Class of December 2014 Part 22
...holds the key
Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Texas
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Marty....you did good. That made me tear up a little actually.
On hummingbirds....I haven't been keeping the feeders filled but the hummers don't seem to care.....they are all over the garden and low growth vegetation. It's amazing really!
On hummingbirds....I haven't been keeping the feeders filled but the hummers don't seem to care.....they are all over the garden and low growth vegetation. It's amazing really!
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Somewhere in California
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Summer is here. Day 194/6 months sober. Sober golden California summer. There's that golden haze in the air in the late afternoons lately. That's what I look forward to each year. Looks like everything is about to catch fire.
First sober summer in many many years.
First sober summer in many many years.
Giving up is NOT an option.
Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: Western Wisconsin
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Yeah, Della, I am feeling the same thing. I think it's just that I'm recalling long summer days hanging out at bonfires or on patios or in boats sipping drinks with certain people. The weather is a mental trigger for certain memories. I'm feeling quite lonely these days in some ways. But I'll work through it also.
Giving up is NOT an option.
Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: Western Wisconsin
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I think is that summer is my favorite season and I'm wishing for a special someone to be with, and I don't have that. This is not a pity party, I need to be on my own for a while to work through stuff, but it still brings up feelings. Damn those feelings!!!
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Canada! wtf eh?
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For me, a long period of being alone was extremely beneficial. Once I got comfortable in your my own solitude, having someone else to share it with became an enrichment rather than a need.
I also feel the need to reveal that I had a drink of alcohol while on a vacation weekend with the gf a couple weeks ago. Not sure if I was testing the waters or what... But a single drink with dinner was had and nothing more. It was a pleasant experience but I've yet to desire another and who knows if I will. Maybe I was never an alcoholic in the classic sense but its for sure that I have the ability to abuse it at times. For that reason alone, Ill always wonder. But id be lying if I wasn't questioning this demonizing of a substance that seems to only build a culture of fear. I just don't get it.
In the meantime, my father was also diagnosed with cancer and begins treatment tomorrow. No time for shenanigans anyhow, lol.
Love you all.
I also feel the need to reveal that I had a drink of alcohol while on a vacation weekend with the gf a couple weeks ago. Not sure if I was testing the waters or what... But a single drink with dinner was had and nothing more. It was a pleasant experience but I've yet to desire another and who knows if I will. Maybe I was never an alcoholic in the classic sense but its for sure that I have the ability to abuse it at times. For that reason alone, Ill always wonder. But id be lying if I wasn't questioning this demonizing of a substance that seems to only build a culture of fear. I just don't get it.
In the meantime, my father was also diagnosed with cancer and begins treatment tomorrow. No time for shenanigans anyhow, lol.
Love you all.
Giving up is NOT an option.
Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: Western Wisconsin
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Hey Tonks. Sorry about your dad. Hope he kicks it.
And about the demonizing of alcohol - I understand where you are coming from. I needed to demonize it for a while, but I've come to realize that what I need to demonize is my own tendency to abuse it. Not the substance itself. One drink, enjoyed, would be nice. But I'm not going to risk it because I'm not sure it wouldn't turn into a falling down drunk. If you can do it, great. And the fact you haven't wanted another shows you have power over it.
And about the demonizing of alcohol - I understand where you are coming from. I needed to demonize it for a while, but I've come to realize that what I need to demonize is my own tendency to abuse it. Not the substance itself. One drink, enjoyed, would be nice. But I'm not going to risk it because I'm not sure it wouldn't turn into a falling down drunk. If you can do it, great. And the fact you haven't wanted another shows you have power over it.
...holds the key
Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Texas
Posts: 7,065
Hugs tonks and so sorry about your dad. 
I guess we are just playing with fire when we let ourselves have even just one.
It's been hard for me to get back the mindset I had before I drank a few weeks ago. And without the right mindset, sobriety won't stick. I went to a party yesterday and I was tempted by a variety of different things and even though I didn't partake, I felt a little resentful that I couldn't. I'm still working at getting my mind right and struggling through each day more than I should be and a lot more than I was before.
I guess being sober this summer is a first for a lot of us and I'm glad we have each other to lean on.
Xoxo
I guess we are just playing with fire when we let ourselves have even just one.
It's been hard for me to get back the mindset I had before I drank a few weeks ago. And without the right mindset, sobriety won't stick. I went to a party yesterday and I was tempted by a variety of different things and even though I didn't partake, I felt a little resentful that I couldn't. I'm still working at getting my mind right and struggling through each day more than I should be and a lot more than I was before.
I guess being sober this summer is a first for a lot of us and I'm glad we have each other to lean on.
Xoxo
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Location: Canada
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Hi guys!
Back from my week with my boyfriend
Was good! We went hiking, out for dinner, saw the midnight showing of mad max, then we went on a rollercoaster a couple times ( i insisted
)
Just getting ready to head out to Romania tomorrow!
Love you all.
I have been drinking, but kinda responsibly, kinda.. Trying to get my sober feet again, even for just a month.
Back from my week with my boyfriend
Was good! We went hiking, out for dinner, saw the midnight showing of mad max, then we went on a rollercoaster a couple times ( i insisted
)Just getting ready to head out to Romania tomorrow!
Love you all.
I have been drinking, but kinda responsibly, kinda.. Trying to get my sober feet again, even for just a month.
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Join Date: Dec 2014
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Good Morning Lovely Littermates.
Taking the day to chill out after a super busy week. Lots of rain here. Good day to stay in.
SunKing- congrats on 6 months and a sober golden summer.
Jen - so glad you had a nice visit with the boyfriend. Enjoy Romania - looking forward to hearing about it.
Tonks - your dad will be in my sunrise prayers. And you too. I do not demonized alcohol, never have. I just know that I gave it a good run and that is that. I am enjoying feeling energy and healthy and experiencing so many things for the first time.
Marty - continued condolences for your grandmother.
Taking the day to chill out after a super busy week. Lots of rain here. Good day to stay in.
SunKing- congrats on 6 months and a sober golden summer.
Jen - so glad you had a nice visit with the boyfriend. Enjoy Romania - looking forward to hearing about it.
Tonks - your dad will be in my sunrise prayers. And you too. I do not demonized alcohol, never have. I just know that I gave it a good run and that is that. I am enjoying feeling energy and healthy and experiencing so many things for the first time.
Marty - continued condolences for your grandmother.
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