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Old 08-04-2015, 01:43 PM
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Originally Posted by beerbgone View Post
I'm having a really, really tough day!!!
Hang in there! I had a horrible first 3 days. I couldn't sign my name straight, couldn't eat, had panic . . . If it gets too much go to a hospital and they will give you medication if you need it. Lots of people on this site have done it. Remember you never have to have another Day #1!! That is what I told myself. Each day will be better. Keep posting, so many can relate!!!
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Old 08-04-2015, 02:27 PM
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Me too B- , gotta eat a little if you can.
I'm sorry for that feeling. It's a stinker !
It's one of the first things my AV tries to help me forget : how bad I feel after binging.
Warm bath and some bubbles or Epsom salt, helps me to soak in to ease the nerves.
I'll be floating tonight, after in the sun all day today !
I just ate a peanut butter sandwich. Well part of it anyway. Now I've started worrying about sleeping tonight. Just have to work through it I guess!
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Old 08-04-2015, 02:30 PM
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Day 1 completed. Just about to go to bed so it would appear that I've made it. Yay! Plan is very simple (needs to be as I have a very bad memory!): 90-day-no-surrender to start with (I read somewhere on this site that you need 90 days to break the physical, emotional and mental habits - this is how I started when I gave up last time in November and it is a great focus, particularly as I really know that 90 days is only the first 90 days of forever); ten-minute-rule, which means I give it ten minutes before acting on any urge to drink - I always seem to find after 10 minutes somehow I don't really want that drink so much - and finally the mantra I got from a fellow November '14 classmate: 'no-one ever regretted not drinking'. Good to meet the new class.

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Old 08-04-2015, 03:14 PM
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The cravings are coming on pretty strong, but I've got to stay determined. I may head out to an AA meeting tomorrow and talk to a guy. I'm actually pretty nervous about this because I'm not sure what to tell him. But I need to make myself go to meet some sober people.
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Old 08-04-2015, 04:01 PM
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I'm going to my first aa meeting tonight. I leave in 25 minutes. Kind of nervous. But I figure going it alone hasn't lead to abstinence, but I did improve to only drinking one night a week, rather than 7, but maybe aa can get me to stop for good.
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Old 08-04-2015, 04:08 PM
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Originally Posted by Pixie30f View Post
Ok, well I just wrote '1' in today's date in my diary. I've previously posted on the November '14 pages that I didn't feel I wanted to start over, despite what I termed 'minor' relapses, as I don't feel like this is back to the beginning. I managed over 200 days from last November and felt pretty indestructible - I now know that's a dangerous feeling, which I began to confuse with 'like a normal person (ie, one that can drink in moderation - haha). Last time I began, it was a kind of surprise to me and here I am again, on Day 1 a bit earlier than I felt like I would be and I am now convinced that this is starting again, not something that I can just add on to the days I achieved before - I did achieve them though and have a lot of good resistance ammunition as a result.



I will need it as I've got a rather worrying week away next week - a writers' retreat with nightly socialising in the bar. Has all the ingredients to knock me off the newly mounted wagon as being 'off the leash' seems to be a bit of a trigger. It's meant to be a creative and constructive week, however - plus I really can't write or get any ideas once I start on the wine - so I am going there with the intention of maintaining my resolve. I know I got through the first hard days/weeks of my first attempt, including Christmas and my birthday (December/January) with the help of this site and the many pearls of wisdom to be found here. The most simple and most encouraging one I found then is one I'll be taking with me next week - 'No-one ever regretted not drinking'. Andiamo.

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Welcome back Pixie, from another member of the class of November 2014 and now July 2015. Good luck to you!
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Old 08-04-2015, 04:16 PM
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Originally Posted by DariaM View Post
Good morning/afternoon!

Quick check in here. On day 3. My Wake Up light arrived today so excited to give it a go for work tomorrow. Have decided that in addition to getting sober I need to, in general, get my life together. It's been a bit of a disheveled mess. Unorganized, undisciplined. But I talked about this some time ago in relation to laziness.

ETA: Today is the first day I'm not feeling the side effects of the hangover.
Hi Daria,
Day two for me and feeling determined.
I've noticed that getting organized and disciplined happens when I'm sober because it gives me something to do. I was out weeding the garden after dark last night.... gotta do something to fill the time.
Despite two slips this summer, I have had the most productive, organized life in many years and with each new "organizational victory" I have felt more inclined to keep it going.
Alcohol was the biggest impediment to many life improvements.
Just have to remind myself of that each day.
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Old 08-04-2015, 04:20 PM
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Originally Posted by RogerD View Post
I'm going to my first aa meeting tonight. I leave in 25 minutes. Kind of nervous. But I figure going it alone hasn't lead to abstinence, but I did improve to only drinking one night a week, rather than 7, but maybe aa can get me to stop for good.
Hi Roger,
I went to my first AA meeting in July with the same trepidation and have been blown away by the support and the feeling of community that I find there.
You make a really good point when you mention your poor success rate when "going it alone". It is not for everyone and I didn't think it was for me but I have really benefited so far.
Best wishes!
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Old 08-04-2015, 04:21 PM
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Rio and Beerbgone, you've got this. I'm very early in my quit as well on day 3. Today was WAY better than day 1 and 2. Day 1 I had anxiety and was questioning if I could do this at all. Day 2 I was in a fog.

