Class of November 2014 Part 2
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Join Date: Jun 2013
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I didn’t drink today which is good.
However, my mind is already trying to plan out drinking in the future. My AV was going nuts today.
It is weird how I think of the positive things I like about drinking – but conveniently forget all the negatives. The random bruises, wasting money, losing phones/jackets, throwing up, falling asleep on subway and waking up in dangerous areas, the pain of being in work after a heavy night of drinking or missing work putting my job at risk, the fear of worrying whether I drunkdialed or did something stupid, the depression/disappointment in myself during hangovers the next morning, etc.
However, my mind is already trying to plan out drinking in the future. My AV was going nuts today.
It is weird how I think of the positive things I like about drinking – but conveniently forget all the negatives. The random bruises, wasting money, losing phones/jackets, throwing up, falling asleep on subway and waking up in dangerous areas, the pain of being in work after a heavy night of drinking or missing work putting my job at risk, the fear of worrying whether I drunkdialed or did something stupid, the depression/disappointment in myself during hangovers the next morning, etc.
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Location: Southern California
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Welcome (Back) Magellan, Welcome El Dangeroso.
Glad to hear that everything went well with the operation Gypsy! We were all pulling for you.
I had a weird day and almost caved. I went to an AA meeting but left the meeting feeling worse then when I came. It was a Stag meeting, and over half the folks were reminising about their glory days drinking and "chasing women." I did talk to some folks that I trust after...
I had the perfect AV set-up happen tonight: My wife asked if I could pick up dinner. My AV went crazy. I could drink and she'd never know (it said). I wanted to drink...
So I left the house extra early so that I could go to the store and get some beers to sneak back in the house. But on the way there I thought about some of the posts from this class and how you guys faced temptation and prevailed...
So I didn't go to the store. I drove right by, picked up dinner and brought it back.
Thank you all. Day 4 almost in the books.
Glad to hear that everything went well with the operation Gypsy! We were all pulling for you.
I had a weird day and almost caved. I went to an AA meeting but left the meeting feeling worse then when I came. It was a Stag meeting, and over half the folks were reminising about their glory days drinking and "chasing women." I did talk to some folks that I trust after...
I had the perfect AV set-up happen tonight: My wife asked if I could pick up dinner. My AV went crazy. I could drink and she'd never know (it said). I wanted to drink...
So I left the house extra early so that I could go to the store and get some beers to sneak back in the house. But on the way there I thought about some of the posts from this class and how you guys faced temptation and prevailed...
So I didn't go to the store. I drove right by, picked up dinner and brought it back.
Thank you all. Day 4 almost in the books.
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I think as long as you can at least remember to remember the bad stuff, you have a fighting chance.
A strategy, or a plan of attack, for when those rosy memories start to get too much is a great idea too
Have the plan ready - before you need it
D
A strategy, or a plan of attack, for when those rosy memories start to get too much is a great idea too
Have the plan ready - before you need it
D
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Glad you didn't pick up and put in, FacingFuture, and also glad you were honest enough to come in here and tell us about it. I always need to remember that those thoughts are just lurking around the corner so I need to have a plan ready to deal with them.
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Hi all, checking in on a sober (chilly!) morning here in DC. FacingFuture, good for you for recognizing the AV for what it is, and staying strong!
It was so great to go to bed sober again last night. Random thought: Have sleeping and SR become my new drinking?
I hope everyone has a great day. I'm interviewing people all morning, but I'll try to check in this afternoon.
It was so great to go to bed sober again last night. Random thought: Have sleeping and SR become my new drinking?
I hope everyone has a great day. I'm interviewing people all morning, but I'll try to check in this afternoon.
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It was certainly normal for me bug...the more years I drank the worse my detoxes got. Look up 'kindling'.
give your mind and body a chance to heal.
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give your mind and body a chance to heal.
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I will NOT drink to that!
Join Date: Nov 2014
Location: Baltimore MD USA
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I'm still going strong. Didn't have any desire to drink last night at all. I consider that a victory.
Awesome work for everyone that didn't drink last night. We are in this battle together! Hugs, everyone!
Awesome work for everyone that didn't drink last night. We are in this battle together! Hugs, everyone!
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Join Date: Nov 2014
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Congrats, FacingFuture -- you fought the AV and won! Hooray for Gypsy also, glad the surgery went well.
And good job, Team November! We're all hanging in there -- keep it up!
Day 4 for me. I'll be very busy at work today, so hopefully won't even have time to think about drinking. Still feeling the SR shield.
And good job, Team November! We're all hanging in there -- keep it up!
Day 4 for me. I'll be very busy at work today, so hopefully won't even have time to think about drinking. Still feeling the SR shield.
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Good Morning all. Sober, but Thursday nights are a challenge. Just putting that out there.
I have to run to do something at son's school for a few hours. I will catch up at lunch time. Have a great day/evening, depending on where you are.
I have to run to do something at son's school for a few hours. I will catch up at lunch time. Have a great day/evening, depending on where you are.
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Join Date: Nov 2014
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Day 11 here. I am learning to feel the emotion, explore the thought. Not just about drinking, but how I react to people and and how I internalize other people's garbage.
Buddha has a teaching that is somewhat like this: When an 'old' negative thought or emotion shows up, respond with, "hello old friend what brings you around". Explore the thought and/or emotion.
http://www.lovethispic.com/uploaded_...ne-Mo-Time.jpg
Buddha has a teaching that is somewhat like this: When an 'old' negative thought or emotion shows up, respond with, "hello old friend what brings you around". Explore the thought and/or emotion.
http://www.lovethispic.com/uploaded_...ne-Mo-Time.jpg
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