Class of July 2013 Part 15
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Yes, I didn't mention it in the beginning, just to kind of protect their privacy, i suppose. They are all grown up now. I had them very young, but enjoyed every minute and so glad my drinking didn't really take off til they'd nearly left or had left home.
Aww, that's great Croissant! Boys, girls?
Woke up really early this morning and couldn't get back to sleep. Ugh, so I will probably be tired tonight for our "date night". I already have trouble staying up past 9 as it is. No chance of a nap either
Hope everyone is having a nice weekend!
Woke up really early this morning and couldn't get back to sleep. Ugh, so I will probably be tired tonight for our "date night". I already have trouble staying up past 9 as it is. No chance of a nap either
Hope everyone is having a nice weekend!
Hello Everyone,
Dee, I'm happy that you are getting settled. It is nice to see you posting again.
NCG, I'm happy to see a post from you too, and to hear that you're doing well, your arthritis problem notwithstanding. I do hope that your procedure goes well. I'm so happy to learn that your boyfriend is doing well, that's great!
Bob, I know it a time of uncertainty for you, I can't imagine what you're going through. I wish you well as you finally close your premises.
I'm not in a good place, I'm disappointed to say. Over the last few days, I've been binge eating, just like I used to drink. I haven't binge eaten like this since February of this year. I woke up this morning feeling just as bad as when I used to drink. It's shameful and icky and horrible. I think I need to use what I've learned about sobriety and apply it to disordered eating. I used to compulsively eat (not purge in any way) when I was first at University. Even though I began drinking at Uni, it was binge eating that was my "go-to" "pain reliever".
I'm once again caught up in fear of the future/ageing/ill health/loneliness. The loneliness I find crushing.
I caught a bit of a "rush" with performing and especially with the good feedback, but that isn't sustainable. What is wrong with me? I have so much to be grateful for, yet I dwell on the negative and am miserable. Can miserableness become addictive in its own way, I wonder? I truly need to work on that. I'm still going to AA meetings but am struggling with finding a "Higher Power" and many others' talk of "God".
I guess I'm just writing here because I don't know what to do with myself. I have microseconds of feeling ok, then I feel a huge weight on my chest, and I get almost panicky thinking about what the future holds, and if I'll ever find some peace.
I'm sleeping way too much too. It's a way of "escaping", I know it's really bad too.
Dee, I'm happy that you are getting settled. It is nice to see you posting again.
NCG, I'm happy to see a post from you too, and to hear that you're doing well, your arthritis problem notwithstanding. I do hope that your procedure goes well. I'm so happy to learn that your boyfriend is doing well, that's great!
Bob, I know it a time of uncertainty for you, I can't imagine what you're going through. I wish you well as you finally close your premises.
I'm not in a good place, I'm disappointed to say. Over the last few days, I've been binge eating, just like I used to drink. I haven't binge eaten like this since February of this year. I woke up this morning feeling just as bad as when I used to drink. It's shameful and icky and horrible. I think I need to use what I've learned about sobriety and apply it to disordered eating. I used to compulsively eat (not purge in any way) when I was first at University. Even though I began drinking at Uni, it was binge eating that was my "go-to" "pain reliever".
I'm once again caught up in fear of the future/ageing/ill health/loneliness. The loneliness I find crushing.
I caught a bit of a "rush" with performing and especially with the good feedback, but that isn't sustainable. What is wrong with me? I have so much to be grateful for, yet I dwell on the negative and am miserable. Can miserableness become addictive in its own way, I wonder? I truly need to work on that. I'm still going to AA meetings but am struggling with finding a "Higher Power" and many others' talk of "God".
I guess I'm just writing here because I don't know what to do with myself. I have microseconds of feeling ok, then I feel a huge weight on my chest, and I get almost panicky thinking about what the future holds, and if I'll ever find some peace.
I'm sleeping way too much too. It's a way of "escaping", I know it's really bad too.
Hello everybody.
Welcome back NCG, so glad your BF is doing good.
We went to a drive in movie last night. Took my daughter and her friend to see Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and Guardians of the Galaxy. It was a cool crisp fall kind of night.
Was nice to get away from the stress for a while.
Welcome back NCG, so glad your BF is doing good.
We went to a drive in movie last night. Took my daughter and her friend to see Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and Guardians of the Galaxy. It was a cool crisp fall kind of night.
Was nice to get away from the stress for a while.
I wish I had some suggestions Leshar, but apart from seeing your Dr or therapist, I dunno...
I'm sending you best wishes tho - I really hope you can find a way to increase those microseconds until they become your default.
good to see you NCG You too Bob and Crois and LadyBug
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I'm sending you best wishes tho - I really hope you can find a way to increase those microseconds until they become your default.
good to see you NCG You too Bob and Crois and LadyBug
D
I'm going to be 14 months in 14 days
And I haven't told no one this but I stopped biting my fingernails for the first time in my life around 2 months ago I have always felt disgusting for this but now im like wolverine
Feels really good to not have to hide my hands anymore
Feels really amazing the lil things
And I haven't told no one this but I stopped biting my fingernails for the first time in my life around 2 months ago I have always felt disgusting for this but now im like wolverine
Feels really good to not have to hide my hands anymore
Feels really amazing the lil things
They had a story on this artist today on The morning show.
I've always loved this song. And found it with some nice visuals on youtube.
Hope you all enjoy it my friends, very relaxing.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0FhX6ppOK0U
I've always loved this song. And found it with some nice visuals on youtube.
Hope you all enjoy it my friends, very relaxing.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0FhX6ppOK0U
Tomorrow is Labor Day, quite ironic as my labor/job has ended and I'll be signing up for unemployment Tuesday.
It's strange,I'll have moments of "I don't give a ****" and no biggie.
And other times I have bouts of depression about the whole thing.
Ironically I've always joked about being the last person to shut the lights out.
And oddly enough, this very thing happened Friday.
I walked through empty offices and shut the lights off as I exited the building.
Stupid AV has been nagging me occasionally, but I'm pretty strong in my sobriety.
I've been keeping incredibly busy, more so then before.
I hope to take my family camping and then a day trip fishing.
Then up to Maine for a day to pick up some new snow boots for my wife and daughter at LL bean.
It's strange,I'll have moments of "I don't give a ****" and no biggie.
And other times I have bouts of depression about the whole thing.
Ironically I've always joked about being the last person to shut the lights out.
And oddly enough, this very thing happened Friday.
I walked through empty offices and shut the lights off as I exited the building.
Stupid AV has been nagging me occasionally, but I'm pretty strong in my sobriety.
I've been keeping incredibly busy, more so then before.
I hope to take my family camping and then a day trip fishing.
Then up to Maine for a day to pick up some new snow boots for my wife and daughter at LL bean.
Think it started with horror movies and it was a really bad habit ive felt disgusting and the weirdest thing happened it evoked a memory now that thier growing big and strong
When my mum was alive when she got sober I remember her growing her nails and her asking me to hold out my hand so she could show me how much they have grown
And I've been doing that with my gf made me remember when my mum done it with me
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