Class of October 2014 Part 3
I know. I went down hill so quickly from when my resolve broke and I let the beast persuade me to put that first drop to my lips. Shudder!
Still, live for the now. It hurt me and I've learnt.
Still, live for the now. It hurt me and I've learnt.
Day 2. This is a strange time of day for me (6 p.m.) It feels good to be sober and responsible, and I'm not exactly craving wine, but I definitely feel an emptiness, like something is really missing. Maybe it's chocolate...better check!
Welcome newlife
I'm not sure any of us can push you to do anything - I really believe that needs to come from you - but I know you'll find support here
how did you stay clean for 10 and a half years?
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I'm not sure any of us can push you to do anything - I really believe that needs to come from you - but I know you'll find support here
how did you stay clean for 10 and a half years?
D
Yeah sparky ikwym.... When I started to count units one week after an awful row on a 'special' night out, and I got to over 60 in that week, I went GULP.... He feckin conned me, that evil AV.... The people in the local shop must have though i ran a blinkin pub!!! Definite time to stop. The more i plough on, the more I realise I am gaining in life. Snot easy, but tis betterer.... X
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I know how it works, and it always won, but this time I will not let it, because this time I am being sober for me... no one pressured me, I am not trying to keep a relationship, I am doing this because a) my rate of consumption, plus the twenty years of it, would kill me before 45, and b) I am tired of knowing deep down what I want and letting my addiction make me unable to achieve it.
Day 20...still on a roll. Longest streak in 5 years, and I'm loving it. Except the weight gain.
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Another strong urge hit me an hour ago. I rushed out the door and went for a jog. If I can't get a buzz from chemicals, Ill get a natural one. Anything to feel different from that nagging, pestering feeling of just wanting to take a drink.
Day 28. Stressful move is complete.
Lawyers are idiots...ours kept us waiting for 3 hours in limbo waiting for the deal to close. administrative stuff that shouldn't have been holding up moving out.
Talked/raged with my HP today. Talk about stress...
Glad it's done. I'm bush whacked. Time to sleep.
Unpacking can wait for tomorrow.
Lawyers are idiots...ours kept us waiting for 3 hours in limbo waiting for the deal to close. administrative stuff that shouldn't have been holding up moving out.
Talked/raged with my HP today. Talk about stress...
Glad it's done. I'm bush whacked. Time to sleep.
Unpacking can wait for tomorrow.
I guess I'm doing this backward but I would like to join this class just under the wire. I lurk here and there but have been hesitant join because I have joined quite a few monthly classes and never made it. I still check in with some if my old classes and some I stuck with for quite a few months. It's so helpful have a place to check in and share with others who are at a similar point in sobriety. I just couldn't bear failing before the month was even over or soon thereafter- that seems to be my pattern - and I know how hard those early days can be.
Today is 12 days for me. I've been back and forth with this and I'm just so tired of the cycle. I love the changes in me and my life when I remove alcohol from it. But yet somehow that pull to drink again is there, way more often than I like! You guys seem like a great group and I'm looking forward to getting to know you and helping each other.
Today is 12 days for me. I've been back and forth with this and I'm just so tired of the cycle. I love the changes in me and my life when I remove alcohol from it. But yet somehow that pull to drink again is there, way more often than I like! You guys seem like a great group and I'm looking forward to getting to know you and helping each other.
So glad you are here forabetterlife
This is my second class thread. (Sort of third, I joined the March 13 class because our Feb 13 class got real quiet). I was hesitant to come here...I felt like a failure. 18 plus months of sobriety and I virtually threw it away.
I stopped coming here. I let go of all of my support.
Now, on Day 5, being part of this group has truly empowered me.
This is an awesome bunch!
V xx
This is my second class thread. (Sort of third, I joined the March 13 class because our Feb 13 class got real quiet). I was hesitant to come here...I felt like a failure. 18 plus months of sobriety and I virtually threw it away.
I stopped coming here. I let go of all of my support.
Now, on Day 5, being part of this group has truly empowered me.
This is an awesome bunch!
V xx
There is a lot of interesting reading.
It seems that alcohol may dull the symptoms, and so when we stop drinking, this condition may feel worse.
There is some treatment out there ~ have a look.
fantail my love, GOOD LUCK HONEY!!!!! ♥♥♥
Loving reading all of your posts,
V xx
PS. I am feeling better today...the shaking has almost stopped. Still sweating buckets, but that's a good thing, toxins releasing and all.
Good night class. Still going strong! I had my first real craving tonight in a while. I was bartending (I know right) and I poured a patron a miller lite. The smell hit me. Anyone see those vampire movies, Twilight? It was like the "new vampire" smelling blood for the first time. It smelled so good to me I didn't realize I just stood there, holding the drink. I handed it over and that was that. Usually the smell of beer is gross to me now. Just thought i would share. Always keep your guard up. Those demons are held back by a very thin, weak wall in these early days.
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