Class of October 2014 Part 5
Aw ChickChick that sucks.
It annoys me when Mrs S drinks at home, but she is honest about it and I tell her to hide the bottle And, like you, I find myself wondering where she's hidden it and have to steal myself from turning the place upside down looking for it when she's passed out afterwards. Mad I agree.
Your mother leaving you in the lurch; that would annoy me too. I like to have some semblance of a plan for the day.
Yet, these things happen. They'll happen with or without booze. With booze they'll temporarily go away. You'll still be filled with anger, but you won't care and if anybody says anything you'll explode, make it a whole lot worse and they'll think "there she goes again on her drunken rant, it's all the booze. Nothing to do with me!"
Without booze, you can rant here with friends who understand, try and remain calm (impossible sometimes!!), and have at least a chance of getting your point across and be listened to. Maybe, but you do have a chance.
thank you for whinging.
It annoys me when Mrs S drinks at home, but she is honest about it and I tell her to hide the bottle And, like you, I find myself wondering where she's hidden it and have to steal myself from turning the place upside down looking for it when she's passed out afterwards. Mad I agree.
Your mother leaving you in the lurch; that would annoy me too. I like to have some semblance of a plan for the day.
Yet, these things happen. They'll happen with or without booze. With booze they'll temporarily go away. You'll still be filled with anger, but you won't care and if anybody says anything you'll explode, make it a whole lot worse and they'll think "there she goes again on her drunken rant, it's all the booze. Nothing to do with me!"
Without booze, you can rant here with friends who understand, try and remain calm (impossible sometimes!!), and have at least a chance of getting your point across and be listened to. Maybe, but you do have a chance.
thank you for whinging.
Whine away chick. It's what makes us who we are. Gotta get the bad stuff out!
Phoebe, very glad you are right back here posting. Yesterday is Done.
Websites pissing me off with lost posts. I'm full of crap and I can't even find the gumption to keep typing after my posts self destruct! Haha
Phoebe, very glad you are right back here posting. Yesterday is Done.
Websites pissing me off with lost posts. I'm full of crap and I can't even find the gumption to keep typing after my posts self destruct! Haha
Ppl who've stayed sober a while told me that they posted every day and it helped them not to drink by doing it every single day. Maybe unspoken accountability, I don't know. I know when I do drink, at that time I'll not have posted for a bit. I'm gonna try it.
Not drinking today, it's 2:03pm. Who's with me.
Not drinking today, it's 2:03pm. Who's with me.
It wasn't very dramatic or exciting. I was craving and thinking about it all day and trying to distract myself and keep busy. Drove past one shop and came home and got dinner started. Then, I impulsively went back out to buy wine. I just was worn down by hours of craving and obsessing over it. I caved into it.
No excuse, no bad mood, no drama drove me to it.
No excuse, no bad mood, no drama drove me to it.
It wasn't very dramatic or exciting. I was craving and thinking about it all day and trying to distract myself and keep busy. Drove past one shop and came home and got dinner started. Then, I impulsively went back out to buy wine. I just was worn down by hours of craving and obsessing over it. I caved into it.
No excuse, no bad mood, no drama drove me to it.
No excuse, no bad mood, no drama drove me to it.
For me that's just given me more determination not to cave again. I hope this episode will make you stronger. You have come back. You do want this. We know it's worth it.
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Phobe I've done the same thing in the past. I kept adding things to do before I let that impuse win. I've got a huge list of things to do now. The trick is to make myself use it before I let the impulse win. Praying and posting on SR when it's hit has kept me from running to the store lately.
Well, I just realized it's my time of the month (sorry guys! TMI, I know). How annoyed I've been feeling today makes a bit more sense now though.
Phobe I've done the same thing in the past. I kept adding things to do before I let that impuse win. I've got a huge list of things to do now. The trick is to make myself use it before I let the impulse win. Praying and posting on SR when it's hit has kept me from running to the store lately.
Well, I just realized it's my time of the month (sorry guys! TMI, I know). How annoyed I've been feeling today makes a bit more sense now though.
phoebe love ~ we need to implement strategies to help when our head goes off around dinner time. It is REALLY hard for me as well. I sometimes have to make sure I can't go back out. Things like putting on my PJs super early, so that I would have to change back in order to get in the car.
Please stay here with us...I know you are in November class as well, but we love you and we need you.
V xx
Please stay here with us...I know you are in November class as well, but we love you and we need you.
V xx
Hi guys, I’m at work with a nasty cold. But frankly, I’m much happier here than home with my agro three year old. Daycare can enjoy that business for a while. I’m looking for a writing project, so I think I’m going to go for a breakup letter to alcohol. I’ve heard that suggested many times. It actually sounds kind of hard, my feelings about the “breakup” are still unclear to me, but maybe this will help sort all that out.
