Class Of February 2014 Part 6
01-14-2019
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Glee: Which book is that? I always am trying to fix things for people. I get so pissed and frustrated that I can't fix my family that I just don't want to hear the next bad news anymore.
Coming back from lunch I saw a billboard. You don't need to take heroin. It takes you. For us, it's booze.
We need some cheering up today:
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Coming back from lunch I saw a billboard. You don't need to take heroin. It takes you. For us, it's booze.
We need some cheering up today:
springcleaning4.jpg
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Originally Posted by Briggsy75 
Really FABL? Wow! This is becoming a reoccurring game in which you seem to enjoy playing quite frequently!
Hang in there FABL. Fight through the urge and it will pass. Stay here and we will help you through. I agree with torn, get so something sweet and yummy to eat.
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So true, Torn! I need someone to tell me right now that they will be here in an hour so I can get myself going!
Gleefan, it's wonderful to hear that there are healthy relationships out there. He and I once did have a healthy relationship but there comes a point where too much has happened and resentments build. I worry that my chances of meeting someone new are slim. I know anything can happen at any time, but I don't get out much and my life revolves around school and my kids.
Soberleigh, thinking about you and hoping all is ok with your daughter.
Gleefan, it's wonderful to hear that there are healthy relationships out there. He and I once did have a healthy relationship but there comes a point where too much has happened and resentments build. I worry that my chances of meeting someone new are slim. I know anything can happen at any time, but I don't get out much and my life revolves around school and my kids.
Soberleigh, thinking about you and hoping all is ok with your daughter.
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Originally Posted by forabetterlife
So true, Torn! I need someone to tell me right now that they will be here in an hour so I can get myself going!
Gleefan, it's wonderful to hear that there are healthy relationships out there. He and I once did have a healthy relationship but there comes a point where too much has happened and resentments build. I worry that my chances of meeting someone new are slim. I know anything can happen at any time, but I don't get out much and my life revolves around school and my kids.
Soberleigh, thinking about you and hoping all is ok with your daughter.
Gleefan, it's wonderful to hear that there are healthy relationships out there. He and I once did have a healthy relationship but there comes a point where too much has happened and resentments build. I worry that my chances of meeting someone new are slim. I know anything can happen at any time, but I don't get out much and my life revolves around school and my kids.
Soberleigh, thinking about you and hoping all is ok with your daughter.
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Oh Torn, I worry my post was misunderstood...I was referring cleaning my house and the ecard you posted...it was a joke
I am actually doing much better thanks to all of you. My kids are home and I'm slowly starting to clean things up and get things done.
I am actually doing much better thanks to all of you. My kids are home and I'm slowly starting to clean things up and get things done.
01-14-2019
Join Date: Feb 2014
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Originally Posted by forabetterlife
Oh Torn, I worry my post was misunderstood...I was referring cleaning my house and the ecard you posted...it was a joke I am actually doing much better thanks to all of you. My kids are home and I'm slowly starting to clean things up and get things done.
I am actually doing much better thanks to all of you. My kids are home and I'm slowly starting to clean things up and get things done.
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Hi Febbies - daughter is okay; thankfully, the babes were not in the car as front end and rear end were both crushed. Her car was rear-ended while stopped at traffic light.
Thanks for the thoughts, hugs and prayers; felt every one of them.
Thanks for the thoughts, hugs and prayers; felt every one of them.
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My word SoberLeigh that sounds like a terrible accident, I'm so glad your daughter is okay
FABL - Sorry you've had such a tough time with the craving, what you're describing is a feeling i'm very familiar with, it's very painful when you feel utterly defeated and your motivation drops through the floor, it's great you recognised it for what it was and got straight on here though that's fantastic. When I'm feeling like that I try to listen to the other voice that deep, deep down is screaming at me to HOLD ON for just a little while longer. Something that always gets me through early recovery is the knowledge that it WILL get better. All you have to do is hold fast and the light overwhelms the darkness once more.
You're in my thoughts
FABL - Sorry you've had such a tough time with the craving, what you're describing is a feeling i'm very familiar with, it's very painful when you feel utterly defeated and your motivation drops through the floor, it's great you recognised it for what it was and got straight on here though that's fantastic. When I'm feeling like that I try to listen to the other voice that deep, deep down is screaming at me to HOLD ON for just a little while longer. Something that always gets me through early recovery is the knowledge that it WILL get better. All you have to do is hold fast and the light overwhelms the darkness once more.
