Class of June 2014 Part 4
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Hay Guys,
Day 7!!! I'm trying not to get over enthusiastic as I have notice that this gives me false confidence and thus lead me in the "I can handle this" direction.... However , I am excited... The thoughts about living an absolute sober life has me wanting to experience everything in a new light. I'm more grateful, more aware, happier... This is who i wanna be... And remaining sober would only make me a better version of who I am now.... On the other hand, one drink could make me the total opposite. It's always very humbling to realize that everyday... Even 20 years from now, I'm just one drink away from absolute destruction... Crazy to see it that clearly and yet risk it all so ignorantly... Never Again!!
Day 7!!! I'm trying not to get over enthusiastic as I have notice that this gives me false confidence and thus lead me in the "I can handle this" direction.... However , I am excited... The thoughts about living an absolute sober life has me wanting to experience everything in a new light. I'm more grateful, more aware, happier... This is who i wanna be... And remaining sober would only make me a better version of who I am now.... On the other hand, one drink could make me the total opposite. It's always very humbling to realize that everyday... Even 20 years from now, I'm just one drink away from absolute destruction... Crazy to see it that clearly and yet risk it all so ignorantly... Never Again!!
Hello Juners,
I've been MIA as of late. Today marks 120 days without booze. The reason for my absence largely has to do with a large workload and graduate school. Also, I've engaged in some other mind altering substances, so "sober" isn't completely accurate term for me to date.
All that said, the biggest thing that became obvious to me through all this, was I was a shell of myself. Booze was the only priority in my life. I used it to escape from my problems, even though it didn't feel like that at the time. Also, it was such a distraction, it stunned my growth as an adult, in my career, and in my pursuit of happiness. The last 120 days have given me so much insight in my previously terrible way of living that it's like who was that person.
Anywho, I'm not sure if I won't drink tomorrow or 20 years from now. What I do know is, the work has just begun and I'm living life on my terms again. I'm not running from my fears and I'm focused on accepting all my faults, fears, and me. Life is better than it's ever been. Thank you all for the support you gave me in times of absolute darkness.
I've been MIA as of late. Today marks 120 days without booze. The reason for my absence largely has to do with a large workload and graduate school. Also, I've engaged in some other mind altering substances, so "sober" isn't completely accurate term for me to date.
All that said, the biggest thing that became obvious to me through all this, was I was a shell of myself. Booze was the only priority in my life. I used it to escape from my problems, even though it didn't feel like that at the time. Also, it was such a distraction, it stunned my growth as an adult, in my career, and in my pursuit of happiness. The last 120 days have given me so much insight in my previously terrible way of living that it's like who was that person.
Anywho, I'm not sure if I won't drink tomorrow or 20 years from now. What I do know is, the work has just begun and I'm living life on my terms again. I'm not running from my fears and I'm focused on accepting all my faults, fears, and me. Life is better than it's ever been. Thank you all for the support you gave me in times of absolute darkness.
I'm glad you are doing so well Noolan . I have many of the same feelings. I certainly did not think I was running away from my problems at the time, but I was! What do you mean by using another mind altering substance? That kinda concerns me for you a bit!
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Good evening all how is it going? I'm closing out day 142 and grateful for another day sober. I pray thanks every day for it and I'm still truly thankful for it. I hope that's a feeling I never lose. I hope part of you are still plugging along and I hope that you are able to find peace in your sobriety. Take a minute to check in if you would. Share an update on triumphs or struggles it doesn't matter which. There seems to be something therapeutic about writing or typing it. I'm checking out for tonight and turning off the screens. I'll check in again tomorrow morning.
First post with my classmates!! I have seen these for awhile, but never searched for "our" class!!
6/09/14 - day 151!!!
Life, while not perfect - is more like life!!
Little anxious about upcoming holidays.......But, know I will not only get through them - I will for the first time, well ever really - I will enjoy them with family!!!
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6/09/14 - day 151!!!
Life, while not perfect - is more like life!!
Little anxious about upcoming holidays.......But, know I will not only get through them - I will for the first time, well ever really - I will enjoy them with family!!!
fly
Well 167 days and counting! It's funny how I feel now. Some days I feel like I've got this licked other days I feel cravings and am very tempted! Overall I can't believe how much my life has changed for the better! I am really being who I have wanted to be. I hope everyone is well.
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I think this was the month when I last drank alcohol.
It appears that I did not get the job that I thought I was going to get. It is good in a way, because it looked like I would run out of money before the first paycheck, driving across the country and staying in motels. I was also terrified of the idea of being completely alone out there.
Now I have a little over 2 months of unemployment insurance left and what looks like no likely jobs available for me. Of course, a job can be announced at any moment.
Whenever I update my resume on a job board, I get contacted by insurance companies asking if I want to stop being a software developer and become an insurance salesman... I take this as like vultures spying a person with a failing career who will take any job.
I am dealing with depression much more effectively, today at least. That doesn't cause me to have a job though.
It appears that I did not get the job that I thought I was going to get. It is good in a way, because it looked like I would run out of money before the first paycheck, driving across the country and staying in motels. I was also terrified of the idea of being completely alone out there.
Now I have a little over 2 months of unemployment insurance left and what looks like no likely jobs available for me. Of course, a job can be announced at any moment.
Whenever I update my resume on a job board, I get contacted by insurance companies asking if I want to stop being a software developer and become an insurance salesman... I take this as like vultures spying a person with a failing career who will take any job.
I am dealing with depression much more effectively, today at least. That doesn't cause me to have a job though.
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