MrFixit63

No you're still the class of March you're not getting rid of us that easy

Michtizz

sparkos. Present, correct and sober.
KimsFriend. Present, correct and sober.
Toddle 118. Present, correct and sober.
Aarrycckha. Present, correct and sober.
calichris: Present, correct and sober.
Nonna11 Present, correct and sober.
enfin, present, correctish and sober
Michtizz, present, correct and sober

Hi there all,

I've found you - here we go beginning another month - day 17 for me mostly done - out to another gig tonight but feel confident in my ability to get through it with soda water.. Thanks to all for your support in March... Let's crack April now...

KimsFriend

A wave of cravings just washed over me. Doesn't make sense. I ate, I'm not tired or otherwise moody. I was actually having a peaceful day cleaning out my office at work.
The craving is so strong. I actually thought to myself for a brief moment- "so what if my husband leaves me- i would be able to hide out In my house drunk all the time because no one would be around to judge- that sounds great!"

Oh my what a sick thought.

I am hiding in the bathroom right now. I don't know why. I just had to get out of there. Wtf is wrong with me?

Aarryckha

Hey Jade! I really hope you consider sticking with us! I know I'd miss you!

When I first started here, I made a post about how I couldn't imagine being sober for 7 months. I had just read a thread about someone being sober for 7 months and that just seemed so impossible. I know it's been said a million times, but try not to think of it as forever. It's overwhelming. Hell, 7 months seemed overwhelming. You only need to worry about today.

We'll be here for you, Jade.

Sparkos

Sparkos. Present, correct and sober.
KimsFriend. Present, correct and sober.
Toddle 118. Present, correct and sober.
Aarrycckha. Present, correct and sober.
Calichris: Present, correct and sober.
Nonna11 Present, correct and sober.
Enfin, present, correctish and sober,
Michtizz, present, correct and sober,
FortWorthsober, present, correct and sober,
MrFixit63, present, correct and sober,
Biminiblue, present, correct and sober,
Lookinforward, present, correct and sober,
Cara39, present, correct and sober,
Kopfan, present, correct and sober,
Jade1224, present, correct and sober, (I really hope so).


Taken the liberty of adding the wayward strays

adams

Well, if you're anything like me your entire being is basically trying to figure out how it's supposed to function without the old operating system. Nervous system, cardiovascular system, brain chemistry / emotional response system, blood chemistry and energy system,....Ive never made it to 3,4,5 months but I understand from those who have that it can take that long, and longer for parts of our mind and body to adjust. Just hang in there. Anything that is tough to handle right now would only be tougher to handle later, after the dri k wore off.

adams

....and oh yea, present, sober, and indeterminate

adams

Been there. Well, from here on out I guess it's the glamorous life of making it to bed every night....wohoo

Sparkos

Sparkos. Present, correct and sober.
KimsFriend. Present, correct and sober.
Toddle 118. Present, correct and sober.
Aarrycckha. Present, correct and sober.
Calichris: Present, correct and sober.
Nonna11 Present, correct and sober.
Enfin, present, correctish and sober,
Michtizz, present, correct and sober,
FortWorthsober, present, correct and sober,
MrFixit63, present, correct and sober,
Biminiblue, present, correct and sober,
Lookinforward, present, correct and sober,
Cara39, present, correct and sober,
Kopfan, present, correct and sober,
Jade1224, present, correct and sober, (I really hope so).
Adams, present, sober, and indeterminate

Sparkos

As I've already stated, I'm a terrible pedant!

Sparkos

You're healing KF.
Just look after yourself. For me, they're not cravings just him trying to have his wicked, wicked way with me.

toddle118

Stay strong Kimsfriend, its horrible, Ive had a mixed up day too, aaarrgh!!! Ride it through...these are testing times my friend!

calichris

Keep posting here with us and checking in Kimsfriend I am praying for strength for you. You can do this!!!! Staying sober one more day at a time is so much better than dealing with the regrets and consequences of drinking which will make things even worse.

calichris

adams, many days I am in bed by 8pm now

calichris

Jade, so you tried and saw again that this (sobriety) is the right path for you. Don't think of it as somethign you are losing (drinking) but something you are gaining (not getting tricked into poisoned to death). So glad you are back !!!!!!

Ilya

Hey everyone! Happy April! Look at us!

Ugh. A frustrating day so far. Have tried to get started 3 times.
Off to try the third try

Then what?? I thought I could be so productive today.

Hey. At least I'm not spending my whole day off in the bar right? I always felt so bad about that!

Ilya

P.S. I'm incredibly jealous that Ozzy actually sounded amazing last night for once! And I didn't get to go

Sparkos

Sparkos. Present, correct and sober.
KimsFriend. Present, correct and sober.
Toddle 118. Present, correct and sober.
Aarrycckha. Present, correct and sober.
Calichris: Present, correct and sober.
Nonna11 Present, correct and sober.
Enfin, present, correctish and sober,
Michtizz, present, correct and sober,
FortWorthsober, present, correct and sober,
MrFixit63, present, correct and sober,
Biminiblue, present, correct and sober,
Lookinforward, present, correct and sober,
Cara39, present, correct and sober,
Kopfan, present, correct and sober,
Jade1224, present, correct and sober, (I really hope so).
Adams, present, sober, and indeterminate,
Ilya, present, correct and sober,

Damn this OCD!

Sparkos

Now that we've graduated and are big boys and girls, I've started exploring more.
Has anyone been on the "newbie bus"? What's it all about?

KimsFriend

Thank you everyone for your support. The craving seemed to pass. I texted back and forth with Kim (hence the name KimsFriend) and she talked me down off the ledge.
I looked up the Big Book on line and read through the forewards and the Dr's Opinion. That really helped. It flat out validated those crazy f'ing thoughts are simply part of the addiction.

Sigh. Day 10 is 1/2 way over. I am heading home to make dinner for the family and will hopefully be off to a meeting tonight. I think I need it.