Class of March 2015 Part 5
Yeah I definitely wouldn't drink it just because I associate it with 'relaxing with a drink' which would make me want more and eventually Id probably justify to myself that I could have a 'real' drink because I'd only have one and it'd be just like having this non alcoholic version etcc
Wow bobcat! Congrats on 81 days! I'm with you on the ice cream overload. Between shutting the AV up and having the flu for the past week, I've eaten my body weight in ice cream. I don't think I'm ready to give up the sweets just yet, though, so I'll have to increase my cardio or something! I'm on day 75, myself. I can't wait to get to those triple digits! I kept a journal last year when I managed to stay sober for 6 months and around day 90-100, not drinking became more of a reflex. My entries seemed to be more focused on what I was doing those days (going to the park, meeting friends for coffee, running on the beach, etc) than me being paranoid about going to a friends house and focusing on the half empty bottle of vodka on top of her fridge. Lol. It does seem a bit easier so I'm looking forward to that I have a quick question for everyone: do any of you drink non-alcoholic beer? I know that this is a hotly debated topic. During my last stint of sobriety, I drank an o'douls maybe once or twice a week? I was never one to get drunk on beer (always vodka) but I've always loved the way beer tasted. I've been debating with myself whether drinking o'douls actually helped me stay sober longer, as I had something to look forward to when going out with friends and it made me feel like a nice compromise: I gave up alcohol but I didn't have to give up beer. But, I worry that the taste of the beer reminded me of real beer, and eventually the fake stuff wasn't doing it anymore hence the relapse after 6 months. Any thoughts? I could easily live without NA beer. It's not even a big deal. It's just something about summer weather and sitting outside relaxing with a cold one sounds appealing... Is this the AV talking? I can't tell sometimes the AV can disguise itself so well! Thanks for the input have an awesome Friday everyone!
I was also a vodka lover, vodka and cranberry juice. Now the closest I get to that taste of that is when I mix sparkling water and cranberry juice. Yum!! I know what you mean about summer and alcohol, they seem to go hand in hand. Congrats on 75!!!
I am very glad to be back from a week of work travel. It was a grueling experience because everything had been scheduled too densely, which threw my diet, exercise, and sleep into chaos to the point of torture. Enough said.
I hope all is well with you! I will now go back and get caught up on the messages.
Mel
I hope all is well with you! I will now go back and get caught up on the messages.
Mel
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Thanks for your advice everyone. You're all right, I'll stick with pop and coffee don't want to cross that line back into old behavior...
Today marks 11 weeks sober! I'm going to some sort of jazz club with my family this evening. The AV has been loud this weekend, but I've been shutting it down. We went to the zoo yesterday and there were tons of people getting drunk and standing in line at the few kiosks that sold liquor. I'm glad I wasn't one of those people waiting in the hot sun for an over-priced drink!
Have an awesome and safe holiday weekend everyone!
Today marks 11 weeks sober! I'm going to some sort of jazz club with my family this evening. The AV has been loud this weekend, but I've been shutting it down. We went to the zoo yesterday and there were tons of people getting drunk and standing in line at the few kiosks that sold liquor. I'm glad I wasn't one of those people waiting in the hot sun for an over-priced drink!
Have an awesome and safe holiday weekend everyone!
I have to agree Kafka. I think the NA beer would be a HUGE temptation to moving back into real alcohol. I've thought about it a few times myself but the fear of being sucked back in is just too great.
Welcome back Mel! The trip may have thrown your schedule out of whack but now you can get back into your routine. And hey, you learned a valuable lesson I should think. You learned that you're now strong enough in your sobriety to withstand a little chaos. Good stuff!
I hope everyone else is enjoying a well deserved break this weekend. Good luck to you all!
Welcome back Mel! The trip may have thrown your schedule out of whack but now you can get back into your routine. And hey, you learned a valuable lesson I should think. You learned that you're now strong enough in your sobriety to withstand a little chaos. Good stuff!
I hope everyone else is enjoying a well deserved break this weekend. Good luck to you all!
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I hope your week gets better, starting with this hour today! 40 days is huge! You should be proud of yourself. I get frustrated by my cravings sometimes and vent about when they will go away but I've realized it has gotten better and easier. One day at a time We're all here for you, P!
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I have to agree Kafka. I think the NA beer would be a HUGE temptation to moving back into real alcohol. I've thought about it a few times myself but the fear of being sucked back in is just too great. Welcome back Mel! The trip may have thrown your schedule out of whack but now you can get back into your routine. And hey, you learned a valuable lesson I should think. You learned that you're now strong enough in your sobriety to withstand a little chaos. Good stuff! I hope everyone else is enjoying a well deserved break this weekend. Good luck to you all!
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Doing ok these days. Surfed a pretty intense urge the other day by designing my next craft project in my head (I was at the doctor's office, so I couldn't actually do any activity to distract myself, but I also couldn't act on the urge, which was very fortunate). Didn't really dissipate for about an hour and a half---a very looong hour and a half. But I got through it.
Still trying to figure what to do next year---play it safe or go for my dream---which is stressful, but I'm managing. Pouncer, I'm wishing you plenty of strength to get through this sh*tty time.
Still trying to figure what to do next year---play it safe or go for my dream---which is stressful, but I'm managing. Pouncer, I'm wishing you plenty of strength to get through this sh*tty time.
Doing ok these days. Surfed a pretty intense urge the other day by designing my next craft project in my head (I was at the doctor's office, so I couldn't actually do any activity to distract myself, but I also couldn't act on the urge, which was very fortunate). Didn't really dissipate for about an hour and a half---a very looong hour and a half. But I got through it.
Still trying to figure what to do next year---play it safe or go for my dream---which is stressful, but I'm managing. Pouncer, I'm wishing you plenty of strength to get through this sh*tty time.
Still trying to figure what to do next year---play it safe or go for my dream---which is stressful, but I'm managing. Pouncer, I'm wishing you plenty of strength to get through this sh*tty time.
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Thanks, Dee! And thanks for the advice, mystified. I think I'm deciding to go the safe route, because it has a lot of good things going for it---living with others, guaranteed housing + job (vs. applying for something new and trying to find my own apartment), closer to family, no car needed, fewer hours at work (so not up for 9-11 hour workdays! 8 is all I can handle), plenty of resources for both fun and social support around. My dream will still be there next year (gd willing!), and hopefully by then I will be stronger, calmer, and more capable of facing the world. I finally feel good---or at least calm---about this choice, so I think I am going to go for it. Hoping it will work out!
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