All, I've got a hurdle tomorrow and Thursday. I'm heading out of town for work and when I get alone that's always a problem for me. Any suggestions on how to deal with this?
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Old 08-04-2015, 04:21 PM
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Let's keep going
Yes, lets!
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Old 08-04-2015, 04:24 PM
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All, I've got a hurdle tomorrow and Thursday. I'm heading out of town for work and when I get alone that's always a problem for me. Any suggestions on how to deal with this?
Hi there,
Both of my screw-ups this summer occurred when alone and away from home. I understand the anxiety.
I don't have a success story yet but my "plan" is to hit the hotel gym/swimming pool/sauna hard the next evening I am away and to then rush to bed. This occurred to me earlier this week after not having done those things.
Wishing you the best.
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Old 08-04-2015, 04:30 PM
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Rio and Beerbgone, you've got this. I'm very early in my quit as well on day 3. Today was WAY better than day 1 and 2. Day 1 I had anxiety and was questioning if I could do this at all. Day 2 I was in a fog.
Well it looks I'm gonna' make it through day 1, but has been a nasty day for me. Hope I can sleep well tonight and have a better day tomorrow!
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Old 08-04-2015, 04:49 PM
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Nice to meet you too! Oh yes I'm a mess too! I was raised to do kind of like the Miranda Lambert song "go and hide you're crazy and start acting like a lady cause I raised you better gotta keep it together even when you fall apart". Masking and wearing masks and worrying about everyone else before myself also have contributed to my addiction. I still am angry and I want to lash out because I am surrounded by drinkers. Kind of normal drinkers but they are on the edge of abusing alcohol. But I am only responsible for me and pointing fingers will not help me. I gotta work on me but it's hard living with an active drinker. I've had hard times but this is one of the hardest things I've done. No doubt. Good luck to you!
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Old 08-04-2015, 04:54 PM
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I am spending the evening making a healthy meal plan for next week. I had a fine day. Nothing good or bad to speak of. Weekdays aren't a trigger for me really so all is good today. It's the weekends that cause me problems because I know I don't have to get up for work. During the week I feel like I have it all together and then the weekend comes along. Last weekend I made it all the way to Sunday and then the pool happened and my husband bought beer. I had told him last Monday that I didn't want to drink for a while so I am kind of hurt by him doing that. I feel that it was disrespectful. I never told him he couldn't drink but in my opinion he was blatantly disregarding my wishes. He knew if he bought beer I would drink it and didn't care at all about it. Obviously I made the choice on my own to drink it but had it not been provided to me I would not have gone out looking for it. Am I wrong to think that it was wrong of him to do that?
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Old 08-04-2015, 04:56 PM
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Hi KeyofC! I am on day 15 too, also have 3 kids and have been married 15yrs. It is time to change for me! I am full of guilt and have no self esteem at the moment. I know I need to be a stable parent for my kids. You are right though, it needs to be done for me. I have self medicated stupidly with wine and have made a mess. Emotionally I am all over the place but one thing I know is that I must change. Nice to meet you!
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Nice to meet you too! Oh yes I'm a mess too! I was raised to do kind of like the Miranda Lambert song "go and hide you're crazy and start acting like a lady cause I raised you better gotta keep it together even when you fall apart". Masking and wearing masks and worrying about everyone else before myself also have contributed to my addiction. I still am angry and I want to lash out because I am surrounded by drinkers. Kind of normal drinkers but they are on the edge of abusing alcohol. But I am only responsible for me and pointing fingers will not help me. I gotta work on me but it's hard living with an active drinker. I've had hard times but this is one of the hardest things I've done. No doubt. Good luck to you! trying to learn how this site works!
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Good for you to be making a healthy meal plan! I sure wish weekdays weren't a trigger for me, but they are in a big way. This is the time of day when I'd always crack open the bottle and pour that first drink of the evening. I'm drinking lemonade tonight, sans vodka, and that's just fine with me. Feeling a bit crazy, a bit weird in this detox world, but I know it won't last forever. I can do this. We all can.
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Old 08-04-2015, 05:07 PM
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I'm killing some soda crackers at the moment. 6 yr old watching spiderman cartoon before bed.
My trigger days aren't really weekdays either, so I'm not falling for the "I'm doing good"- AV been doing that. I'll be sweating come this weekend for real.
Good night all. Sober one more day- nothing to regret (someone's quote).
Hugs from the dad w 3 boys ! 3 anything is WORK, but it's joy too.
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Old 08-04-2015, 05:08 PM
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Joining the August class. Was in the June class until I dissappeared for a while. I want to join again. I know I need to be here. I WANT to be here. It's just so damn hard sometimes Even though my problem isn't that BAD (I know some people are worse out than me) I still have a problem. When you start craving a beer and so on it's a problem. And when I have one, I want another one, and then the third one and so on.

I want to live a completely sober life. A life with no alcohol doesn't have to be bad. For me I'm pretty sure a no alcohol life will actually be better than the one I'm living now.. I love the days when I don't drink at all because my mind seems so clear.

Just ranting a little.
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Old 08-04-2015, 05:20 PM
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Welcome to the class Nerina.
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