You're in my thoughts
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Originally Posted by LonelyShadow
My word SoberLeigh that sounds like a terrible accident, I'm so glad your daughter is okay
FABL - Sorry you've had such a tough time with the craving, what you're describing is a feeling i'm very familiar with, it's very painful when you feel utterly defeated and your motivation drops through the floor, it's great you recognised it for what it was and got straight on here though that's fantastic. When I'm feeling like that I try to listen to the other voice that deep, deep down is screaming at me to HOLD ON for just a little while longer. Something that always gets me through early recovery is the knowledge that it WILL get better. All you have to do is hold fast and the light overwhelms the darkness once more.
You're in my thoughts
FABL - Sorry you've had such a tough time with the craving, what you're describing is a feeling i'm very familiar with, it's very painful when you feel utterly defeated and your motivation drops through the floor, it's great you recognised it for what it was and got straight on here though that's fantastic. When I'm feeling like that I try to listen to the other voice that deep, deep down is screaming at me to HOLD ON for just a little while longer. Something that always gets me through early recovery is the knowledge that it WILL get better. All you have to do is hold fast and the light overwhelms the darkness once more.
You're in my thoughts
Technology can make our world seem so small; times like this bring the reality and physicality of the miles which separate us crystal clear.
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SL, so glad your daughter is ok!
Hope everyone else is doing well today. I was so cranky and tired yesterday, but am feeling better today. Went to the gym this morning and it helped. I was thinking earlier that even though I have been sober for the majority of this past year, these one night slips here and there still really set me back, mentally. I will not give in again.
LS, I don't think I congratulated you on your new job offer? That's awesome news, so happy for you!
Will post more later when I am not on my phone. Stay strong, sober and happy, Febbies!!
Hope everyone else is doing well today. I was so cranky and tired yesterday, but am feeling better today. Went to the gym this morning and it helped. I was thinking earlier that even though I have been sober for the majority of this past year, these one night slips here and there still really set me back, mentally. I will not give in again.
LS, I don't think I congratulated you on your new job offer? That's awesome news, so happy for you!
Will post more later when I am not on my phone. Stay strong, sober and happy, Febbies!!
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Freud pondered why we marvel at technology, he said that although the telephone makes us feel like somebody is in the next room, if it wasn't for the train and the plane they actually would be in the next room!
I hope you get to see her soon
I hope you get to see her soon
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Torn - I've been reading Codependent No More by Melody Beattie. I had always thought of codependency as outmoded self help jargon, and stayed away from it. Turns out it is quite relevant to my life, both to the glaring issues I had as a kid, and to the more subtle relationship issues that have lingered into adulthood. I've been working loosely on my boundaries since last summer. This book has given me clear direction on that work. I have the sense that it is going to be a real game changer for me.
SoberLeigh - I'm glad your daughter and little ones are safe and sound.
LonelyShadow - Leave it to you to find a profound comment on technology. I mean that as a compliment.
I hope everybody's av's and cravings have settled down. If not they will have the Febbie gang to contend with.
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SoberLeigh - I'm glad your daughter and little ones are safe and sound.
LonelyShadow - Leave it to you to find a profound comment on technology. I mean that as a compliment.
I hope everybody's av's and cravings have settled down. If not they will have the Febbie gang to contend with.
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I'm glad everyones OK SL.
I'm sorry you're struggling here FABL - it's clear to me that you're trying very hard to fight the good fight.
Are you using any other support apart from SR right now?
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I'm sorry you're struggling here FABL - it's clear to me that you're trying very hard to fight the good fight.
Are you using any other support apart from SR right now?
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Originally Posted by SoberLeigh
Hi Febbies - daughter is okay; thankfully, the babes were not in the car as front end and rear end were both crushed. Her car was rear-ended while stopped at traffic light.
Thanks for the thoughts, hugs and prayers; felt every one of them.
Thanks for the thoughts, hugs and prayers; felt every one of them.
Hope your daughter if feeling ok, I'm sure she's still in a bit of shock.
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I had my assessment today. I was pumped, the energy was ALIVE, I'm going to DO THIS RIGHT this time.
