the meetings I've been to). They are fairly informal but the topics covered are nearly always set within logic and therefore very useful to me.
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Cbf - Welcome back, glad to see you're getting right back up on the horse and retaking control. I've started bringing my own non-alcoholic beverages with me to get-togethers where I know there'll be drinking and say "I'm not drinking tonight. I'm only drinking this, or water." Then I've kind of tricked myself because I already have something in my hand once I get there. I've realized some of the drinking allure for me has just been the physical act too, kind of like smoking. It's helped for me so far..just a thought.

BBB - I did have to Google that. I hope she's feeling better soon!

Day 28 for me here. Feeling ok so far. I'm off work today, which is always the hardest for me, but I'm going rock climbing later this evening, so that'll keep me busy. The sun's shining and I'm going for a run soon. I hope everyone else is having a beautiful Wednesday!
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Day 41 and its still tough! Going to a Bible study tonight then Dr Appt in the morning to make some decisions about work.

Hope everyone gets through the night and makes it through til morning.
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I don't even know what day I am on but nearing two months soon. I can't even think about drinking right now, no time. I have been in and out of doctor's offices the last 2 days and I will have an emergency colonoscopy on Friday. There are a bunch of things that this could be but we won't know until the bloodwork and procedure is done. Best case scenario is some kind of parasite or bacteria and the worst case scenario is cancer. Wow... what a broad spectrum! I am terrified right now and just surviving. Thank you all for your kind thoughts over the last week.
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Wow BobBfree - you said it all perfectly.

Day 31 here. Feeling ok I guess. I've been emotional today over little things. Monday I had so much energy when I came home from work and cleaned. But most days I get by doing the bare minimum. Or I start a cleaning project on the weekend and clean one area real well but pile junk to another area and wait a few days to clear that junk, lol. I have a lot of junk.

Anyway, I'm just taking it slow I guess. I really want to quit smoking too and may make a plan for quitting soon. I was going to try cold turkey, but that didn't prove to work so well today.
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I don't even know what day I am on but nearing two months soon. I can't even think about drinking right now, no time. I have been in and out of doctor's offices the last 2 days and I will have an emergency colonoscopy on Friday. There are a bunch of things that this could be but we won't know until the bloodwork and procedure is done. Best case scenario is some kind of parasite or bacteria and the worst case scenario is cancer. Wow... what a broad spectrum! I am terrified right now and just surviving. Thank you all for your kind thoughts over the last week.
I hope everything goes well for you!
Congrats on two months🌼
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