Class of April 2015 Part 5
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Thank you Cauliflower very kind and wise words.
Incontrol, you have inspired me to dedicate my next month's sobriety to the memory of the late, great Santiago.
This will be a promise I will find very hard to break! Thank you my sober friends!
Incontrol, you have inspired me to dedicate my next month's sobriety to the memory of the late, great Santiago.
This will be a promise I will find very hard to break! Thank you my sober friends!
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I screwed up. Badly. I couldn't stop it. I purposely did not come here for help. I feel horrible. My tendonitis is back and bad. It was never enough. I'm really sick. I don't even think I'm going to try to leave the house.
I had so many advances. I started taking for granted that I was up from 8 till midnight, thinking much more clearly, less anxiety, body was getting better. I was really depressed yesterday, I started getting really tired the last few days, all day long. Looked at my life and said 'I'm screwed.' I'm really not on an antidepressant to help with the tiredness and anxiety.
I feel like a complete failure. Anxiety is through the roof.
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Johnny!!! So good to see you back! Doesn't matter where you've been. Anybody can make a mistake....you're amongst specialists in that area!!! I'm going through a tough time right now too. Let's make it together?!?
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I'm going to get back on the horse. Just really feel horrible. Profoundly disappointed in myself. I'm going back to sleep. Went to bed at like 5 am.
Let this be warning to my fellow drunks, don't f-ing drink!!!! It's never ok. Never. I need a sober friend here and a panic button on my phone. Aa is good for that. Of course I could have posted on SR but ....
Let this be warning to my fellow drunks, don't f-ing drink!!!! It's never ok. Never. I need a sober friend here and a panic button on my phone. Aa is good for that. Of course I could have posted on SR but ....
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Johnny!!!!
So glad your back buddy.
Sometimes we just need to learn things the hard way. I know I do. I could have the whole world tells something but if my mind tells me something different, then, well, I go against the grain. Next thing I know I'm one of those people trying to convince others. Lol.
It's also a very valuable lesson. It sounds like you learned a few things from it. And that's powerful. You are stronger now.
Follow through on the psych meds. I've stopped meds before and always end up back in despair. We need what we need and that's it.
Again...thank you for posting. I missed you. Glad your back.
So glad your back buddy.
Sometimes we just need to learn things the hard way. I know I do. I could have the whole world tells something but if my mind tells me something different, then, well, I go against the grain. Next thing I know I'm one of those people trying to convince others. Lol.
It's also a very valuable lesson. It sounds like you learned a few things from it. And that's powerful. You are stronger now.
Follow through on the psych meds. I've stopped meds before and always end up back in despair. We need what we need and that's it.
Again...thank you for posting. I missed you. Glad your back.
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Johnny, I'm very glad you are back. We've all been there. I can't tell you how many times I've woken up hungover and thought "why do I drink? This is not worth it." Drinking never leads me to a better place. The AV will try and tell me otherwise but I know better.
I am glad to have you back with us.
I am glad to have you back with us.
we're here for you
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Angie - ive had those dreams too. It's amazing how real they seem and how long the guilt stays with you.
Cauliflower- I use to sneak into my parents bed when I was about that age. Eventually they banned me to the floor of their bed. I was taking up too much room lol
Cauliflower- I use to sneak into my parents bed when I was about that age. Eventually they banned me to the floor of their bed. I was taking up too much room lol
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So I'm back detoxing. Haven't had hot flashes in a week!!
Has anyone got any telemarketing calls from Rehab companies. It could be from google searches I did about quitting. But I'm curious to know if they get information out of this site. I have never gotten one before.
Pathways To Recovery. They didn't like the fact that I called them and told the 'f off.' They didn't want to even say the name the just answered with 'Pathways.' Then were put off when I said, 'I want to know who you are.'
It's probably not hard for bots out there to see google searches and then ferret out my cell phone number. It's kind of not anonymous. Or to snoop around a web site for my info. I think I'd like to make some security changes on here and with my general internet usage.
Ok. Not blaming SR, just curious. Btw have any if you googled your user name and State of residence? Because mine brings up all of my SR posts. Id like to change my user need to something I haven't used elsewhere and my location, provide a generic email account, not my main one.
