Class of July 2015 Part 3
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Join Date: Jul 2015
Posts: 132
Starting my 13th day of sobriety. Wish I could say I feel all shiny and wonderful, but I don't. But, I do feel hope, and that's good enough for now.
I can relate to everything whiteturtle said. To me, drinking was like being in prison. Trapped, yeah, but I knew that prison very well, every inch of it, all the routines, all the patterns. I knew what to expect.
Sobriety, to me, is like someone opened the jail cell. The outside world is an unknown world, like being in the woods, sorta semi-lost. Their are some half-remembered paths, some familiar places, but, overall, it feels strange and different from the jail cell I was so used to.
But we know we'll find our way and learn to enjoy being free! That's my hope.
I can relate to everything whiteturtle said. To me, drinking was like being in prison. Trapped, yeah, but I knew that prison very well, every inch of it, all the routines, all the patterns. I knew what to expect.
Sobriety, to me, is like someone opened the jail cell. The outside world is an unknown world, like being in the woods, sorta semi-lost. Their are some half-remembered paths, some familiar places, but, overall, it feels strange and different from the jail cell I was so used to.
But we know we'll find our way and learn to enjoy being free! That's my hope.
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Join Date: Jul 2015
Posts: 7
Good morning everyone this is the start of day 4 for me. It's been amazing to me the last three days how crappy I feel at night, how intense the battle in my mind rages, and how peaceful and content and happy I feel in the morning. I'm so grateful I didn't drink last night. May god help me get through another day sober.
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Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: South of I-40
Posts: 33
Woke up sober to day 11. Been having sleeping issues and last two nights been wide awake at 0130am. Mild cravings yesterday but pushed through it.
Good day at the gym this morning. May have been the excercise but I had a terrible episode of the dry heaves walking to the car. It went on for almost two minutes then subsided. Hit me again about 3 minutes later just as I pulled onto the highway. Had to pull over, but seems to have passed. Will continue the struggle and look foword to Day 12.
Good day at the gym this morning. May have been the excercise but I had a terrible episode of the dry heaves walking to the car. It went on for almost two minutes then subsided. Hit me again about 3 minutes later just as I pulled onto the highway. Had to pull over, but seems to have passed. Will continue the struggle and look foword to Day 12.
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: Pennsylvania
Posts: 3,313
Hi class, Day 7 here and feeling pretty good. Baby had me up at 3:30 and then was up for good at 6 so a little tired. Although, I think that is helping to keep my AV at bay. Lack of sleep + hangover would just be too much to bear with 2 little ones and no chance of a nap.
Beautiful day here in northeast so going to get out and enjoy. Hope everyone has a wonderful and sober day. Keep fighting the good fight!!
Beautiful day here in northeast so going to get out and enjoy. Hope everyone has a wonderful and sober day. Keep fighting the good fight!!
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Join Date: Jun 2015
Location: Ohio
Posts: 181
Day 37. Woke up at 6AM this morning. Technicolor sunrise was beautiful. The clouds have finally cleared out and the endless rains have subsided. (It's been WET in the midwest USA from El Nino.)
Joints are sore, but that's OK. It comes with being oldish. A hot shower and a cup off coffee on the back deck have me feeling better. Brisk 53F outside, morning dew on the grass, birds singing their lungs out.
It was never this nice when I'd wake up at 8AM still half drunk. The crispness of reality is kind of cool.
Take care all of you. My thoughts go to all who are starting this journey.
Joints are sore, but that's OK. It comes with being oldish. A hot shower and a cup off coffee on the back deck have me feeling better. Brisk 53F outside, morning dew on the grass, birds singing their lungs out.
It was never this nice when I'd wake up at 8AM still half drunk. The crispness of reality is kind of cool.
Take care all of you. My thoughts go to all who are starting this journey.
