toadie54

This is so sad, sorry to hear it turned out that way.

Sometimes groups lose track of the main purpose they were created for.

angd1978

Welcome, BBB!!! Glad to have you here and congrats on day 3!!

Sulu1

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PennyLane76

Sorry Saande about your meeting, please don't let that experience ruin your sobriety. I have read in here that others tried a few meetings to find a fit, guess it's like finding a gym, volunteer group, etc.. Some have different vibes than others and may have to check out a few until one feels right, If you decide to pursue that program again. . I

Kaiflyguy

The AV voice has been screaming at me all day. Go away. I am too tired and sad today. Been tired and sad since I woke. It is so hard to start over again.

TroyW

Hang in there Kaiflyguy.

Remember HALT (Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired). Sounds like you have a couple of those right now.

Happened to me yesterday too. AV was yipping at me, and I thought, "what the heck? this is only day 2". Then I realized I still hadn't eaten, so tucked into a salmon steak, and that shut the little jerk up.

Kaiflyguy

Yes, all four of the HALT. I am feeding my pets then off to find some dinner for me. I don't have a lot of people to talk to about this. My family is so dysfunctional and I have shut my self in home for the last 3 days and not returned calls to friends. It is these first days that I dread the most. It is so hard. Hopefully after eating and some t.v. I will be able to sleep. Thanks TroyW.

Ladybug2

So true. The last 2 days my AV has been driving me nuts around 4:30-5, but then after I eat dinner it is over it's stupid little tantrum. I am learning you just have to ride out these cravings because if you don't give in they do go away.

Hope everyone is doing well tonight.

Caramel

Day 6 here. Woke at 3:30am again but am philosophical about that, I know one morning soon I'll wake after seven or eight hours' sleep and feel really refreshed!
Hang in there, Kaiflyguy; welcome BBB; I hope everyone else is doing well, using their plans and strategies.
While I'm away I won't be able to post or to read the thread, darn it, but I'll be thinking of each of you and cheering you on from afar.
I'll use the time to rest, refresh, do some thinking and planning for directions in the future.
I mentioned some time ago that I've never seemed able to set goals, that events seemed to be taken out of my control. Well, finally, I'm "driving the bus" and I need to "plan the route". I think it could be exciting!
Good health to all, I'll catch up with you in eight days' time xxx

BobBFree33

Finishing up day 15 sober. Packing for the beach. Will be there all next week with my two youngest children, 20 and 17. I had a little AV today during what I would call the 5th letter "B" of the HALT acronym. B is for bored. Actually, its the anticipation of getting to the beach. I did not have much planned during the day. I'm sticking to my routine to fight my danger time from 4:15pm to about 7pm. Good night folks and hang in there and fight it.

PennyLane76

Winding down Day 5, I made it 3rd try! Woke at 230 am, and freaked a bit that I would listen to Day 5 AV again being so tired,... had some conversation with AV when it was pouring rain, (finally.. we needed it so bad) . Thought it would be so nice to drink wine, read a book and listen to the rain outside. Sure.. ...I wouldn't remember what I read, I'm tired so AV is trying to take advantage of that, it is a manipulator preying on weaknesses like a bully , so stuff it.!

To be honest I thought this talking to AV thing a little weird when I read it here at first, but it has been a very helpful tool fighting back . That and HALT. I picture mine as a Dementor.
Caramel, Im looking forward to your day 14 announcement when you return.

ladybug, congrats on your win over AV! JERK!

PennyLane76

Have fun BBF! maybe it should BHALTT (bored, hungry, angry, tired or thirsty)

letitgo

Overall a great day in the pool. Very hot out so I was tempted a bit bit thought the better of it.
CaseyW made a great point in another thread about the name of this site and how important sober and recovery are. I was curious as to what tools everyone is using on working towards recovery. I have been copying posts from the site to review later on in case I am having an AV attack. Also I have been getting out more, eating less and healthier. Been working on journaling and my gratitude list. Have great night!

angd1978

Sadie, I love the dementor idea. I'm going to have to borrow that one!

lovehoops

Hi all...so much to catch up in the few hours I was gone. Glad we are an active group!,,

Sandeep...I'm so sorry that you had a bad experience ....perhaps you will feel better in the morning. Just don't drink and post your feelings here. We are all in this together!!! Stay strong.
Enjoy your travels BBf and caramel. Stay strong and sober.
kaiflyguy...please hang in there and don't isolate. Your thoughts will drive you nuts. Stay close and post.


Thanks again for all of your support. I feel better now than I did this morning.
Sober night to all....xo

lovehoops

Bob free...I like adding bored to HALT. That gets to me all of the time!

sourgrapes

Making tea at the end of day 4. Felt pretty down and listless, especially mid-afternoon, cleared up when evening rolled around, but anxiety was down somewhat today, and though I didn't even attempt going to bed last night till 3am, I slept soundly until 9 which is a welcome improvement. My appetite is back in force, all in all feeling better than expected at this point. On the BHALT scale, it was a BLT day

Seems like morning euphoria, afternoon doldrums, evening calm is a pattern at the moment.

Wishing everyone a great sober night or day!

DitzyDandelion

Starting a lovely day 5 here.

Well done to everyone especially those who had an extra hard day and made it .

Shoshie8

Morning Class of July 2015. Room for another one? Saddling up for a second go here, my sober horse isn't going to ride itself so I am going to commit seriously to AA meetings this time. Willpower got me a few months in and no further last time. Can't do this alone so I am off to my first meeting this afternoon.

Day 2 for me and although I'm not feeling any physical effects from stopping (yet!) I know triggers and cravings are just around the corner....

Looking forward to joining you all on our sober journey.

BringingBackB

Saande, really sorry your experience of AA went badly. I didnt enjoy it much the furst time either but i did start making some connections eventually.

Have your tried anything else like smart? I personally preferred that to AA, the downside being threre are no face to face meetings where i lIve, but the online ones were helpful (one today actually.) I got alot from reading rational recovery too but quite obviously didnt stick to it... as here i am!

Day 4 for me today and im feeling stronger than yesterday. Slept slightly better however and got lots of plans for today. Im eager to get to this addicton specialist next week, see how they can help me. They were saying over the phone that its a possibility that rehab could be an option, which at this point, i wouldnt argue against if that was their professional opinon. However i imagine they will prefer me on an intensive outpatient counselling type course. I shall report back anyway.

Anyone doing anything exciting? I just refilled all the bird feeders in the garden as they had been empty too long. The poor things must had been wondering what had happened to their nuts. Actually, i think id lost all mine!