Class of July 2015 Part 2
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Welcome Porcha 
and all the other newbies I've missed welcoming.
My head is in a bit of a better place for the moment. I actually took a little power nap. So maybe my cravings were from HALT letter T. I only slept about 3 hours last night, but I didn't really feel tired this morning. I was counting on my fingers the reasons I don't want to drink on my fingers before I fell asleep. Pretty sure I got to 13. That should be way more than enough reason not to do something right? An hour and a half and we are headed for ice cream before dinner. Lol.
I' ll be sure to get you some JL! Glad you aren't drinking today.
and all the other newbies I've missed welcoming. My head is in a bit of a better place for the moment. I actually took a little power nap. So maybe my cravings were from HALT letter T. I only slept about 3 hours last night, but I didn't really feel tired this morning. I was counting on my fingers the reasons I don't want to drink on my fingers before I fell asleep. Pretty sure I got to 13. That should be way more than enough reason not to do something right? An hour and a half and we are headed for ice cream before dinner. Lol.
I' ll be sure to get you some JL! Glad you aren't drinking today.
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Hello all and welcome porcha and others who have joined.
Day 9. Feeling better. Things are more clear in my head. I'm late getting ready for work but just want to say Hi and let everyone know I'm reading. It really helps to know I'm not doing this alone.
Day 9. Feeling better. Things are more clear in my head. I'm late getting ready for work but just want to say Hi and let everyone know I'm reading. It really helps to know I'm not doing this alone.
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Day 2.
Something I've realised about myself is that I'm out of the habit of making detailed plans for the future, whether for this evening or goals for this time next year.
Upbringing and past circumstances have much to do with that, I think, leaving me merely "putting out fires" and doing the best I could, day to day.
I've managed to change my circumstances in the past couple of years but I sometimes visualise myself like those chickens or dogs that have been released after living in captivity: apathetic, or scurrying back to the known, when faced with a challenge in this beautiful and interesting world.
Some good counselling would probably help me with this and I may look at that soon. Meanwhile - baby-steps, little gentle tiny challenges.
Welcome, sobertaurus, toadie, porcha and anyone else new or "just looking".
You are helping others, just by being here. xx
Something I've realised about myself is that I'm out of the habit of making detailed plans for the future, whether for this evening or goals for this time next year.
Upbringing and past circumstances have much to do with that, I think, leaving me merely "putting out fires" and doing the best I could, day to day.
I've managed to change my circumstances in the past couple of years but I sometimes visualise myself like those chickens or dogs that have been released after living in captivity: apathetic, or scurrying back to the known, when faced with a challenge in this beautiful and interesting world.
Some good counselling would probably help me with this and I may look at that soon. Meanwhile - baby-steps, little gentle tiny challenges.
Welcome, sobertaurus, toadie, porcha and anyone else new or "just looking".
You are helping others, just by being here. xx
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Hi Sobertaurus, Porcha and Toadie (hope I didn't miss anyone) - welcome
Congrats to everyone hitting a milestone today
Why not break out the sparkling water each night, Plath?
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Congrats to everyone hitting a milestone today
Why not break out the sparkling water each night, Plath?
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Morning all. Day 5 here.
Went out last night with a couple of friends who don't drink. They're both pretty successful in their work. All the way through my AV was saying, "how many beers shall we get on the way home?". It's so well trained from years of buying booze on my way home, no matter what time it is in the evening. I did stop in the shop and buy some sugary drink. I fear a lot of these small stores where I reside will experience a downturn in the their profits this week...
I have massively underachieved in these past 5 years. I start projects and they dwindle pretty quickly. Once I hit 35, that was when I started noticing the drop in momentum and 5 years later I'm still saying "when I get this project started", or "now is not the right time" etc etc. The drink allows me to ignore these feelings of stagnation but it also saps my energy the next day to become driven and enthusiastic, hence keeping the cycle alive. I'm not sure if this realisation will help keep me sober for long but it certainly helped last night.
Anyway, rant over.
May your day be blessed.
Went out last night with a couple of friends who don't drink. They're both pretty successful in their work. All the way through my AV was saying, "how many beers shall we get on the way home?". It's so well trained from years of buying booze on my way home, no matter what time it is in the evening. I did stop in the shop and buy some sugary drink. I fear a lot of these small stores where I reside will experience a downturn in the their profits this week...
I have massively underachieved in these past 5 years. I start projects and they dwindle pretty quickly. Once I hit 35, that was when I started noticing the drop in momentum and 5 years later I'm still saying "when I get this project started", or "now is not the right time" etc etc. The drink allows me to ignore these feelings of stagnation but it also saps my energy the next day to become driven and enthusiastic, hence keeping the cycle alive. I'm not sure if this realisation will help keep me sober for long but it certainly helped last night.
Anyway, rant over.
May your day be blessed.
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Welcome Sobertaurus, Porcha, and Toadie!
