The 24 Hour Club Sign Up Sheet, Part 50, All Are Welcome!
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: New England, USA
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I considered myself high functioning too. Honest stories like yours remind me that thinking I was a high functioning alcoholic is total bs. In for another 24 hours of functioning sober at 8:00 pm est.
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Gulf Coast, Florida USA
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24 Hour Club Sign up Sheet Part 50, All Are Welcome!
Hi Everybody! Hope everyone is enjoying their day so far!
If you are just cruisin by , please sign up and commit to staying clean and sober
for the next 24 Hours. Not a lifetime just for the next 24 Hours. You can do it!
Please post your local time and commit but please only sign in once daily as this is
mainly a sign up sheet that will make up our final roster. Thanks!
FAO Schwartz Toy Store Home of the Big Piano from the Movie "Big" - Tom Hanks
Welcome to our Newest Members - Discovery14 - DancingDiva -JJ1982 -
hawkhog - Foxface -AZliving - tdk1001 - nana622
Welcome back to those returning, we admire your honesty!
Congratulations!
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Please send me a pm with any corrections or updates, or if I
missed your special day. Please come back even if you slipped
or relapsed!
Thanks Miss venuscat for working behind the scenes personally
Congratulating our Members on their Milestones on behalf of the
24 hour club!
Roster to be posted about 2 hours from now at 10 pm EST USA 4/8.
Functioning Alcoholic?
This is my story of being a functioning alcoholic or so I thought.
When I was out there I didn't want to look at all the stuff I did while I drank. And I tried not
to so I stuffed my feelings deep down inside. I told myself I was not as bad as some people.
Even though I kept adding more to my horrendous story with every drink I picked up.
I still had a job and a truck and a house.
My kid was smart, my house was clean and well maintained. I did it up good on holidays
with decorations and lots of presents. To the outside world I looked like the All American
Mom.
I was a functioning alcoholic? But was I really?
What is functioning anyways? Is it how well I fool the outside world into believing that I have
it all together?
The truth was I lived in total fear and anxiety every day of my life.
I would go out to the bars get drunk and have one night stands, pregnancy scares all the
time. Trust me I was not functioning very well the following day.
STD scares, Aids scares, Hepatitis C scares.
Or if I drank at home I would sit in the same chair for hours a day refilling the biggest cup I
could find every 20 min while life went on around me.
I was terrified to talk to my husband the next day waiting to see how he and my son were
gonna react to me because I couldn't remember what I did or said. Always walking on egg shells.
If they didn't say anything I was good to go and I could still believe the lie that I was a
functioning alcoholic. I was ok until my next bout with the bottle.
If they did say something I spent the whole day trying to absolve my guilt by making dinner,
cleaning house,giving my son 20 bucks, or taking him to the movie. Anything to get rid of
that awful feeling inside.
It didn't really work but because I was able to do it I was still a functioning alcoholic because
I thought I was covering my tracks, cleaning up my messes but I wasn't fooling anyone but
myself.
Telling myself I was a functional alcoholic kept me in denial for almost 30 some yrs.
I sure hope you don't go out there or stay out there as long as I did. I hope you don't believe
that lie that you are a functioning alcoholic and are still in control. Because that lie will take
you to an early grave or a psych ward because all that pain, guilt, anxiety and shame that
you are trying to ignore because you think you are functioning alcoholic will eventually drive
you crazy.
I functioned so well that I drank and drove 1000's of times ( but I was ok to drive right? lol),
Had 3 DUI's, a multitude of accidents ,ended up in jail 7 times, 5 psych wards as well as several
other institutions. It is simply by the Grace Of God I did not kill someone on the road.
The only thing that functioned exceptionally well was my own DENIAL of my situation.
If you think you are a functioning alcoholic, please believe me when I say that it is a lie that
your addiction is trying to feed you to keep you out there as long as it can. It' s called denial
and all a part of this illness.
And if you are an alcoholic like me and continue to believe you are a functioning alcoholic and
put off getting clean and sober your addiction will keep getting progressively worse, growing
stronger every single day to a point where one day it might be to late for you.
You might be able to function yourself into liver disease or a deadly drunk driving accident
and you might live with the death of someone else on your hands. You might function yourself
out of a marriage and away from your children.
IMO Just because we get out of bed and go to work, and get a paycheck does not mean we
are functioning.
Don't think it can happen to you?
Would you believe my first DUI was when I was 19 years old and I totaled out a police car and
sent the officer to the hospital. But I was to young to be an alcoholic. I was "to functional."
The truth is I started drinking when I was 14 and was out of control by the age of 19 having had
my first DUI, 3 alcohol related car accidents,broken bones and bruises, unwanted pregnancies,
and barely graduated high School with straight D's.
That was 6 years of my life. So you can only imagine what has happened in the 30 years since and
anything and everything you can imagine probably did, but I believed I was a functioning
alcoholic.
Unbelievable how denial can try to convince us that we are a functioning alcoholic. But we
buy it!
I sometimes hear this at a meeting: One half of our brain manufactures Bull Sh** and the other
half buys it. Scary Stuff my friends! But so true!
* On a Lighter Note lol Really Fun Video For The Day - Some Unbelievably Talented
People Playing The Big Piano -Bach-Toccata & Fugue in D minor
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Member
Join Date: Nov 2013
Location: BC Canada
Posts: 400
Well its 6:50. My daughter and SIL just arrived to drop off the two grandsons, 3 and 1.25.
