SolitaryThinker

Doing fine with the drinking, just caught more stuff from the parents, it got crazier, guilt trips, threats to throw all my stuff out (I didn't move everything I owned right away)....now everyone is back to "normal" my mom is sober and back on her meds, and I'm the one sitting here depressed and feeling like the bad guy still...just drained and depressed I guess that's all...it's enough tho

Dee74

I'm sorry I know it was rough on you. Now things are settling a little I hope you can put it behind you ST

D

StormiNormi

Sorry to hear of the ongoing troubles, ST. Have you read "codependent no more" by Melody Beattie? I think I might have suggested it last year. An excellent read.

obosob

Morning Fools,
9.00am,
at the desk!

Of late I have been noticing the my senses are returning. I can remember smells, tastes, visions and touches that I only had before 18, when I turned to into an addict!
It's quite weird, like a transporter back to my childhood.

Feeling more centered.

Dee: instead of counselling, I find the Fools to be the best counselor/therapist I've had.... I find to raise issues of angst here in the team always helps to ease the situation....

ST: sounds like a tricky situation.

I hope all are well!!!!

stay tuned............................

izzy8

Hey guys-

Obo- I'm so excited for you! And we know big babies. My first was 9lbs and my first son was 10. My (first) twins were 6 each. I couldn't walk towards the end of any pregnancy ... ! You are going to LOVE fatherhood! Our whole family is baby crazy. My kids are wanting me to adopt ...

Free- How's the food tracking going? That's what I've been doing since January. It's been helpful but I hit a little plateau so we've been hitting the gym again lately. I forgot how good an (even little) work-out can make me feel.

ST- They say there's 2 sides of every character "trait". I think you must be a very caring and sensitive person that has a hard time letting things go. It really is OK to be selfish every once in a while. Keeps things balanced?

Dee- Thanks for you're continual words of wisdom. I read the Vale book and now am reading the predecessor that you recommended (I found on a thread you recommended to Chick). LOVE those. I especially like the phrase, "You don't need to drink anymore". Funny how we think we need something that isn't even good for us.

Chick! - I hope you check in soon . We added ducklings to our chicks. They are so messy. But very cute.

Rock- Hope you're going easier on yourself.

Stormi- so glad to see you here again!

Soli- Congrats on your many sober days!

Up- check in! You've come so far ...

Top, everyone- I think of you often ... Thanks for being such an inspiration to me.

obosob

Hi Izzy, WOW they're big babies alright. I have to help my wife move now, even off the couch! Very funny watching her try and do the simplest of things, like put shoes on.... Thanks for your support, you sound great!

freein14

Hi all,
Izzy, I've kept a week's food diary, and its been really surprising. Some things that I thought I ate a lot of I didn't seem to eat much of at all, and other things I thought I only ate once in a while seemed to crop up regularly. Definitely a reality check. I'm seeing the nutritionist on Saturday, so I will find out how nutritionally sound I am (or not!)

ST, keep focused on your own well being. I hope the relationship with your family gets easier, but if not, it really is their problem not yours.

UP, how are you doing? Hope things have eased off a bit for you.

Off to work now, see you later.

izzy8

Mariah- hope you're enjoying your new toy!

Upward2Enlightenment

Hi all.

Izzy, free .... I'm here, waiting for the next shoe to fall.

Sometimes it seems like this hole I made of my life is to deep to climb out of.

Have a great day everyone.

Soberwolf

Have a nice afternoon friends

StormiNormi

I must say, I absolutely LOVE mornings with no hangover now!
I wake up early, enjoy some me time, surf SR, get my Java on, and I am ready to go.
The last few years, I have had to drag self out of bed, and when I did finally I had to pull on my determination panties. If I can apply as much will into sobriety, I can do this.

SolitaryThinker

Yea letting go is impossible for me, next to it at least...thanks for the kind words and support everyone...

SolitaryThinker

Awesome stormi

SolitaryThinker

Obo that's a funny visual haha, my fiancé is a big woman to begin with I can't imigine what that's gonna be like if we ever have a baby, glad everything is going well with the pregnancy tho

SolitaryThinker

Hang in there up, it's never the end all be all of any situation <3

SolitaryThinker

Mariah and izzy <3 hope you two are doing well also

SolitaryThinker

Freen and D as well, hope your days are going well today

SolitaryThinker

I'm gonna try to not be depressed today

MariahGayle

Yes, Stormi, morning are so much easier waking sober & not hungover...that in itself makes for a good day Off & running for me this am....have a good day all Fools

SolitaryThinker

Doing ok with not drinking today, at work...my self esteem is horrible tho I really need to work on it and stop coming off like such a needy individual, although I feel like one right now anyway...it dosent bother me but it brothers others...I have my sobriety and apartment and all, just no self worth still...another thing to add to the list...<3
Hope everyone else is ok quiet here today