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: Pennsylvania
Posts: 3,313
Originally Posted by CaseyW 
whiteturtle, I missed this paragraph in your original post and wanted to address it a bit now:
You won't have to fight this forever. You're very early in sobriety right now and your addiction is getting worried and putting up a good fight. A fight that it will lose as long as you don't feed that addiction. It gets better, I promise. Proof is in the hundreds upon hundreds of active users here like Dee with years of continuous sobriety and recovery. They all say it gets better with some time and action on our part. Every single one of them. I don't think they're lying to us.
I know this is hard now but please please please don't quit right before the miracle happens. There is a better way of life waiting for you and I think you already know you're not going to find that in the bottom of a wine bottle. Give sobriety a real chance.
I always look forward to your posts in large part because of their honesty about yourself and your compassion toward others here. You're in my thoughts and prayers tonight...
You won't have to fight this forever. You're very early in sobriety right now and your addiction is getting worried and putting up a good fight. A fight that it will lose as long as you don't feed that addiction. It gets better, I promise. Proof is in the hundreds upon hundreds of active users here like Dee with years of continuous sobriety and recovery. They all say it gets better with some time and action on our part. Every single one of them. I don't think they're lying to us.
I know this is hard now but please please please don't quit right before the miracle happens. There is a better way of life waiting for you and I think you already know you're not going to find that in the bottom of a wine bottle. Give sobriety a real chance.
I always look forward to your posts in large part because of their honesty about yourself and your compassion toward others here. You're in my thoughts and prayers tonight...
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Join Date: Jul 2015
Posts: 51
Day 13: Had my first drinking dream ever last night. Woke up pretty panicked that I had blown my recovery, but then felt pretty relieved. It was a nice reminder of how viscerally crappy it can feel to fall off the wagon, even for just one drink.
Have a great sober day, everybody! For all the new people, welcome! If you're anything like me, Day 1 was an emotional and physical wreck...but have some patience and it will pass. I've tried the "Just a drink or two to help me get through the withdrawals" strategy and, trust me, it doesn't work. In my experience spending time sober, no matter how rough, is the only cure for that Day 1 angst and discomfort. Relax and wait it out!
Have a great sober day, everybody! For all the new people, welcome! If you're anything like me, Day 1 was an emotional and physical wreck...but have some patience and it will pass. I've tried the "Just a drink or two to help me get through the withdrawals" strategy and, trust me, it doesn't work. In my experience spending time sober, no matter how rough, is the only cure for that Day 1 angst and discomfort. Relax and wait it out!
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: Florida
Posts: 298
Originally Posted by BobBFree33
I can relate to everything whiteturtle said. To me, drinking was like being in prison. Trapped, yeah, but I knew that prison very well, every inch of it, all the routines, all the patterns. I knew what to expect.
Sobriety, to me, is like someone opened the jail cell. The outside world is an unknown world, like being in the woods, sorta semi-lost. Their are some half-remembered paths, some familiar places, but, overall, it feels strange and different from the jail cell I was so used to.
But we know we'll find our way and learn to enjoy being free! That's my hope.
Sobriety, to me, is like someone opened the jail cell. The outside world is an unknown world, like being in the woods, sorta semi-lost. Their are some half-remembered paths, some familiar places, but, overall, it feels strange and different from the jail cell I was so used to.
But we know we'll find our way and learn to enjoy being free! That's my hope.
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: TX
Posts: 239
Checking in on the start of day 13. I am forcing myself to go out with a dear friend/co-worker who has been going through her own set of issues this summer. We have stayed on the phone for hours each day growing stronger together, but basically staying away from the outside world. She knows my struggle with alcohol and getting sober, so I am not worried about being tempted to drink. We are supposed to do a bit of shopping for the new school year and go see a movie. I was a little nervous about that but then another old teacher friend invited me to meet up for coffee this afternoon while she's in town. I just felt too overwhelmed to meet up with her too. She's not a drinker. I wish I could do both but I don't feel like I am ready to go back out into a busy, eventful life right now. Ughhhhh I am trying not to feel guilty for turning her down a second time this summer.
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