DariaM

Hey all! Wrapping up day 4 here! The challenge of days 5-7 (when I tend to fall off the wagon) lie ahead of me. Not much to say. Just tired and still have stuff to do around the house that I don't really feel like doing. Feels like the evening is slipping away too fast. Bleh. Good job to all of you on another day and onward to tomorrow we go!

AllieKat

Had a productive today. Just sitting down watching tv now. Another sober day done...

LostLilly

lovehoops, I have tons of memories like that where I have let my kids down. Passing out in front if them, falling in front of their friends, embarrassing behavior that angered them, lots of events missed, the list goes on and on and on and makes me cringe😣. You are right we can get past this and me forward! The past is gone but we have an opportunity for them to witness a transformation and eventually regain trust. The future can be completely different!!! Have a good night!!
Lilly

TroyW

Cool, my ban got lifted.

I'm on day 5, going strong. Hope everyone else is doing well. I'll do some reading and catch up all your stories this afternoon.

MeNewDay

Guilt = being an alcholic and continuing to drink after being unable to help my only child, my daughter with her alcoholism which killed her at age 31. Guilt = going thru breast cancer, chemo, radiation and watching my husband bust his ass to save my life only to continue to drink and expotentially increase the chance of reoccurance. Guilt = being an only child and almost loosing my mother to alcoholism and liver disease, watch her pull herself back from death's door only to continue to drink and risk dying myself...leaving her alone.
Success = not allowing those events & past behaviors control me anymore. My daughter is gone, my cancer is in remission, my mother is healthy and my husband is committed to our future if I step up and save myself with sobriety.
Not drinking is no longer an option, it is the only path available to me and I am on it.
Good night all, welcome to the new members, great job to everyone on their sober day, no matter what number it is ...sweet dreams and may tomorrow be easier for whatever you are facing.

Retread1959

Ugh. I went out for dinner and the demon gripped me and I had some wine. I suppose I'll be back soon to start again on day 1. I immediately remembered the reasons I wanted this quit to stick-- my declining health, etc. But it was too late. The demons won this round. I won't let them win the war.

beerbgone

Well looks like I'm not gonna' sleep again tonight! How long can a person survive with no sleep???

Blowfish

Wrapping up day four. Made it past another craving today and just trying to catch up reading on here. Feeling very good! Retread: anyway you can get back on the horse tomorrow and make it your new day one? I'm still pulling for you.

Blowfish

Beerbegone I'm not sleeping the best either. Just getting maybe 4 or 5 sound hours a night. Still feels better being sober with little sleep than being a wreck after getting 8 hours of "sleep". Hang in there and you'll sleep a little better each day.

LostLilly

MeNewDay, your story an inspiration! I need to work to put past behaviors behind and move forward since, like you, it is the only option. Thank you so much for that reminder and have a good night!!!

TroyW

Everyone's body is different, but you're on day 3 if I read correctly? If so, then yeah, insomnia is very common.

When I detox, I generally sleep for the better part of the first 36 hours while I go through major withdrawals, then am up for several days with barely any sleep. Hang in there, it gets better, and I'm in the same boat as you.

Believe it or not, I found some physical exercise to sweat up a storm, followed by a few cups of coffee put me to sleep. Probably not a good recommendation though, because it shouldn't work, but it does for me.

DariaM

It's OK. Pick yourself up and start again. We're here! I've done the same thing myself SO many times. You're not alone.

DariaM

I cleaned my toilet and bathroom sink and picked up a few things even though I'm overtired, borderline cranky, and didn't feel like it. I'm sure you all wanted to know. Iwin a cranberry lime seltzer... and a book and bed soon.

DariaM

I'm very sorry about the loss of your daughter, MeNewDay. But I am very glad for your health and your mother's health. Have you talked to your mother at all about quitting?

MeNewDay

Thank you lost lily...and FYI...you are NOT "lost"... You have found all of us and I am so grateful for all of you...and yes, I will have a good night knowing that I helped you...that is my inspiration!

TheMerryRecluse

You're right! You can win the war I know I'm new here, but I do know from experience how easy it is to slip up and fall. At least you are remembering why you want to quit. That has always seemed to indicate a positive turning point in my experience. Hope to see you back sooner rather than later.

TheMerryRecluse

Hey there, I'm in the same boat. I didn't sleep for 3 days and the little naps I managed were not restful. Something that is helping me get a little more rest is exercise. I am just wearing myself out after work and it helps me fall asleep. Maybe once you are feeling a bit more stable it could help?

MeNewDay

Yes Daria...my husband called her the Tuesday night of my last binge (July 21) and told her everything ( standard ugly embarrassing literal falling down drunk, bruises are just now fading) ...we had a face to face that Thursday...she asked me so calmly what my plan was...didn't beg, no judgement, no holier than thou.." I quit why can't you".. Just I love you and I don't want to loose you too. I said I was quitting and for the first time ..felt that I meant it.

DariaM

I'm glad you have your mother for support. I'm too scared to ever tell mine b/c it'd be judgement city.

PennyLane76

Great to see you here in August Troy!!! We have lots of insomnia buddies here