Mark1014

V, you have a defined goal. That's a big deal! Putting some of your personal matters in order will provide you, perhaps, with a better launch pad from which to meet that goal.

I'm so proud of you!

And like Leigh said, sometimes a good cry is just what we need for fresh perspective.

venuscat

You are proud of me? I am ashamed of me.
I am hardly a grown up.
Emotions of a teenager.
And I hate crying.

But I hear you...and I know I am too upset right now to cut myself a break.
The good thing is that I get to read this over and over when I am calm.

I just want to be a stronger person than this, you know?
I would like to be a mature adult, as you all are...

Dee74

None of us woke up and found ourselves this way V. In my case it took a lot of time, faith, and a few years work.

I was one hot mess.

D

venuscat

Well, I have the faith, and I believe in myself.
So I just need to keep moving forward, keep being honest, and always put my sobriety first. And learn some patience.

Thank you. So very much. ♥

Mark1014

V, from way over here what I see is an individual that is dealing with the physical challenges of surgery. The highly emotional issues of an aging parent. Financial hurdles. And not to mention early recovery. Yet during all of this you have defined a goal for your future and set about the process of attaining that goal. You're making adjustments as necessary to be able to give this your all. I find that incredible. Yes, I'm proud of you!

Mark1014

Did I mention that I cried like a baby on the way to the gym the other day. And I don't even know why. (Don't tell my buddies)

venuscat

Oh from....THANK YOU!!!!
I will take that...and what is that? My face just cracked because I am smiling.
Not about you crying on the way to the gym though...although I am proud of you too. You do not run from your emotions. Letting them out is healthy.

So I guess that goes for me as well...

I need to put a list on my wall of the reasons I am proud of myself.
Even if I don't feel it....fake it till you make it, right???

WOW...I am blessed to have such amazing friends to talk to.
Huge hugs!!!!

Mark1014

Hugs back.

I had to google rosellas. Brilliant color. The most colorful native bird around is the painted bunting.

venuscat

Googled....wow, that is a beautiful bird from. And they are a bit similar I think.

Arbor

Sounds like a good idea to me too that you wait on taking the courses V. I remember way back when you first started thinking about it you initially thought it may be a bit too much with everything that's going on. By July you'll have a fair deal of sober time and money in your pocket. Somedays i just have to stop myself and say it's ok to just sit here on the couch and rest. Even though my mind wants to do all these things that need to get done. At the end of the day it's just not doable and frankly not even worth it if you can't enjoy it. Hang in there!

venuscat

Thank you Arbor love ~ it would be nice to be able to buy a couch to sit on.

venuscat

Going to pick up a food voucher I organised...

Arbor

Couches are overrated

ChickChick

venuscat
Everyone gave such good advice this is an awesome class!

venuscat

Hi Chick ~ yes, it is an awesome class. I am incredibly grateful for the advice and the love. How are you? And I've been meaning to tell you that I think this is your cutest avatar so far.

And I have been wondering: how did you end up raising chickens?

SoberLeigh

^^^^ This.

I see what FAD sees and I am proud of you, too, V.

venuscat

Thank you darling Leigh! ♥

Conquest

Venus, I just want to squeeze ya! To echo our amazing friends... It is absolutely ok to wait until the time is right and much more comfortable. We can only do so much, Hun! And your plate is officially full right now. You're listening to your own needs and doing what feels best for you. That's outstanding work that you should be very proud of. I'm proud of you too.

As for my awesome date... All I can say now is that we're meeting up again tomorrow night for dinner. Sober love is so sweet!

venuscat

Oooooooo how wonderful Conquest!!! I am SO SO happy for you!
3 dates in a week, so far....very interesting. So, what are you wearing tomorrow night?
Always a fun question.

Thank you.
I still feel awful, but it takes me a bit to recover emotionally and physically when I get that upset. I appreciate the support more than I can express. If I treated myself as well as you guys treat me, I would be much better off. Practice, I guess.

ChickChick

Wow a third date is great Conquest! I haven't dated since I was a teen. I'm with Venus we need details to live vicariously.

V, I think I've wanted chickens since I watched Wizard of Oz over and over as a kid. The beginning scene with Aunt Em counting chicks. I finally talked hubby into them just last year, so I'm still newish to them! But we all love them. I just put more eggs in the incubator yesterday.