Class of January 2015 Part 7
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I see I have some major catching up to do.
I also see that some SO and AH's are being asshats. Mine is too. Constantly yapping at me and pushing my buttons. I just put more time in at the golf course this past week. Total avoidance I know. But it works for me.
I have taken a big step, and I'm taking another for announcing this to you all. I have enrolled in a course on writing. For more than 30 years I have had this voice inside my head (not a mental condition type voice) whispering to me WRITE! WRITE! WRITE. Not so much whispering it to me these days, more screaming it. Do I need to take on something else right now? No. lol But I can't not do it. I grew up in a house that was so dysfunctional and I was never told that I could do anything. I was told the opposite. I was called "Dummy" and I actually would answer to it. So that has always been playing in my head, on a loop, on repeat, over and over. But that's enough!!! I've always been to frightened to try. Scared of failure, embarrassment and rejection. But that has never silenced that voice telling me to write.
I hope everyone is having a great day! I'm glad I'm working at the store today. It's slow and quiet and I can mess around on my laptop. LOL
Jojo
I also see that some SO and AH's are being asshats. Mine is too. Constantly yapping at me and pushing my buttons. I just put more time in at the golf course this past week. Total avoidance I know. But it works for me.
I have taken a big step, and I'm taking another for announcing this to you all. I have enrolled in a course on writing. For more than 30 years I have had this voice inside my head (not a mental condition type voice) whispering to me WRITE! WRITE! WRITE. Not so much whispering it to me these days, more screaming it. Do I need to take on something else right now? No. lol But I can't not do it. I grew up in a house that was so dysfunctional and I was never told that I could do anything. I was told the opposite. I was called "Dummy" and I actually would answer to it. So that has always been playing in my head, on a loop, on repeat, over and over. But that's enough!!! I've always been to frightened to try. Scared of failure, embarrassment and rejection. But that has never silenced that voice telling me to write.
I hope everyone is having a great day! I'm glad I'm working at the store today. It's slow and quiet and I can mess around on my laptop. LOL
Jojo
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Hey Jojo - glad you checked in - makes some of us nerveous when we don't hear from our regulars.
Sounds like Sister, you and I are all having our relationship issues. I keep going back and forth. I mean she still has so long to go and I think maybe I'll hang in there and she'll be really nice and pay attention to me etc. but I'm not in love and that's an issue - I mean can you fall back in love? I don't know. And there's the whole Match.com things... anyway
Jojo you should TOTALLY sign up for that writing course. That is so great! I know what you mean about the growing up but sounds like it was your parents issues not yours - I'm reading a book "You're not crazy - you're codependent" where the author talks specifically about that kind of household. Interesting read - I'm getting through it now.
So sign up and start sriting away - I think you'll love it - to do something youu've always wanted to.
Hi there Sister and Saoutchick. I'm hanging in Amsterdam. I think I'm really boring these days - at dinner it was like I didn't have anything to say. Probably just a lot on my mind.
Hope everyone has a great night.
Sounds like Sister, you and I are all having our relationship issues. I keep going back and forth. I mean she still has so long to go and I think maybe I'll hang in there and she'll be really nice and pay attention to me etc. but I'm not in love and that's an issue - I mean can you fall back in love? I don't know. And there's the whole Match.com things... anyway
Jojo you should TOTALLY sign up for that writing course. That is so great! I know what you mean about the growing up but sounds like it was your parents issues not yours - I'm reading a book "You're not crazy - you're codependent" where the author talks specifically about that kind of household. Interesting read - I'm getting through it now.
So sign up and start sriting away - I think you'll love it - to do something youu've always wanted to.
Hi there Sister and Saoutchick. I'm hanging in Amsterdam. I think I'm really boring these days - at dinner it was like I didn't have anything to say. Probably just a lot on my mind.
Hope everyone has a great night.
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Hey Teebee!
I know, my bad. But I'm alive and well but most of all sober. Still having the odd twinge of wanting a cigarette. But it's because I romanticize it when I see people with a cig on their golf carts... the way it trails behind them in beautiful white ribbons.... wafting.... Grrrrr! I just want it. But I don't. Oh but I do.. That long slender white ciggie... I want to just wrap my lips around that baby and draw.... Then gag and puke. HAHA!
