Haiku Part 4
waking down
Join Date: Dec 2013
Posts: 4,641
is there peace in death
or is even that not quite
fully guaranteed
elsewhere is right here
thinking of those she most loves
and those who love her
like the AV the
suicide voice tells us lies
about life and death
the SV lurks in
dark places always there as
possibility
when it visits me
i tell it to shut the hell
up and take a hike
we must be firm with
the darkness and strong against
destructive powers
embrace the light and
simple beauty in your heart
and out clear windows
or is even that not quite
fully guaranteed
elsewhere is right here
thinking of those she most loves
and those who love her
like the AV the
suicide voice tells us lies
about life and death
the SV lurks in
dark places always there as
possibility
when it visits me
i tell it to shut the hell
up and take a hike
we must be firm with
the darkness and strong against
destructive powers
embrace the light and
simple beauty in your heart
and out clear windows
Guest
Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Ashburn, VA
Posts: 30,196
I often pronounced
A preference to die young
Even my own hand.
But then I thought, "No."
Too much trauma for my kids--
Really **** them up.
I could not do that
Then, i thought, there is the mess--
Who would clean that up?
My friend's brother
Rented a cheap motel broom.
Blew his sad brains out
Secretly so sad--
Alcoholic and then gay
Hopeless at the end.
Even if there was
Thought to punish my husband--
Not fair he should clean.
A preference to die young
Even my own hand.
But then I thought, "No."
Too much trauma for my kids--
Really **** them up.
I could not do that
Then, i thought, there is the mess--
Who would clean that up?
My friend's brother
Rented a cheap motel broom.
Blew his sad brains out
Secretly so sad--
Alcoholic and then gay
Hopeless at the end.
Even if there was
Thought to punish my husband--
Not fair he should clean.
waking down
Join Date: Dec 2013
Posts: 4,641
this is some rough ****
to talk about but SR
sure brings out the real
too much suicide
my dad stopped taking his meds
he had had enough
and a friend found on
the floor surrounded by skye
bottles - suicide
then S hanged herself,
and then L blew his brains out,
and D just O.D.'d
the car accident
with no skid marks straight into
a telephone pole
i've thought about it
on and off since my teen years
life is mostly good
and that's why i'm still
under reconstruction so
i can build good days
let's all build good days
by taking in the good each
time we remember
i sense your sweet souls
floating about cyberspace
beating hearts and minds
there is a beauty
that can't be seen nor heard nor
touched, smelled nor tasted
but there is a sixth
sense that raises the hairs on
my arms as i type
this is why i live
this is why i reach out and
send thoughts through timespace
to talk about but SR
sure brings out the real
too much suicide
my dad stopped taking his meds
he had had enough
and a friend found on
the floor surrounded by skye
bottles - suicide
then S hanged herself,
and then L blew his brains out,
and D just O.D.'d
the car accident
with no skid marks straight into
a telephone pole
i've thought about it
on and off since my teen years
life is mostly good
and that's why i'm still
under reconstruction so
i can build good days
let's all build good days
by taking in the good each
time we remember
i sense your sweet souls
floating about cyberspace
beating hearts and minds
there is a beauty
that can't be seen nor heard nor
touched, smelled nor tasted
but there is a sixth
sense that raises the hairs on
my arms as i type
this is why i live
this is why i reach out and
send thoughts through timespace
waking down
Join Date: Dec 2013
Posts: 4,641
i still lose my mind
but i tend to find it where
i had just left it
like my keys i know
where i keep my mind now and
i don't have to search
i keep a tidy
mind these days so i don't waste
psychic energy
do not get me wrong
i am no zen master but
i am still alive
but i tend to find it where
i had just left it
like my keys i know
where i keep my mind now and
i don't have to search
i keep a tidy
mind these days so i don't waste
psychic energy
do not get me wrong
i am no zen master but
i am still alive
waking down
Join Date: Dec 2013
Posts: 4,641
visit some of my
posts from march or april and
see who i can be
two forward one back
i scared myself into true
mental discipline
sometimes on a thread
sometimes on gibraltar rock
hot lava beneath
confidence escapes
me because i know how far
down i could plummet
i close my eyes and
observe a mind in constant
tidal ebbs and flows
you are the flowers
blooming bright in rocky soil
a gift from timespace
you choke out the weeds
with tenacious beauty and
selfless compassion
your anonymous
voices remind me that we
humans will endure
shall should must endure
with all the twisted gorgeous
glory that is we
posts from march or april and
see who i can be
two forward one back
i scared myself into true
mental discipline
sometimes on a thread
sometimes on gibraltar rock
hot lava beneath
confidence escapes
me because i know how far
down i could plummet
i close my eyes and
observe a mind in constant
tidal ebbs and flows
you are the flowers
blooming bright in rocky soil
a gift from timespace
you choke out the weeds
with tenacious beauty and
selfless compassion
your anonymous
voices remind me that we
humans will endure
shall should must endure
with all the twisted gorgeous
glory that is we
Guest
Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Ashburn, VA
Posts: 30,196
"your anonymous
voices remind me that we
humans will endure
"shall should must endure
with all the twisted gorgeous
glory that is we"
Now THAT'S the stuff of glory!
Congratulations on 7 months, Zero! Glad you have been able to rise to a higher amplitude!
voices remind me that we
humans will endure
"shall should must endure
with all the twisted gorgeous
glory that is we"
Now THAT'S the stuff of glory!
Congratulations on 7 months, Zero! Glad you have been able to rise to a higher amplitude!
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