Class of June 2014
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Join Date: Apr 2014
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Originally Posted by anewpage 
Well. I f$%&ed up and drank today so it looks like I'm in the June class. I hate myself and want to die.
Hi anewpage,
Welcome, you're not the only one whos messed up. Its hard. Let's give ourselves a kick up the proverbial and beat this thing. I am so ill I am still awake and its 1.25am here. I hated myself this morning too. I finally accept I can't drink, at all ..ever. We deserve to get better and to like ourselves and our lives.
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I'm sorry that you had to miss the graduation and someone made an unkind comment.
But, if you're like me, drinking makes it worse - not better.
It took me a long time to learn to handle disappointment and criticism sober, but it is possible.
With every attempt you learn more and get a little further ahead. You'll get there
D
But, if you're like me, drinking makes it worse - not better.
It took me a long time to learn to handle disappointment and criticism sober, but it is possible.
With every attempt you learn more and get a little further ahead. You'll get there
D
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Join Date: May 2014
Location: northeast US
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Originally Posted by anewpage
It was my step daughters graduation. and half way through, the baby sitter called and said she had to leave so I had to go home and watch the kids. I was so upset and so mad that I had to miss the graduation. On top of that, a complete stranger commented on my parenting. I just thought, sod this. I'm buying alcohol. So I did. 
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Robert777 and Sweetenuff, certainly for many people apart from just an addiction, the tensions around us of so many kinds trigger the need for an escape.
I always drink more with hassle going on around me, especially with stuff below the surface that I can't perceive clearly and makes me neurotic without knowing it.
So I'm trying to open a window and get rid of some of the stale air, and act and think differently- once the central pestilence is corrected all the secondary issues clear up by themselves.
Easier said than done I know, and I understand that many people also simply have an addiction, which I do in part; my life's changing at the moment however so I have some cause for optimism.
I always drink more with hassle going on around me, especially with stuff below the surface that I can't perceive clearly and makes me neurotic without knowing it.
So I'm trying to open a window and get rid of some of the stale air, and act and think differently- once the central pestilence is corrected all the secondary issues clear up by themselves.
Easier said than done I know, and I understand that many people also simply have an addiction, which I do in part; my life's changing at the moment however so I have some cause for optimism.
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Join Date: May 2014
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Hi everyone, I would like to join June! Ending day 26 here. I don't have the urge to drink, but I have a lot of anxiety and depression. Trying everything I can to have a positive outlook, and seem "normal" and happy around the people in my life. I feel I can talk here and people understand. Thanks!
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God its only day 1 and i already want to drown my sorrows thinking about the consequences of my actions. Its a neverending cycle...fear of going to work tomorrow because of my drunken antics and im behind on my responsibilities because my hangover kept me from being productive this weekend. Gotta break this cycle somehow but its not easy
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Join Date: May 2014
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Originally Posted by Raidersfan13
God its only day 1 and i already want to drown my sorrows thinking about the consequences of my actions. Its a neverending cycle...fear of going to work tomorrow because of my drunken antics and im behind on my responsibilities because my hangover kept me from being productive this weekend. Gotta break this cycle somehow but its not easy
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Originally Posted by Cowgirlie
Helloooooo! New enrolment in the class please! I'll take this seat over by the window and hand out cake while we all settle in
Sweetenuff, 7 weeks sober is awesome! Excluding pregnancy I think my longest spell has been 8-9 days...
Ooh I love a fresh new month! Can't wait to have my evenings back to get exercising and look after myself more. I spend so much energy looking after my kids and working hard, I think I over-look myself completely. I was reading about High Functioning Alcoholics and it all rings so true... if that is me, I'm telling myself it must mean I'm capable of being a high functioning sober person! As in, can achieve sobriety if I approach it with the same dedication as I have other areas of my life. There's my deep thought if the day!!
Sweetenuff, 7 weeks sober is awesome! Excluding pregnancy I think my longest spell has been 8-9 days...
Ooh I love a fresh new month! Can't wait to have my evenings back to get exercising and look after myself more. I spend so much energy looking after my kids and working hard, I think I over-look myself completely. I was reading about High Functioning Alcoholics and it all rings so true... if that is me, I'm telling myself it must mean I'm capable of being a high functioning sober person! As in, can achieve sobriety if I approach it with the same dedication as I have other areas of my life. There's my deep thought if the day!!
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Join Date: May 2014
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Originally Posted by NYCfitnessgirl
Hi everyone, I would like to join June! Ending day 26 here. I don't have the urge to drink, but I have a lot of anxiety and depression. Trying everything I can to have a positive outlook, and seem "normal" and happy around the people in my life. I feel I can talk here and people understand. Thanks!
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Originally Posted by Minion09
Welcome raidersfan...I won't hold that against you...lol, east coaster here, but love my dolphins! GLAD u are here. You can get through and once you clear up a little, you will find you are more productive than you ever thought you could be.
Time to get off my arse, cook a healthy dinner, and take care of business. Moaning and moping around wont help anything, so i may as well stop focusing on the past and look towards the present
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Originally Posted by Raidersfan13
Haha thanks for the laugh friend. We play each other september, i look forward to the friendly smack talk we will have in the september thread
Time to get off my arse, cook a healthy dinner, and take care of business. Moaning and moping around wont help anything, so i may as well stop focusing on the past and look towards the present
Time to get off my arse, cook a healthy dinner, and take care of business. Moaning and moping around wont help anything, so i may as well stop focusing on the past and look towards the present
"smack" talk humor...lol!
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Starting in June
Hi,
I am a 20 year alcoholic. Wanting to change for my kids and myself. Realizing I have to taper off... and do the hard work. I am a type A person in every facet of my life but the drinking...I hope to gain skills here to stick to my decision...I am the type drinker that is good from 8 AM to 9 PM then all bets are off....hangover has receeded, I have always needed alcohol to take the "edge off" Never felt comfortable in my own skin. I desperately wish to find peace again... happiness in the everyday things, not to be so annoyed by a hangover...
I am a 20 year alcoholic. Wanting to change for my kids and myself. Realizing I have to taper off... and do the hard work. I am a type A person in every facet of my life but the drinking...I hope to gain skills here to stick to my decision...I am the type drinker that is good from 8 AM to 9 PM then all bets are off....hangover has receeded, I have always needed alcohol to take the "edge off" Never felt comfortable in my own skin. I desperately wish to find peace again... happiness in the everyday things, not to be so annoyed by a hangover...
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