Staying with Papa and Grandma for 5 days while the kids get away to San Diego.
I better stay sober. 21 weeks today and counting.
I am tired already. Thats why its best to have kids in your 20s and 30s.
Thanks Deeker, count me in
Staying with Papa and Grandma for 5 days while the kids get away to San Diego.
I better stay sober. 21 weeks today and counting.
I am tired already. Thats why its best to have kids in your 20s and 30s.
Thanks Deeker, count me in
Member
Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Gulf Coast, Florida USA
Posts: 5,731
24 Hour Club Sign up Sheet Part 50, All Are Welcome!
Hi There Everybody! Hope everyone is having a blessed day! I am so glad
you stopped into the 24 Club!
If you are just lurking and I know some of you are. Why not take that leap
of faith and just sign in with your time and do your very best to stay away
from that drink and or drug for the next 24 hours.
It's 24 hours. You can do this!!
Please sign in on this thread just once daily as this is mainly a list. Thank You!
Welcome to Our Newest Members- DancingDiva -JJ1982 -
hawkhog - Foxface -AZliving - tdk1001 - nana622
Welcome back to those returning!!
Congratulations!!
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If I missed your special day, my apologies. Please send me a pm with your
clean/sober date.
Thanks to Miss venuscat who is on our Anniversary commitee recognizing
all our milestones personally on behalf of the 24 Hour Club!
All these people joined us over the last 24 hours since 10 pm EST USA 4/7
and made their commitment and we are holding them to it! Great Job!
This List is now closed!
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More wrong with me than drinking and drugging?
In early recovery I didn't think there was more wrong with me than just the drinking
and drugging.
It was that ugly thing called "Pride". My thinking was "Maybe I drank and drugged to much
but I was a good person."
But I wasn't the very best person, I was selfish and self centered, and all I cared about
was myself and how I could get my hands on that drink or drug. I put my needs before
everyone else's. I didn't care about my husband, my son, holding a job, contributing to
the household finances etc.
I didn't want to believe there was more wrong with me than just the act of drinking and
using. After all I quit and now I am cured right??
Wrooooong! Putting the drink and drug down was just the beginning.
When we stop anesthetizing with drugs and alcohol, we have to relearn how to
handle our emotions and cope with life.
Numbing them was the answer in the past.
We stopped growing emotionally, mentally and spiritually the day we started escaping
through our addiction. I started using at 14, I have a lot of growing up to do.
If I want to get well so I do not return to drinking and drugging I am going to have to
confront some ugly truths about myself.
I don't drink and drug anymore but I still have all these negative character flaws which
drove me to drink and drug which need to be addressed.
In early recovery we will find out some pretty hard truths about ourselves and it will be
painful but if we don't we will end right back where we started with a drink or drug in
our hands.
The sooner we face the truth about who we are the sooner we will get better.
We all have our faults. It won't happen over night, but remember there is so much
more to recovery then just putting down the drink and drug and unless we address
these we will either go back or be completely miserable sober holding on for dear life.
We must recognize these character defects so we can work to change them.
For example :Learning to accept things, lowering our expectations, Learning to live and
let live, allowing others to make their own mistakes, minding our own business, stop trying
to run the show.
When we do work on these things we will be less frustrated, irritable and angry and are less
likely to be triggered to run to a drink or a drug.
If nothing changes , nothing changes.
It's a long road ahead but putting forth the effort to change will truly be worth it.
Let's not fool ourselves, putting down the drink and drug is just the beginning, now the
work begins!
You In?
*Song For The Day-Fooling Yourself by Styx
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Member
Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: southern Oregon
Posts: 365
It's true, AG2013, summer seems to definitely be here on the West coast,
I had to break out the sandals and fans today....
So, I'm dedicating my next week of sobriety to 'Barbieken's' family,
in honor of her brother, who took his life last week....
another tragic reminder of the hold alcohol can have on us.
Today I pledge 24 hours of complete solemn sobriety,
Hugs and prayers to Barbieken, from your fellow SR 24 hr. club members,
sending peace, and comfort,
~Heartfan
I had to break out the sandals and fans today....
So, I'm dedicating my next week of sobriety to 'Barbieken's' family,
in honor of her brother, who took his life last week....
another tragic reminder of the hold alcohol can have on us.
Today I pledge 24 hours of complete solemn sobriety,
Hugs and prayers to Barbieken, from your fellow SR 24 hr. club members,
sending peace, and comfort,
~Heartfan
Member
Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: South Bay, So Cal
Posts: 6,122
I went with my nephew to his AA Attitude Adjustment meeting early this morning. This is my brother's grown son. He recently celebrated 90 Days! I'm so proud of him, he's hanging in, but it's very sad.
Bobbi here, gratefully checking in for another 24 hours of recovery. I walked outside today, across the way to feed my Dad's chickens. 3 white tail deer were right in front of me, literally took my breath away! Thank you HP.
. Bobbi. 8:15pm. Idaho time
Bobbi here, gratefully checking in for another 24 hours of recovery. I walked outside today, across the way to feed my Dad's chickens. 3 white tail deer were right in front of me, literally took my breath away! Thank you HP.
. Bobbi. 8:15pm. Idaho time
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