Jojo
I know, my bad. But I'm alive and well but most of all sober. Still having the odd twinge of wanting a cigarette. But it's because I romanticize it when I see people with a cig on their golf carts... the way it trails behind them in beautiful white ribbons.... wafting.... Grrrrr! I just want it. But I don't. Oh but I do.. That long slender white ciggie... I want to just wrap my lips around that baby and draw.... Then gag and puke. HAHA!
Jojo
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Teebee, Jojo, Sis
I think my ex wife was smart - she got out from me in her mid 40s and has coped just fine without Saoutchik.
I think that women, on average, do better without a partner than men do
It's weird, I sort of like being on my own but I fear it too
I'm rambling so I will shut up
I think my ex wife was smart - she got out from me in her mid 40s and has coped just fine without Saoutchik.
I think that women, on average, do better without a partner than men do
It's weird, I sort of like being on my own but I fear it too
I'm rambling so I will shut up
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Originally Posted by saoutchik 
Teebee, Jojo, Sis
I think my ex wife was smart - she got out from me in her mid 40s and has coped just fine without Saoutchik.
I think that women, on average, do better without a partner than men do
It's weird, I sort of like being on my own but I fear it too
I'm rambling so I will shut up
I think my ex wife was smart - she got out from me in her mid 40s and has coped just fine without Saoutchik.
I think that women, on average, do better without a partner than men do
It's weird, I sort of like being on my own but I fear it too
I'm rambling so I will shut up
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Originally Posted by saoutchik
You don't want them Jojo - smelly breath/ clothes, brown fingers, brown teeth, clearing your throat to speak, expensive, bad for your health. Nah they were glamorous in the 190's but not now
I know and you are 100% right. I don't want them and I don't know why I keep dabbling in these stupid thoughts.
Jojo
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Don't shut up - I like your advice. Maybe at the time you weren't the best partner but I think we'd get along great. I think I would be okay alone but yes I fear it to an extent. I don't want to be away from my kids and I'm afraid that they're not going to love me anymore if we split up (which I know probably isn't going to happen but it's a fear). And there are times I can see the good in her and the partner she could be but just don't know if there's an "us"... anyway I'll shut up now.
Jojo - I quit cigs many many years ago and wanted one for a long time. Finally got over it and now I'm very happy I'm not attahced to that habit but in times of high stress I will stand out with the smokers just to smell it. That seems to do it for me but I'll never take another puff.
Ok - going to bed now - it's almost midnight here and I got to get up in the morning.
Jojo - I quit cigs many many years ago and wanted one for a long time. Finally got over it and now I'm very happy I'm not attahced to that habit but in times of high stress I will stand out with the smokers just to smell it. That seems to do it for me but I'll never take another puff.
Ok - going to bed now - it's almost midnight here and I got to get up in the morning.
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Thank you Teebee, I wasn't an alcoholic when I was married but at 40 I had some sort of mud life cris is and started sleeping with other women which was selfish and foolish so my ex did the right thing
Most of the time I am fine with being on my own but sometimes (holidays especially) I get lonely
Most of the time I am fine with being on my own but sometimes (holidays especially) I get lonely
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OK here is a pic of the Lancia in it's current state. I think the last pic was just the chassis skeleton well it has the front panels on now. Still no engine (it is being rebuilt) or gearbox or brakes or interior
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Originally Posted by saoutchik
"mud life crisis?" S/B mid life. Duh
I like mud life crisis and I thought that's what you meant. Life is murky and there for must be a mud life crisis. lol I love it!
Jojo
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Originally Posted by saoutchik
OK here is a pic of the Lancia in it's current state. I think the last pic was just the chassis skeleton well it has the front panels on now. Still no engine (it is being rebuilt) or gearbox or brakes or interior
But tell me Saoutchik, is the steering wheel on the right, but no, not that right, but the side of the car that I know how to drive? lol Hey that's cool cause I could drive that baby!!! All though I've never driven on the wrong side of the road before. Or the left , or crap, however they say it.
Jojo
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They are all left hand drive Jojo so you would be fine.
Strike on the London Underground today which is a minor inconvenience for me (a 40 minute walk in nice weather) Major hassle for people who commute a distance.
They even felt they could have a laugh at passengers expense
Strike on the London Underground today which is a minor inconvenience for me (a 40 minute walk in nice weather) Major hassle for people who commute a distance.
They even felt they could have a laugh at passengers expense
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I love that picture! Leaving Amsterdam today. I really like this city. I had great food and finished a project. All that's left is business case proposal and endorsement, which will be done by the end of the summer. Yeah!!
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