Class of December 2014 Part 6
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Location: Canada
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Erin I think you might be in that weird zombie like place ( or maybe its just me that gets like this) but I won't listen to reason, can't think of ANYTHING but the drink, I don't even want to drink, but its like some magnetic pull that takes over me, I still don't understand it, in the past it has always won, ALWAYS, except lately I have been winning, it goes away. I don't even feel happy that I didn't drink, I just go home miserable without my booze, BUT, the next day I feel so happy and proud of myself.
Try to ride it out
This might not make sense, but it has been my experience, I go on zombie drives to the liquor store, like its not even me, I just go. I've parked outside a couple of times and left, once I bought the wine but dumped it down the drain without a drink. It sucked, but it is what is.
Xoxo
Try to ride it out
This might not make sense, but it has been my experience, I go on zombie drives to the liquor store, like its not even me, I just go. I've parked outside a couple of times and left, once I bought the wine but dumped it down the drain without a drink. It sucked, but it is what is.
Xoxo
Don't Blink
Join Date: Sep 2014
Posts: 342
Still haven't decided one way or the other. I did buy a bottle but I've not opened it. I can relate to the zombie mode you're talking about. I've been riding on the temporary boost my av gave me when I bought the bottle. Maybe it isn't as bad as I thought. Maybe I won't drink.
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Originally Posted by erin8 
Still haven't decided one way or the other. I did buy a bottle but I've not opened it. I can relate to the zombie mode you're talking about. I've been riding on the temporary boost my av gave me when I bought the bottle. Maybe it isn't as bad as I thought. Maybe I won't drink.
You can control it, even if it doesn't seem like it, you drove to the liquor store, posted on here, went in and bought it, came home and posted before you've opened it.
Alcohol doesn't have as much power as you think it does, if it did you would have started drinking it in the liquor before you even paid. YOU are in control clearly.
As someone who has done this same scenario many times over, the craving passes, I promise it will, just gotta ride it out!!
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Join Date: Dec 2014
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Erin, we love you. I hope after buying the bottle that you stayed strong and did not drink. Then next thing is to dump the bottle down the drain. You can do this. We are with you.
As Jsbodhi said - ride it out.
As Jsbodhi said - ride it out.
Giving up is NOT an option.
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Erin I really hope you can find something within yourself to overcome this challenge. Your av is strong, but you are stronger. Kick the av in the ass. Dig deep. Play tapes forward, or play them back. Whatever works for you. I do both. I don't want to lose a triplet sister!!
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I understand not wanting to fight it anymore erin - but if you drink you'll find yourself back here again anyway..and that's if you're lucky. You may find things can get a lot worse too.
If it feels like an endless grind to fight your addiction right now, maybe you need to look at what you've been doing - maybe you need more support for example, or a different approach?
Your AV loves you when you're tired and worn down. Fight back and dump that bottle...get a good nights rest and then tinker with your plan tomorrow
you won't regret waking up sober tomorrow )
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If it feels like an endless grind to fight your addiction right now, maybe you need to look at what you've been doing - maybe you need more support for example, or a different approach?
Your AV loves you when you're tired and worn down. Fight back and dump that bottle...get a good nights rest and then tinker with your plan tomorrow
you won't regret waking up sober tomorrow )
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...holds the key
Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Texas
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Hey Erin! Please Check in with us if you can. I'm sorry I'm just now getting back to this, I was at the hospital getting a treatment and had to go. I've been thinking about you though. I'm sorry you're feeling so miserable and I know it sucks, but you know the booze will just make it suck more.
Can you make a deal with yourself? Can you tell yourself that you won't drink today, but if you still feel like you need to drink tomorrow then you can? Just put it off a bit and see how you feel tomorrow, ok?
Love you Erin and really hope you choose to be good to yourself and dump the booze. We're all behind you, Erin.
xoxo
Can you make a deal with yourself? Can you tell yourself that you won't drink today, but if you still feel like you need to drink tomorrow then you can? Just put it off a bit and see how you feel tomorrow, ok?
Love you Erin and really hope you choose to be good to yourself and dump the booze. We're all behind you, Erin.
xoxo
Don't Blink
Join Date: Sep 2014
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I was on the edge for awhile but I gave myself time to reconsider instead of just jumping in like I have in the past. I really dont want to drink I just want to feel better and you all helped me remember that it isnt worth the way I'd feel about myself tomorrow. so thanks. I'm honestly a little bummed out though. Mixed feelings. Just can't lie to myself like I used to.
...holds the key
Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Texas
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Hi Erin! I'm sooooo freaking proud of you sister!! . These are the victories our sobriety is built on! Way to go!
It's ok to have mixed feelings! It's ok to feel however you feel.
Do you want to talk about what's going on? I know you're feeling crappy, if you wanna talk we're here or pm me if you want.
You are going to be so proud of yourself tomorrow!!
. These are the victories our sobriety is built on! Way to go! It's ok to have mixed feelings! It's ok to feel however you feel.
Do you want to talk about what's going on? I know you're feeling crappy, if you wanna talk we're here or pm me if you want.
You are going to be so proud of yourself tomorrow!!
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Love you Erin. We are here for you in whatever way you want/need.
Mixed feelings - We are with you on that.
Sometimes I feel like an emotional infant.
Please know that you have the comfort and support of our litter no matter where the rollercoaster ride goes.
Mixed feelings - We are with you on that.
Sometimes I feel like an emotional infant.
Please know that you have the comfort and support of our litter no matter where the rollercoaster ride goes.
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Way to go Erin. Dump it out now if you haven't yet?
Made it through the weekend. Sober. Still feeling thoughtful and humbled about my slip last week. And worried I will always be the odd woman out who can't drink. I know not rational, or even true, but that's the trick my AV plays so I figure if I put it out there, I can deal with it.
Day 4 coming to close. Goodnight class...
Made it through the weekend. Sober. Still feeling thoughtful and humbled about my slip last week. And worried I will always be the odd woman out who can't drink. I know not rational, or even true, but that's the trick my AV plays so I figure if I put it out there, I can deal with it.
Day 4 coming to close. Goodnight class...
...holds the key
Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Texas
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Jsbodhi...I know the zombie drive well!! Blah!!
Hi kitty! Ahhh.......the ol odd woman out routine! I know that one well! Good for you for recognizing the AV trash talk! In reality, you'll be the lovely, beautiful, and refreshed woman waking up sober and with no regrets! Ha!
It's been an exhausting day for me y'all, but I'm feeling confident that total recovery is just around the corner and I will be stronger than I was before this flare up! My foot was tingly today and that's a huge deal because before it was completely numb! Tomorrow I'm even going to buy new running shoes!!! That's how confident I am in a complete recovery!
Night y'all! Sweet dreams to everyone!
xoxo
Hi kitty! Ahhh.......the ol odd woman out routine! I know that one well! Good for you for recognizing the AV trash talk! In reality, you'll be the lovely, beautiful, and refreshed woman waking up sober and with no regrets! Ha!
It's been an exhausting day for me y'all, but I'm feeling confident that total recovery is just around the corner and I will be stronger than I was before this flare up! My foot was tingly today and that's a huge deal because before it was completely numb! Tomorrow I'm even going to buy new running shoes!!! That's how confident I am in a complete recovery!
Night y'all! Sweet dreams to everyone!
xoxo
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