Originally Posted by Sparkos

Sparkos; present, correct and sober.
Calichris; present, correct and sober.
Dee74; Who knows!!!!!!
Aarryckha; present, correct and sober.
Discovery14; present, correct and sober.
Biminiblue; present, correct and sober.
Boobeary; present, correct and sober.
Ilya; present, correct and sober.
Michtizz; present, correct and sober.
Enfinthechange; present, correct and sober.
Looking4help123; present, correct and sober.
Mr G; present, correct and sober.
Kimsfriend; present, correct and sober.
nonna11; present, correct and sober.
Rosa84; present, correct and sober.
FacingFuture; present, correct and sober.

Originally Posted by Aarryckha

Hi all. I just wanted to check in really quick. I did read the posts and I have responses I'll post later.

I have issues with my upper back. Have for several years. It almost feels like a disk slips out of place and then moves back after it upsets the muscles.

So I'm sitting on the couch with my loving 22 pound cat giving me love and hoping the muscle relaxer kicks in soon.

I'll get back to you.

Here's hoping that people are having a good (or the best they can) day.

Originally Posted by KimsFriend

I'm sitting out in my car waiting for a meeting to start. A wave of desire to drink washed over me and I just got in my car and drive here. Past the liquor store I have an account at. Past the bars I have so often drank myself into obliteration.

It is day 33 for me. I am working the program. But yet the urge just hits me like mugger on the street and steals all my joy.

Sigh. God get me through tonight. I do not want to drink.

Originally Posted by Ilya

Hello!
Still here, still sober, still tired. I have one booklet made. Not the one I'm waiting on from the printer.
I'll never do a project with this guy again.
Why does no one take me seriously enough to just not procrastinate me??
I know not all men are like this but, why are some so caught up in overestimating their abilities that they don't even see what disastrous results take place??
And, he's been telling me that he's been losing work because of my project. Not my fault. And he kept telling me to calm down as well, when I asked really normal, cognitive questions. He's also insinuated that this is just how it goes, you know, because I must not understand.
Turns out he has a nasty attitude and cannot make a deadline.
Meanwhile, I have taken time off of work myself to catch up on this project. Because he pushed me down to the wire.
And MEANWHILE, my parents, whom I do not speak to anymore, and who have been major scary triggers for me my whole life, are arriving in town today. To visit my sibling. Who lives very near.
I have stated to my sibling that they are allowed nowhere near me.
I do not trust that an incident won't take place, and everything else in my life is being held in such precarious balance at the moment.
If my boundaries are not respected, I'm looking at one gigantic, jagged, drunk Jenga game.
Friends, I'm in a battle right now.

I am sorry I haven't had time to catch up with everyone else. I've been in this battle for a long while now.

Originally Posted by biminiblue

Ilya, you are in charge of only you. Keep repeating that if your family starts with you.

I moved from the east coast to the west to put distance between myself and my family. I understand. I don't have any regrets other than my continuing to fret about it and argue with them. When I started leaving the conversation every time one of them started, it got a lot better. I had to detach from their behaviors completely and own my own life.

You don't have to drink at it. Please don't; you are only hurting Ilya when you do. Find a way to make this situation work for you.

My thoughts are with you - this is a tough one and I know you'll do the right thing.