zerothehero

there's nothing like pain to throw me off course
and don't think it helps to say it could be worse
just bludgeon me dead
right here in this bed
it's not like contentment is gained by brute force

zerothehero

i'm writing right now to try to stay sane
everything's relative, even this pain
i need a distraction
a nouveau attraction
instead of writing these poems inane

Elseware

I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, Zero. I can't think of anything clever or witty. You are certainly between the rock and the hard place with this. Sometimes there is nothing to even say but very bad words and cry. Please know I'm thinking of you.

Gilmer

(((Zero)))

tootsl1

Zero I send hugs so tight
To keep you from pain in the night
And during the day
I'll help find a way
To give pain one heck of a fight

gleefan

Hubby's making coffee that tastes like guilt
That's the dysfunctional dynamic we've built.
He spent our night together
Getting one drink after the other
Im building a whole new life of my own.

Gilmer

(((Glee)))

DG0409

I've been in a bit of a funk
If I gave life a grade, it might just flunk
But I have to give credit to learning
That's how we become more discerning

And to be honest, I may be a bit spoiled
Which can make things seem soiled
Things that once would have made me feel lucky
Now the magic is gone and they make me feel yucky

Sometimes it helps for me to remember
The life of which I was once a member
I really have no reason to complain
Or to sit feeling that this place is too mundane

DG0409

I have this mountain cabin
But it's not quite what I did imagine
It's right on the side of the hiway
I can hear trucks night and day

But to think of the places I once stayed
It makes no sense to feel dismayed
And only a short drive
And I could arrive
At a quiet place to spend the day

Then perhaps I might
Go on a nice hike
Look at all the towering trees
And feel the gentle breeze
I'm only here for one more night

So I may as well make it great
Even if this place doesn't quite rate
But then I've been to so many great locations
Both for work and for vacations
That it's easy to berate

Everything may not be perfect
But that doesn't have to affect
My sense of serenity or gratitude
And it's no reason for a bad attitude

So, I have the whole day ahead
Time to go make my bed
Finish my coffee and have a shower
Then go explore for a few hours

zerothehero

i'm grateful and hoping the worst has passed
i never know how long these episodes will last
i'm rested and exhausted simultaneously
don't think about tomorrow; what will be will be...

Elseware

(((( Zero))))

gleefan

Zero im thinking about you friend
and hoping this episode will soon end
please accept my cyber hugs
as your body works out its bugs
While you twist through this little bend

zerothehero

doc says soma is indicated
if i will abide
he says it that won't cure me
but will make for a more pleasant ride
he says it isn't an opioid
but it will definitely get me high
i said well then i'll tough it out
and then went home to cry

zerothehero

he sunk so many needles
i looked like a voo doo doll
and started the pulsometer
then hurried down the hall
he left me there for way too long
well that's what I believed
when he returned to pull those needles out
i was mighty damn relieved
this ritual seems to cause more pain
but supposedly treats the cause
tomorrow back for more again
the thought does give me pause
but if this hocus pocus works
how happy i will be
to walk again without much pain
while sober and drug-free

Elseware

You're not really doing ******
I'd be scared of bad juju
My guess is acupuncture
Instead of morphine tincture.
How's that working out?
Is it helping to reroute
The pains
Of your bruises and sprains?

zerothehero

Pulsometer was probably the wrong word
and it ain't voo doo but it seems absurd
At any rate it isn't helping
The spasms are all that keep me from yelping
I don't think I can take much more
It's a struggle getting up from the floor
The doc told me not to work again
But when?
I can't put my life on hold
I'm gonna have to so I'm told

zerothehero

there once was a man who put his recovery on hold
to heed his doctor and do what he was told
he took his medication
with considerable trepidation
but it all just reinforced that sobriety is gold

Elseware

It'll be ok, Zero

zerothehero

Thanks. You're right. This isn't a threat. I'm solid.

gleefan

Sometimes it's not black and white.
And the docs who prescribe medication are right.
I need to take an anti anxiety med
To get me out of bed
And face the world sober but without undue fright.