Quitting pot (and alcohol) for good - III
 

Continues from here

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ood-ii-21.html

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Go go go :)

Day 129.

Just to summarize for myself........

Short Summary
Alcohol - inactive
Weed - virgin (never used)
Nicotine - virgin (never used)
Coffee - active
Sugar - active

Sleep - much much better than when i first embarked on this journey, the last 2 1/2 weeks or so i have barely needed sleeping pills, it was a desperate and DIRE situation in the early days........... the lack of sleep nearly broke me.

Mood - still fairly bored, but that is getting better with a childhood hobby i have taken up again plus a side project i am working on in the background.

Body - my eyes are whiter than before, skin seems more moist, and my diet is slowly getting better, a minor knee injury from earlier this year is barely noticeable. not sure if related to alcohol at all (i read that alcohol reeks havoc on our inner linings), but i notice i am getting more regularity in the bathroom - i take that as a good sign.

Finances - not the best at the moment, bills are getting paid but that's about it. Im in the "calm before the storm" scenario - everything is fine...... right now. Will things be OK 8 months from now? who knows......... I do have a few ideas up my sleeve however........ waiting to see how things play out, if everything plays out well i might be able to cruise to the holiday season at least with the money made.

that's about it for me right now, this is my first time out and i am in my mid-20's.

i'm here :)

my goodness, MORE CRAZY THINGS happening!!!!


on top of the two other things that were the worst possible things to happen in my life, i just got hit with 2 more. one not as bad, but another, kinda crazy....

i'm awestruck at this point and really have nothing to say....except it feels so not real ....

I'm sorry for whatever's going on Krete but if you want to talk about them anytime I know you'll find support here :)

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I fell asleep at 7PM so I'm wide awake! I have to wake up at 4AM for work so I dunno if I'm going to make it back to sleep.

I'm stressed about this script that I'm writing. I have never been blocked creatively on a writing project and Once I start writing dialogue it usually pours out of me, but I am kind of at a loss with this script. I am reworking someone else's idea and making it better, but it's not my vision. I have asked for more time to work on it twice, have been spinning my wheels, and finally figured out yesterday why I was feeling "stuck."

Now that I know what the problem is (basically there is not enough at stake in the plot for an audience to care about the story) I have to write the producers and tell them that in order to raise the stakes, I have to make some changes that they might not be comfortable with. I raised the stakes significantly from the original idea, but not high enough and have to make more changes.

I really need the (little bit of) money that they're giving me for this, and also I want to produce something of quality!

*le sigh*

Checking in!!!
Have a great day people.

You know what works BrOOksie. Hopefully the producers do too.
Hope you don't have to go all Alan Smithee on 'em :D

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I really feel like this is my last chance and I'm having a hard time getting past ....day 2!!! Its like Pavlov's dogs. I hear a bell in my head at about 7 at night, and then I start to panic. I pace, I cry, my heart starts racing and I must drink! How do I turn the bell off!?! I want to stop sooooo badly, but that damn bell goes off. I'm fine all day and in good spirits till the bell in my head starts ringing. Frustrated!!!!!

Hi Foneho, you are certainly no different from me in my early days, I would pace the house and drive around just to make the clock tick faster so I could get to my bed and pass another day sober, you will be fine just have to play the hand you are dealt my friend.
Remember we are all here for you.

Stay strong, foneho. You can make it.

Hope you all are having a great Friday, I'm having football withdrawals lol, first night without a game to watch but I'm watching re-runs of Cheers which is cool.

So tomorrow is Brazil V Chile and Columbia V Uruguay, what's everyone's tips?

Brazil 3 x 1 Chile

Colombia 1 x 1 Uruguai --> Penalties --> Colombia wins

I tend to agree, I would normally have picked Uruguay but without Suarez they lack some bite lol

wow my 5 month is almost here. time is going fast. i'm in a state of emotional shock these past couple days. but i have to be honest, i am handling things very well despite the cicumstances.

i wish my back wasnt in so much pain i gotta get this problem fixed. been ongoing for 8 year and just getting worse.

on a happier note, i've been exercising a lot..running, basketball, street hockey, splitting wood. stayin very active. mentally i'm feeling very well.

financially, doing horrible but i'm doing what i can.

i hope everyone is doing well. stay sober my friends. i hope you all have an easy day today

take care
-ryan

Hey Krete, I totally sympathise I have had chronic back issues for as long as I can remember and it is the worst pain their is, really glad you are handling these issues with a sober viewpoint, that is vital for us always.
Take care man.

Thanks, stoogy! I know I'm not the only one. I have no support group here. Makes it harder! I know in the end I can beat this monster.....just sucks right now! Krete, back pain is the worst, but your doing great! I wanna be you in 5 months. Still working on getting to day 3!

that means a lot foneho. 5 months just happened so fast. i really can't wait to hit a year. i'm sure i'll feel a lot better then.

hope everyones doing well. im headin to the casino tomorrow. gotta get to bed. take care.

It's a gorgeous Saturday morning here in Scotland, heading out for a game of golf, that's the only benefit of not working I have been on the golf course every day for the last 2 weeks, handicap is getting lower and another benefit is that when I used to drink I would make excuses not too play just so I can make time to indulge in that poison! What a sad existence that was.

Have a great Saturday everyone.