SoberLeigh

So would I, Dee. Crois has been much quieter than normal.

resolute50

Long day,funeral and wake last night. There's so much snow we didn't go to the cemetery.
There was drink at the after gathering. I didn't even think of drinking. Never bothered me at all.

Leshar

Hi, how is everyone?

I've been learning Aussie slang from a show on Netflix, "Wentworth" an intense drama, good tv.
Feeling a bit tired but my mood is stable, for which I'm very thankful.
How are you feeling, Bob?

SoberLeigh

Hi'ya, Leshar. Hi'ya, Bob.

Leshar

Hi SL! What plans for your weekend?

I'm going to the farmers market tomorrow morning, then breakfast out with friends, other than that no plans. Need to catch up with long neglected housework!

SoberLeigh

I love farmer's markets, Leshar!!!

No real plans for me, either - kind of a quiet weekend; sometimes things come up spur of the moment; love it when that happens.

Leshar

Me too!
Maybe I'll see what's on in the movies.

Dee74

Have a great weekend guys

D

Leshar

You too, Dee!
It's nice to see you popping in here.

Croissant

Yes still around guys. Busy, been away, and birthday.

I'm so busy at the moment...seems unreal that I had time to do sweet nothing when I was drinking, but still felt tired and stressed.

I read posts here, then race off without posting, so apologies. Sorry Snooz to hear of Josie, that's really sad.

Bob, although you've lost your grandma, how wonderful you were able to know her as long as you have! My grandma died when I was 23, and I wish I could have known her when I was just that little bit older, so I could ask all the things you never think of when life seems endless at 23. Grandparents are a special gift.

Love to all.xx

Leshar

Hi Croissant,

It's good to hear from you. Take care and happy belated birthday!

Soberwolf

Hello Julyers

Really sorry about your grandmother bob

Leshar

Hi folks,

I'm feeling a bit unsettled. Yesterday, I had a good time at the farmers market, but when I came home I felt listless and unmotivated. I pushed thru and did chores but it felt like hard work. Mood a bit low. Today feel much the same. I think it's the loneliness again. Drinking dream again last night. I plan to go to an AA meeting this morning.
I pray I am not getting sick again, it would seem too cruel to have this happening again. I'm going to keep working on doing good things and looking after myself.
Please keep me in your thoughts.

SoberLeigh

Great to see you, Croissant, and happy birthday!!!!! Busy is good.

SoberLeigh

You are always in my thoughts, dear Leshar; you are so special to us.

The blahs are really going around; every one is ready for the end of Winter, it seems.

Do you have any at-home distractions - thousand piece puzzle, a new book?

resolute50

I met my first drunk person last week.
One of my aunts friends had a little too much at my grandmother's after funeral party.
It is so weird to deal with somebody that is feeling the effects while being stone cold sober yourself. The eyes red and wandering, the smell of alcohol and the slurring.

The over-dramatization and exaggerated body language. The look of other people trying to play it off, and or play along with it.
I just treated her as if she was sober and ignored a lot of the "off" stuff.
I'm very thankful that I don't drink anymore.
I know my grandmother would be very happy to know this.

Dee74

I still have good and bad days Leshar. I think everyone does.
I'm sure tomorrow will be better for you - you're doing so well

D

Croissant

Amongst other things, I'm doing yoga at the moment.
It almost feels like an elixir that I need each week now.

It helps me to relax, stretch and strengthen my body, focus my mind. Every week we get a word to focus on, like peace, or love, or not setting limits as we do our moves.

None of it is perfect, but my focus is just on me and improving each week, if I can. Sometimes we all have a rough session and our bodies don't move the way we'd hoped, but we still try each move....baby steps.

SoberLeigh

Hi, Croissant. That yoga sounds great. I have been looking for a meditative yoga class; you have inspired me to get that process moving again.

Leshar

I don't know what's wrong with me. I had a really bad day yesterday, tired ++, couldn't feed my hunger, binge ate cookies, sweets. I'm really disappointed, I just couldn't stop myself, couldn't do much of anything, except lie on couch, felt like a lead weight on my body. I'm up and feel a bit better today, going into the city for play stuff, but I still feel off. I can't stand having this mood disorder and drinking dreams pretty much every night. What's wrong with me. I was gaining ground and now the rugs been pulled from under me.
I don't need this, but I have to muster strength to fight it.
I think I need to get to the gym and work out.

Happy that you're doing well, Croissant. I must get back to yoga too.