Has anyone got any telemarketing calls from Rehab companies. It could be from google searches I did about quitting. But I'm curious to know if they get information out of this site. I have never gotten one before.
Pathways To Recovery. They didn't like the fact that I called them and told the 'f off.' They didn't want to even say the name the just answered with 'Pathways.' Then were put off when I said, 'I want to know who you are.'
It's probably not hard for bots out there to see google searches and then ferret out my cell phone number. It's kind of not anonymous. Or to snoop around a web site for my info. I think I'd like to make some security changes on here and with my general internet usage.
Ok. Not blaming SR, just curious. Btw have any if you googled your user name and State of residence? Because mine brings up all of my SR posts. Id like to change my user need to something I haven't used elsewhere and my location, provide a generic email account, not my main one.
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Hi amp, I'm really sorry for your loss. Hang in there for the sake of his memory and his daughter. Just one day at a time.
Good to see you back here immediately Johnny. Kudos to you. We're a 24 hour class so swing by at whatever time and there should be someone here.
Best wishes on this sad day for Amp
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Good to see you back here immediately Johnny. Kudos to you. We're a 24 hour class so swing by at whatever time and there should be someone here.
Best wishes on this sad day for Amp
OMD
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Originally Posted by johnny555 
So I'm back detoxing. Haven't had hot flashes in a week!!
Has anyone got any telemarketing calls from Rehab companies. It could be from google searches I did about quitting. But I'm curious to know if they get information out of this site. I have never gotten one before.
Pathways To Recovery. They didn't like the fact that I called them and told the 'f off.' They didn't want to even say the name the just answered with 'Pathways.' Then were put off when I said, 'I want to know who you are.'
It's probably not hard for bots out there to see google searches and then ferret out my cell phone number. It's kind of not anonymous. Or to snoop around a web site for my info. I think I'd like to make some security changes on here and with my general internet usage.
Ok. Not blaming SR, just curious. Btw have any if you googled your user name and State of residence? Because mine brings up all of my SR posts. Id like to change my user need to something I haven't used elsewhere and my location, provide a generic email account, not my main one.
Has anyone got any telemarketing calls from Rehab companies. It could be from google searches I did about quitting. But I'm curious to know if they get information out of this site. I have never gotten one before.
Pathways To Recovery. They didn't like the fact that I called them and told the 'f off.' They didn't want to even say the name the just answered with 'Pathways.' Then were put off when I said, 'I want to know who you are.'
It's probably not hard for bots out there to see google searches and then ferret out my cell phone number. It's kind of not anonymous. Or to snoop around a web site for my info. I think I'd like to make some security changes on here and with my general internet usage.
Ok. Not blaming SR, just curious. Btw have any if you googled your user name and State of residence? Because mine brings up all of my SR posts. Id like to change my user need to something I haven't used elsewhere and my location, provide a generic email account, not my main one.
The privacy policy for this site is linked down the bottom right of the page
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I'll eat my hat if it came from us.
Did you get my message about having to see Anna to change your name?
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I'm sure it's google. Or it could have been random.
It's 7pm here and I'm just getting up. Hangover is unbelievable. I picked up an egg sandwich earlier and came back right to bed. My friend woke me up coming in to my place to help me out. She's being much more understanding than me about this whole thing. I drank 2 cans of cold coconut water this morning. I got 1.5 liter bottle of electrolyte water. I'll drink the whole thing and more coconut water tonight before bed. Head is in a vice, muscles killing me, totally exhausted. This is going to set me back a lot.
Learn from my mistakes. I hope I do :/
I'll let you guys know.
It's 7pm here and I'm just getting up. Hangover is unbelievable. I picked up an egg sandwich earlier and came back right to bed. My friend woke me up coming in to my place to help me out. She's being much more understanding than me about this whole thing. I drank 2 cans of cold coconut water this morning. I got 1.5 liter bottle of electrolyte water. I'll drink the whole thing and more coconut water tonight before bed. Head is in a vice, muscles killing me, totally exhausted. This is going to set me back a lot.
Learn from my mistakes. I hope I do :/
I'll let you guys know.
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