Finishing up day 11 out of the danger zone. But the last 2 days I've entered another danger zone. Stuff at work has been bugging me and I've been letting myself get upset about issues that, previously, I either did not notice or was too preoccupied getting over the previous night's drinking. It's good to be sharper and more with it as I can do a better job. But I'm noticing things I don't like and I'm getting annoyed by them. I've got to learn to deal with these things better. You know, when I first went into work after a night of drinking all I wanted to do was hide out in my cubicle, not talk to anyone and recover. I was petrified that somehow my secret would slip out....would someone smell alcohol on me? Did I gargle with mouthwash, shouldn't I have brought breath mints? Will that even work if I'm sweating the alcohol out of my body??? These are the things I was thinking about. Now its, "well that's certainly a dumbass policy! I'm gonna say something about it!"...So....this is my sticking point, the thing I gotta learn. I feel like Tigger at the top of the tree..."I'm gettin seasick from SEEIN too much". At least for now I have no cravings and coming here helps. Thanks for listening.
Finishing up day 11 out of the danger zone. But the last 2 days I've entered another danger zone. Stuff at work has been bugging me and I've been letting myself get upset about issues that, previously, I either did not notice or was too preoccupied getting over the previous night's drinking. It's good to be sharper and more with it as I can do a better job. But I'm noticing things I don't like and I'm getting annoyed by them. I've got to learn to deal with these things better. You know, when I first went into work after a night of drinking all I wanted to do was hide out in my cubicle, not talk to anyone and recover. I was petrified that somehow my secret would slip out....would someone smell alcohol on me? Did I gargle with mouthwash, shouldn't I have brought breath mints? Will that even work if I'm sweating the alcohol out of my body??? These are the things I was thinking about. Now its, "well that's certainly a dumbass policy! I'm gonna say something about it!"...So....this is my sticking point, the thing I gotta learn. I feel like Tigger at the top of the tree..."I'm gettin seasick from SEEIN too much". At least for now I have no cravings and coming here helps. Thanks for listening.
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July 12th start day
That's the start of my sober house I am building with Legos. One piece for each day, I have enough for just over 6 months... Hope I build the whole thing.
It's nice to have a visual and something physical. Maybe a silly idea but I planned and built my house so I know what the end product is at 6 months which is my goal.
That's the start of my sober house I am building with Legos. One piece for each day, I have enough for just over 6 months... Hope I build the whole thing.
It's nice to have a visual and something physical. Maybe a silly idea but I planned and built my house so I know what the end product is at 6 months which is my goal.
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Originally Posted by sleepie 
July 12th start day
That's the start of my sober house I am building with Legos. One piece for each day, I have enough for just over 6 months... Hope I build the whole thing.
It's nice to have a visual and something physical. Maybe a silly idea but I planned and built my house so I know what the end product is at 6 months which is my goal.
That's the start of my sober house I am building with Legos. One piece for each day, I have enough for just over 6 months... Hope I build the whole thing.
It's nice to have a visual and something physical. Maybe a silly idea but I planned and built my house so I know what the end product is at 6 months which is my goal.
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Originally Posted by BobBFree33
Welcome Sobertaurus, Porcha, and Toadie!
Finishing up day 11 out of the danger zone. But the last 2 days I've entered another danger zone. Stuff at work has been bugging me and I've been letting myself get upset about issues that, previously, I either did not notice or was too preoccupied getting over the previous night's drinking. It's good to be sharper and more with it as I can do a better job. But I'm noticing things I don't like and I'm getting annoyed by them. I've got to learn to deal with these things better. You know, when I first went into work after a night of drinking all I wanted to do was hide out in my cubicle, not talk to anyone and recover. I was petrified that somehow my secret would slip out....would someone smell alcohol on me? Did I gargle with mouthwash, shouldn't I have brought breath mints? Will that even work if I'm sweating the alcohol out of my body??? These are the things I was thinking about. Now its, "well that's certainly a dumbass policy! I'm gonna say something about it!"...So....this is my sticking point, the thing I gotta learn. I feel like Tigger at the top of the tree..."I'm gettin seasick from SEEIN too much". At least for now I have no cravings and coming here helps. Thanks for listening.
Finishing up day 11 out of the danger zone. But the last 2 days I've entered another danger zone. Stuff at work has been bugging me and I've been letting myself get upset about issues that, previously, I either did not notice or was too preoccupied getting over the previous night's drinking. It's good to be sharper and more with it as I can do a better job. But I'm noticing things I don't like and I'm getting annoyed by them. I've got to learn to deal with these things better. You know, when I first went into work after a night of drinking all I wanted to do was hide out in my cubicle, not talk to anyone and recover. I was petrified that somehow my secret would slip out....would someone smell alcohol on me? Did I gargle with mouthwash, shouldn't I have brought breath mints? Will that even work if I'm sweating the alcohol out of my body??? These are the things I was thinking about. Now its, "well that's certainly a dumbass policy! I'm gonna say something about it!"...So....this is my sticking point, the thing I gotta learn. I feel like Tigger at the top of the tree..."I'm gettin seasick from SEEIN too much". At least for now I have no cravings and coming here helps. Thanks for listening.
