It's been a good month and I'm ready for a sober February!

Day 19 here
 

One Month! Wow! For some reason my 19 days seems very
distant from 30 days, especially with a weekend and the Stupid
Bowl looming . . . but I'm keeping the faith. Made it through
last night with teens with open red wine on the counter and I
survived.

I don't know if others have experienced this, but my *not* drinking
has really lessened my partner's drinking by about 1/2 . . .
which she says has been good for her but it's not always good
for the relationship! (We tend to get a little tense and serious).

But sleep is now a daily miracle and luxury. I'll take it.

Congrats to the Newbies and the Oldbees!

Day 18 for me.

I haven't really had any withdrawal symptoms or cravings yet. I did obsessively think about how much I love the taste of wine while I was walking yesterday...but it was more thinking how I will (may?) never taste it again in the future rather than actually craving it in the present.

I've been laying low. Very, very low. I'm not even getting the basics covered. I took a leave from work. I've been trying to walk daily, but some days all I can manage to do is get the mail in. I was dealing with depression but seem to be over that hump now. I'm just very very slowed down.

So I've not done much lately...still the alcohol is everywhere, isnt it. I went to a business social function (which I posted about) and avoided the alcohol that was flowing all around me. On one of my walks I stopped by a local restraunt my friend owns just in time for her to pour some glasses of wine to toast to something (it was 3 pm! ). Of course I passed. Last night I went to yoga. I haven't been in forever. Its just down the street. Had I had to drive somewhere I dont think I could have mustered the energy. Good class. I knew right after the class they were having a civic fitness group for women kickoff. I was thinking I would stay to see if it was a fit for me...but then I come out of the studio to find the "kickoff party" included an open bar. Oh geeze...so I grabbed the literature and left.

Recent doctor visit shows I have no vitamins D in my system and a low functioning thyriod. I i also found that I had several degenerate dics and a bone spur that is causing a pinched nerve. More good reasons to stay off the booze. I'm 51 years old and falling apart.

Also my 22 yr marriage kinda sucks. Hubby is a narcissist. No possibility of real support from him. Empathy seems beyond his capacity. He great about doing dishes and things...but I haven't bothered to tell him I gave up the drink. He wouldnt care anyway.

No big plans for the weekend. Hopefully i'll go for a nice hike. There is a super bowl party at the club...hubby will go of course. But...again...there will be alcohol flowing so i'll likely pass.

Wow..this was quite a post! I guess I just wanted to say some things out loud.

This! I didn't ask him to change habits at all so it's- awkward.....yea, makes it weird.

We continue here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post5171337