Class of May 2014 Part 3
Diez de Mayan
Join Date: Dec 2011
Location: The Hinterlands
Posts: 109
Day 17. The last two weeks I was in an IOP program which I really enjoyed and was really helpful. I was pretty depressed before that.
Staying in on this Memorial Day. Neighbors up the street are out on the porch partying so want to avoid going near there. Another neighbor (partyboy) dropped by to ask me for money to "get him through the day because he sliced his finger open" Um what? My husband just dropped by right now (we're separated but friendly) and we took my dog for a walk.
Going to work and clean a little, just another day for me, but sober, so it's all good!
Staying in on this Memorial Day. Neighbors up the street are out on the porch partying so want to avoid going near there. Another neighbor (partyboy) dropped by to ask me for money to "get him through the day because he sliced his finger open" Um what? My husband just dropped by right now (we're separated but friendly) and we took my dog for a walk.
Going to work and clean a little, just another day for me, but sober, so it's all good!
Member
Join Date: May 2014
Location: S.E. Wisconsin
Posts: 341
A month on the 28th.
Monumental? Yes!
My family and people that know me,
know that I couldn't go a day
without a beer.
My wife's family called me
the Beerman, and that was
coming from alcoholics!
Again, I cannot possibly
over empathize how much
this forum has helped me
understand myself.
Monumental? Yes!
My family and people that know me,
know that I couldn't go a day
without a beer.
My wife's family called me
the Beerman, and that was
coming from alcoholics!
Again, I cannot possibly
over empathize how much
this forum has helped me
understand myself.
Member
Join Date: May 2013
Location: Michigan, USA
Posts: 392
Well, I've almost made it through memorial day though I was quite depressed earlier on to have a BBQ with no wine. Yeah, I suppose I was sulking. I haven't had a BBQ without alcohol since I was 16 or so. So the cravings have been there today, but I do have an AA meeting tonight.
Now here's my problem. I need to go to more than 1 or 2 meetings a week but my social anxiety is why I'm an alcoholic in the first place. I know the people at those 2 meetings. I'm afraid to walk into other meetings where I might not know anybody, especially if it's being held in a building I haven't been in before.
I know I'm going to just have to do it, but I'm afraid to. It's at times like this when I get the little voice in my head, "See? THIS is why you need alcohol. How silly of you to think you can function without it."
How ironic to need alcohol to get the courage to attend an AA meeting.
Now here's my problem. I need to go to more than 1 or 2 meetings a week but my social anxiety is why I'm an alcoholic in the first place. I know the people at those 2 meetings. I'm afraid to walk into other meetings where I might not know anybody, especially if it's being held in a building I haven't been in before.
I know I'm going to just have to do it, but I'm afraid to. It's at times like this when I get the little voice in my head, "See? THIS is why you need alcohol. How silly of you to think you can function without it."
How ironic to need alcohol to get the courage to attend an AA meeting.
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Join Date: Jan 2010
Location: UK
Posts: 375
I remember from last time I stopped drinking, I always have to have an angle when attending a social event. I need a role beyond my fall back position of Inappropriately loud drunk. My personal favourite is as self appointed photographer. It gives me something to do and people appreciate a keepsake from their event.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,372
I doubt anyone feels great walking into a meeting of strangers anew.
To expect that we'll walk in there, without anxiety and instant light up the room is a little unreasonable for anyone, I think
Everyone who's there will have done that first walk in at some time, like you have, yeah?
D
To expect that we'll walk in there, without anxiety and instant light up the room is a little unreasonable for anyone, I think
Everyone who's there will have done that first walk in at some time, like you have, yeah?
D
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Join Date: Dec 2013
Location: U.S. - West
Posts: 104
Congratulations On the 8! And the 6 the 15 the 17 the almost a month and all the other new days! This is great to have company.
A few more hours of putting to rest day 9 for me and into double digits tomorrow :-) Feeling great about that! It was a boring weekend here too but I got ahead on some chores. Now I just need to work on getting exercise in.
Thank you all
A few more hours of putting to rest day 9 for me and into double digits tomorrow :-) Feeling great about that! It was a boring weekend here too but I got ahead on some chores. Now I just need to work on getting exercise in.
Thank you all
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Posts: 1,323
Made it through day 12. Went for all you eat chicken wings on a roof top patio after work...probably a mistake...lots of tables drinking Budweiser and smoking...anyways made it through...drank 3 ginger ales and 60 wings.
Scary part was on the subway going home REALLY felt like going the liquor store...managed to fight it off though.
Home now...safe and sound...day 12 is through. Feels like today was a learning day...don't think I'll put myself in that position again for awhile at least...
Thank you SR for keeping me accountable for another day.
Scary part was on the subway going home REALLY felt like going the liquor store...managed to fight it off though.
Home now...safe and sound...day 12 is through. Feels like today was a learning day...don't think I'll put myself in that position again for awhile at least...
Thank you SR for keeping me accountable for another day.
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Join Date: May 2014
Location: northeast US
Posts: 715
Originally Posted by rochele 
Day 9? I think it is day 9 for me. Once I get up a few I lose count. Pretty much when I run out of fingers, so I have another day to be accurate, lol. Oh, I think I did update my sobriety date on my info page, so i can do the math. 
Anewpage, I am glad you made it through your cravings.
This virus had a stronger hold of me than I initiall thought. I think I have turned a corner today, but felt rather awful yesterday. Mostly achy and a cough/chest congestion. But I slept a bit better last night. it has made it easier to avoid drinking. There is that. And, we had no big plans this holiday weekend, so I have rested.
Anewpage, I am glad you made it through your cravings.
This virus had a stronger hold of me than I initiall thought. I think I have turned a corner today, but felt rather awful yesterday. Mostly achy and a cough/chest congestion. But I slept a bit better last night. it has made it easier to avoid drinking. There is that. And, we had no big plans this holiday weekend, so I have rested.
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