I maintain that recovery is a returning to self. Residing in original self was our birthright. Reclaiming it costs lies.

Hi Robert sounds like you are taking proactive action to avoid drinking, can you do something to distract yourself? Today's not going to be a problem for me as feeling so ill but I can understand where you are coming from, it will be day 4 or 5 when the cravings turf up for me. Good luck, stay strong.

Hi sweetenuff, yeah I have put things into place to make it harder for me to just give into the cravings like I usually did. It seems to be making a difference. Sorry to hear you are feeling ill, hope you feel better soon. I guess I could go for a walk/cycle, distraction does help take my mind off these horrible feelings. Thanks. You too.

Yes if only there were no cravings, parties, weekends etc etc I could crack this :wild!, seriously its very hard isn't it. I managed 7 weeks once, my longest dry stint and I felt so much better. Its scary to think I will never drink again but great too. I am sure that we will reap so many rewards and it will get easier as time passes. If the weather is nice where you are a walk or cycle sounds great. Enjoy it.

Welcome to all the newcomers :)

The early days aren't easy but they're a lot easier with support.

Hope you did ok today Robert :)
I'm afraid I'm just not a conspiracy kinda guy Sean :)

Whats your plan sweetenuff? :)

not sure what you mean by it costs lies Phil?

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Day 1. I can do this.

Best of luck everyone and thank you for the support

Hi Dee. Good diet and exercise, mindfulness meditation, I've told a few people this time round to make it more real and accountable. I have said to my husband I've really had enough and we both have to accept that I just can't control alcohol and drink like him, a 'normal person', he is relieved but to some extent he's heard it before. I fully intend to prove it. I really do feel I have accepted this now but I know it won't be easy. I intend to tell friends before we meet that I no longer drink and choose get togethers that are not all about drink, in fact don't involve it as far as possible especially in the next few weeks. If I have to do something where there is temptation I will plan ahead how to cope. I am looking at alcohol counselling.

I have been reading on SR all day and will keep at it, reinforcing that I am not able to drink, and that it is possible to quit this. I want that sober life and believe it will be better. I am ready to change my thinking and attitude. Instead of lamenting about not being able to drink on a sunny day I will focus on how great a sunny day is, how lucky I am not to spoil it being a drunk and wiping out tomorrows sunny day with an hangover, like I did today.

I am getting made redundant from a job I hate, bad re finances but good re stress and wellbeing. Its been very bloody how they have and are treating me but I have to just be glad I am out of there ...... whilst trying to make sure they can't get away with unfair dismissal. I need a less stressful job albeit less pay. We are sorting out our garden and I want to enjoy doing it and using it rather than being inside recovering. I guess I am saying my sobriety and health are going to be first from now on.

I feel relieved not sad, this is different for me. I don't want to waste another minute of my life on drink and its consequences. Feel angry that I wasted so much already.

Hope everyone has or is having a good and sober day.

Day 1 for me too, the last one I ever intend to have. We can do this.

I'm back on Day 1. Joined a few weeks ago and made it 5 days but then have been drinking the last 5. Realize I need more support than I thought so will participate more in this site and try to get the courage up to find a local meeting. Happy June 1:)

A few of us on day 1 the 1st June will be easy to remember for our first sober anniversary

Very excited to join in. I have been planning this quit date for a long time and am actually starting two days early. My husband and I have gone over all the benefits we hopefully will see. Anxious to really be a better version of me!

Welcome what could be, like the way you put that! I am excited too.......will feel better when this horrible hangover is over with....my last one

Hey everyone! I joined the may class a little late, and feel like I still need the class, so I am sticking with June. To all of you on or close to day 1, welcome and proud of you. Early days are tough, but you r here and that means you care enough about yourself to get better. I too want the same thing, and while I may be a litlle further along, somedays feel like day 1 especially when I mm home alone at night, but SR has provided an understanding encouraging place to shar honestly, so please share and I will listen and return what was given me 23 days ago an somedays I am absolutely sure I will need it back. Sorry long winded!

Helloooooo! New enrolment in the class please! I'll take this seat over by the window and hand out cake while we all settle in :)

Sweetenuff, 7 weeks sober is awesome! Excluding pregnancy I think my longest spell has been 8-9 days...

Ooh I love a fresh new month! Can't wait to have my evenings back to get exercising and look after myself more. I spend so much energy looking after my kids and working hard, I think I over-look myself completely. I was reading about High Functioning Alcoholics and it all rings so true... if that is me, I'm telling myself it must mean I'm capable of being a high functioning sober person! As in, can achieve sobriety if I approach it with the same dedication as I have other areas of my life. There's my deep thought if the day!!

Welcome guys :)

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H cowgirlie, welcome! I keep telling myself that I can do it again if I managed it before. I felt so great too but here I am back at day 1. :wild

Well. I f$%&ed up and drank today so it looks like I'm in the June class. I hate myself and want to die.

Try and look at the big picture anewpage - you're racking up increments of two weeks or so now...what you have to do is find that extra element that will make this change permanent :)

what do you think were the factors in you drinking today? :dunno:

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anewpage, just dust off and start over my friend. I relapsed more than imaginable. Yet here I am with 3 little days. Not much but we have to start somewhere. Make tomorrow your day 1, by the end of June you will have 30.

It was my step daughters graduation. and half way through, the baby sitter called and said she had to leave so I had to go home and watch the kids. I was so upset and so mad that I had to miss the graduation. On top of that, a complete stranger commented on my parenting. I just thought, sod this. I'm buying alcohol. So I did. :(