Tiredofme – it does feel like there are more hours in the day. Sometimes that’s a good thing, and other times it seems like a bad thing. Some days seem WAY too long. When I’m craving, they seem to last forever. I’ll go to bed early to end them. I hope someday soon I’ll be able to fully take advantage of all the extra time I have now.
Sparkos – thanks for the roll call. I totally get what you and ChickChick are talking about with wanting to know where the alcohol is even if you don’t “intend” to drink it. When there’s alcohol in my house, I have a mental map of exactly where it is.
Venus – I’m sorry your boss put you through that stress. That’s not fair at all, and quite unprofessional. I hope you enjoyed your movie. Isn’t it nice to watch it without having to close one eye? I’m glad you have insight into your relationship and realize it’s unhealthy for you. I agree, though, that you should be careful making too many big changes at once. You wouldn’t want the stress from a breakup to trigger your drinking. You’ve already lost a love recently. I’m not saying you should stay in the relationship, just take care of yourself.
JL – Good luck with your job lead! I hope you get it if it’s something you want to do. I hear you on trying not to absorb negativity from others. I’m like a sponge that way. Boundaries are hard. Drinking didn’t help me build boundaries, it just made me care less that I was so vulnerable.
Fromadistance – I’ve got a few people you can beat up for me too. I’ll send you a list.
Dontlookbacchus – good to hear from you. Early sober mornings are the best. We just have to hang onto that feeling throughout the day. It’s so easy to forget.
ChickChick – I’m so sorry you’re going through all this with your grandma. That sounds so hard. I hope things work out on Wednesday so you can put this behind you. And I hope you have a chance to talk to your husband about the beer. Though I have no room to preach about honesty, I’ve been a shameless liar for a very long time. I rationalized it by believing I wasn’t lying about my drinking because my husband never asked me. All those hidden bottles? Buying cheap food to offset the grocery bill so I could buy more vodka? Hiding so he wouldn’t notice I was drunk? All that…nope, not lying!
Phoebe – I’m glad you’re back. I’ve caved many times after hours and hours of cravings. I felt like they were pounding me, like waves crashing on me. It’s so hard to wait them out when they go all day. I can’t say I have much advice. I haven’t quite figured that one out myself. We just have to keep trying and learn from our mistakes.
Tiredofme – it does feel like there are more hours in the day. Sometimes that’s a good thing, and other times it seems like a bad thing. Some days seem WAY too long. When I’m craving, they seem to last forever. I’ll go to bed early to end them. I hope someday soon I’ll be able to fully take advantage of all the extra time I have now.
Sparkos – thanks for the roll call. I totally get what you and ChickChick are talking about with wanting to know where the alcohol is even if you don’t “intend” to drink it. When there’s alcohol in my house, I have a mental map of exactly where it is.
Venus – I’m sorry your boss put you through that stress. That’s not fair at all, and quite unprofessional. I hope you enjoyed your movie. Isn’t it nice to watch it without having to close one eye? I’m glad you have insight into your relationship and realize it’s unhealthy for you. I agree, though, that you should be careful making too many big changes at once. You wouldn’t want the stress from a breakup to trigger your drinking. You’ve already lost a love recently. I’m not saying you should stay in the relationship, just take care of yourself.
JL – Good luck with your job lead! I hope you get it if it’s something you want to do. I hear you on trying not to absorb negativity from others. I’m like a sponge that way. Boundaries are hard. Drinking didn’t help me build boundaries, it just made me care less that I was so vulnerable.
Fromadistance – I’ve got a few people you can beat up for me too. I’ll send you a list.
Dontlookbacchus – good to hear from you. Early sober mornings are the best. We just have to hang onto that feeling throughout the day. It’s so easy to forget.
ChickChick – I’m so sorry you’re going through all this with your grandma. That sounds so hard. I hope things work out on Wednesday so you can put this behind you. And I hope you have a chance to talk to your husband about the beer. Though I have no room to preach about honesty, I’ve been a shameless liar for a very long time. I rationalized it by believing I wasn’t lying about my drinking because my husband never asked me. All those hidden bottles? Buying cheap food to offset the grocery bill so I could buy more vodka? Hiding so he wouldn’t notice I was drunk? All that…nope, not lying!
Phoebe – I’m glad you’re back. I’ve caved many times after hours and hours of cravings. I felt like they were pounding me, like waves crashing on me. It’s so hard to wait them out when they go all day. I can’t say I have much advice. I haven’t quite figured that one out myself. We just have to keep trying and learn from our mistakes.
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