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Originally Posted by Behindthelens
Morning all. Day 5 here.
Went out last night with a couple of friends who don't drink. They're both pretty successful in their work. All the way through my AV was saying, "how many beers shall we get on the way home?". It's so well trained from years of buying booze on my way home, no matter what time it is in the evening. I did stop in the shop and buy some sugary drink. I fear a lot of these small stores where I reside will experience a downturn in the their profits this week...
I have massively underachieved in these past 5 years. I start projects and they dwindle pretty quickly. Once I hit 35, that was when I started noticing the drop in momentum and 5 years later I'm still saying "when I get this project started", or "now is not the right time" etc etc. The drink allows me to ignore these feelings of stagnation but it also saps my energy the next day to become driven and enthusiastic, hence keeping the cycle alive. I'm not sure if this realisation will help keep me sober for long but it certainly helped last night.
Anyway, rant over.
May your day be blessed.
Went out last night with a couple of friends who don't drink. They're both pretty successful in their work. All the way through my AV was saying, "how many beers shall we get on the way home?". It's so well trained from years of buying booze on my way home, no matter what time it is in the evening. I did stop in the shop and buy some sugary drink. I fear a lot of these small stores where I reside will experience a downturn in the their profits this week...
I have massively underachieved in these past 5 years. I start projects and they dwindle pretty quickly. Once I hit 35, that was when I started noticing the drop in momentum and 5 years later I'm still saying "when I get this project started", or "now is not the right time" etc etc. The drink allows me to ignore these feelings of stagnation but it also saps my energy the next day to become driven and enthusiastic, hence keeping the cycle alive. I'm not sure if this realisation will help keep me sober for long but it certainly helped last night.
Anyway, rant over.
May your day be blessed.
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Originally Posted by sleepie
July 12th start day
That's the start of my sober house I am building with Legos. One piece for each day, I have enough for just over 6 months... Hope I build the whole thing.
It's nice to have a visual and something physical. Maybe a silly idea but I planned and built my house so I know what the end product is at 6 months which is my goal.
That's the start of my sober house I am building with Legos. One piece for each day, I have enough for just over 6 months... Hope I build the whole thing.
It's nice to have a visual and something physical. Maybe a silly idea but I planned and built my house so I know what the end product is at 6 months which is my goal.
Ending day 68 here guys. 69 days is the longest I've ever stayed continuously sober since my very first drink back in 1999.
Glad to see so many people in this class staying strong and so many new folks jumping on board. You really do have a special group here--keep building those connections with each other. I don't know what I'd do without my Class of May 2015 and July 2013 mates. They're the foundation of my recovery this time.
Remember you don't have to take that first drink today no matter what and as long as you don't take the first you can't take the second or third or tenth that will almost inevitably follow.
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Thanks guys.
Casey if anyone wanted to join me that would be great! I would love to have Sober House Lego pals
And since you already have so much time you can start building pretty far!
I went to the Lego Store, you can fill a big cup with as many pieces as you can fit for 15 dollars. A little pricey but the platform it's on was 8 bucks, really pricey! But it got me interested so if it woks, then great
Casey if anyone wanted to join me that would be great! I would love to have Sober House Lego pals
And since you already have so much time you can start building pretty far!
I went to the Lego Store, you can fill a big cup with as many pieces as you can fit for 15 dollars. A little pricey but the platform it's on was 8 bucks, really pricey! But it got me interested so if it woks, then great
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I love The Lego house idea!!! Well class I have to report my anxiety attack yesterday led me to the store to buy wine where I cried in parking lot like a fool, but did not go in store . I did go home and drink one beer. Sooo I'm back on Day 1, which I accept. I'm sick to pieces of Day 5 coming around and defeating me three times now, it's gotta stop! I am hoping this doesn't shoot me back in the withdrawal process, the middle of night wake ups and lack of sleep can go back to the 80s now where they belong.
Can guy and JL, sorry you had rough days too
, will go back and catch up on all posts later
Can guy and JL, sorry you had rough days too
, will go back and catch up on all posts later
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Encouragement to you, Sadie1.
I bought myself some food-treats today - a bit difficult because I don't care for ice-cream or sweets and generally try to watch the diet - however, I bought macadamia nuts (high calorie to help with satiety) and fresh dates for that little bit of sweetness. Expensive, but I'll just be eating a few each day, and I can think of worse things to spend my money on! And got some 70% dark chocolate, too.
Thinking of you all and hoping your day/evening is going according to plan. xx
I bought myself some food-treats today - a bit difficult because I don't care for ice-cream or sweets and generally try to watch the diet - however, I bought macadamia nuts (high calorie to help with satiety) and fresh dates for that little bit of sweetness. Expensive, but I'll just be eating a few each day, and I can think of worse things to spend my money on! And got some 70% dark chocolate, too.
Thinking of you all and hoping your day/evening is going according to plan. xx
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