GwenCummings

Good evening gang. Doing lots of meetings. Learning something at every one. I felt really sad today as there were several young lads fresh out of treatment for alcohol and drugs at the meeting this evening. How many will survive? Who knows.

Sorry if that's a bit depressing but it's life and death we are talking about here. X

Minion09

Evening all. Quiet here, hope all are ok.
gwen, way to keep hitting the meetings, u will b a support to those young folks!

day 50 tomorrow feels like a big number!

today was much better, still a little tired but slept ok last night and body healed some. Camp was much more tolerable aches and pain wise. Spendin tomorrow with my love, my nephew tomorroz I think. The fibro is easing some...God is good all the time.

happy sober weekend peeps hang in there!

GwenCummings

Good morning. I was supposed to go to a big school reunion tonight. Lots of booze. Lots of memories.

I am a little sad not to see the old friends but this is where my alcoholism has led me. Needing to be sober above everything else.

When I think of drinking, I don't think of just one or two in the sunshine. I know the truth of that. I know I would want way way too much.
Ok. Heading on out into the world to see what life has in store today.

Making time for my husband later. We are going on a cinema date. XX

Dee74

based on the last school reunion I went to, you made the right choice Gwen

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Cahabr

Good morning all. Day 49 here.

It's 5:30 am on Saturday and I've gone into work (on my day off). Have a lot to get done. Yes that sucks but the good news is that without the drinking I am able to come in early to get it done and still have enough time in the day to spend the afternoon with my family. In the past I would have slept in, had a very unproductive hungover day, and spent zero time with family. Thank you sobriety for giving me extra time and better mental capacity.

TheBigC

44 days - stay strong everyone

Minion09

Happy sober Saturday family! The weather is spectacular today in NJ. Low humidity, sun is shining and birds are singing.

Way to do you Gwen, you are the most important thing, so allowing yourself the space you need to keep healing is all that matters. Hopefully you can see those whom u wished to see another time in safer circumstances.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day with their families!

Big C, how was puppy sitting? The pics were sooo cute. Dogs are the very best pick me up...unconditional loves for sure.

Make it the best sober Saturday yet peeps! Post if you feel tested today or just post your victories!

RecoveringMay

Hi everyone, just on my way to the wedding. Feeling a lot of social anxiety about not knowing many people and going alone. Might post here on occasion during the day as a bit of an outlet.

Minion09

Recovering, will be sending you positive thoughts for today, I totally understand the social anxiety thing as it often overtakes me also. I pray there is someone there you will be able to connect with for the day. We will be here if u need us! Hugs!

TheBigC

I am still puppy sitting in this great day!!

Amester

60 days!!!

Feeling great, so grateful to be where I am in my life right now. I have a stable home to live in, loving parents and family, a few very dear friends, a great counselor, my 3 kitty cats, and some financial stability for the first time in many years.

I also was just diagnosed with PTSD from the lifestyle I lived during my Feb-April relapse. I was doing horrible, dangerous things and I was terrified everyday for months. I had to do things I never thought I would or could. I was horribly taken advantage of and very nearly lost my life. I have some hard work ahead of me to cope with all that and heal.

Keep up the good work everyone and have a great weekend!

RecoveringMay

Well I'm back. Was good and bad, good that I didn't drink and didn't feel particularly tempted. Bad in that I'm starting to realise just how uncomfortable I am in my own skin and how much I used alcohol to cover this problem. I just feel different to other people, inferior really. Parts were enjoyable and parts were really difficult. Also I was pretty much the only single person at the wedding so that felt a bit painful, especially since I was due to get married within a few months when my fiancé left me. There was a lot of painful memories of how I wanted my own life to turn out. I felt very vulnerable and alone at times, like I'm the only person in the world who doesn't have someone.

Still I have to take the positives, it was brave to go, I was strong to get through it and I'm sure socialising will get easier with time as my confidence grows.

Amester

You're definitely not alone in any of those feelings RecoveringMay. That took tremendous courage and strength just to go and stay sober despite some very uncomfortable feelings. I'm sorry the event brought up such painful thoughts and memories. I can assure you you are certainly not the only person who doesn't have someone but I absolutely relate to feeling that way. I'm 32 and still single and it can be tough sometimes being around my happily married parents and two happily married siblings. I feel like there's something wrong with me sometimes for not having settled down by now. But we all have our own path to take in life, and mine is very different from the others in my family. And that's ok.

It was a huge step in the right direction to go, very proud of you! and yes, socializing will get easier, just hang in there and keep trying.

Minion09

Just did some research on PAWS, and I think that is what is happening with me right now. Sobriety was fairly easy the first 45 days or so, but I am struggling now.... feel a little better knowing this isn't out of the norm.

Minion09

Well said Amester. I couldn't agree more. I too feel very similar to recovering and yourself. Definitely loneliness etc kick harder these sober days, but I will not allow it to take away what I have worked for to date, and strive for the future.

Way to go recovering very encouraging for me and I too am proud of you!

Dee74

It took me a little time to learn to be comfortable in my own skin RM.

mostly I learned I'm never going to be terribly comfortable in social situations with new people - but that's ok - that's me, and I embrace that now

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RecoveringMay

Thanks everyone, it's nice to have somewhere to talk about stuff like this and not have to pretend to be happy all the time.

Sorry to hear you're having a tough time minion, great that you're reading up on it, knowledge is power!

Going to head to bed now, looking forward to the burst of positivity I always have in the morning and a lovely day with my daughter.

GwenCummings

Exactly. The world seems to think that big social occasions are the fun times. That's not my fun. I'd rather watch a movie with my sister any day of the week.

GwenCummings

I think you're all doing absolutely brilliantly. I had bad anxiety last night. still feel all wrong this morning but it didn't and doesn't make me want to drink. I shall hold on, go to my meetings, add something in.

I had a day of almost meeting up with friends all over the place yesterday. I think a higher power made the arrangements not work out for me because there would have been drinking everywhere I went. I don't even believe any of that stuff but I actually wonder if that was true.

One thing it wasn't was SIMPLE. It was complicated and tricky and I don't need it in my life.

Today is a new day and I'm going to embrace it.

TheBigC

Good morning all. 45 days today. Another much day here in dirty Jersey! The only thing I can report on is that I'm tired, just tired. Two dogs, one of which is a puppy and a six year old will do that to you!!