Then I started driving there, about 1/2way there, I got nervous. I noticed it because I was biting my nails and I never do that anymore unless I'm nervous.
I walked in there and instant shame. The receptionist must see people like me all the time and think we're losers. I saw a teenager sulking with his mom. I felt incredibly little.
Out comes a whippersnapper guy who wasn't too bad on the eyes and well he's my assessment taker. So embarrassed. Someone younger. I couldn't give answers on why I drink, just all the time. His computer acting up so it was slow and painful.
Turns out they have so many people do assessments that the next step is to meet with a counselor for an hour for background and to start a plan. Its walk in only and conveniently in the middle of the day. This isn't good for people like myself who work. So next week I have to work early, go win the walk in lottery and work at home to make up my hours to get into night IOP.
They only take the first 3 or 4 people who show up. I asked - is this because so many people don't follow through on appointments? Yes, yes it was. Makes sense. With the extreme raw emotions behind me (week 1), I felt I was of sound mind to know I wanted to do this. This is why I called it a lottery. However, if you show up and they can't see you, you do get an appointment. I guess you need to show your commitment. I think last time the requirement was X amount of days sober. This time he didn't recommend inpatient because of my 6 weeks, and now 2 weeks and switching from nightly to weekends AND - not having withdrawal symptoms anymore. Whew.
Its Tues-Thurs for 3 hours a night. I asked about school, you see I'm 3/4ths done with my Masters and I already screwed up my class with the hospital visit and had to drop and take a 10% tuition hit, but the class is offered right away in May and I have the books already. I asked, can I do two days a week in May? He said he counsels people in the morning and lets them do two days if there is a good reason. Ultimately it's up to the counselor who's on vacation. So I'm still going for it. I said well I think class is a good excuse. If not, I guess I can take that one online or try and find a Monday/Friday class instead.
Then off to dinner with my fam fam. Busy day.
SL - I am thankful your daughter is ok.
FABL - how's your night going?
Glee - I'll look into getting that book.
NT - I think I've been trying hap-hazardly to quit since 2008.
I wanted to order a dessert SO BAD for sweets, but my nieces and nephews were over tired, out of control and if they saw sweets, all heck would break loose. Time for some chocolate and tea.
A trying day for us Febbies,
Everyone did great though.
Then I started driving there, about 1/2way there, I got nervous. I noticed it because I was biting my nails and I never do that anymore unless I'm nervous.
I walked in there and instant shame. The receptionist must see people like me all the time and think we're losers. I saw a teenager sulking with his mom. I felt incredibly little.
Out comes a whippersnapper guy who wasn't too bad on the eyes and well he's my assessment taker. So embarrassed. Someone younger. I couldn't give answers on why I drink, just all the time. His computer acting up so it was slow and painful.
Turns out they have so many people do assessments that the next step is to meet with a counselor for an hour for background and to start a plan. Its walk in only and conveniently in the middle of the day. This isn't good for people like myself who work. So next week I have to work early, go win the walk in lottery and work at home to make up my hours to get into night IOP.
They only take the first 3 or 4 people who show up. I asked - is this because so many people don't follow through on appointments? Yes, yes it was. Makes sense. With the extreme raw emotions behind me (week 1), I felt I was of sound mind to know I wanted to do this. This is why I called it a lottery. However, if you show up and they can't see you, you do get an appointment. I guess you need to show your commitment. I think last time the requirement was X amount of days sober. This time he didn't recommend inpatient because of my 6 weeks, and now 2 weeks and switching from nightly to weekends AND - not having withdrawal symptoms anymore. Whew.
Its Tues-Thurs for 3 hours a night. I asked about school, you see I'm 3/4ths done with my Masters and I already screwed up my class with the hospital visit and had to drop and take a 10% tuition hit, but the class is offered right away in May and I have the books already. I asked, can I do two days a week in May? He said he counsels people in the morning and lets them do two days if there is a good reason. Ultimately it's up to the counselor who's on vacation. So I'm still going for it. I said well I think class is a good excuse. If not, I guess I can take that one online or try and find a Monday/Friday class instead.
Then off to dinner with my fam fam. Busy day.
SL - I am thankful your daughter is ok.
FABL - how's your night going?
Glee - I'll look into getting that book.
NT - I think I've been trying hap-hazardly to quit since 2008.
I wanted to order a dessert SO BAD for sweets, but my nieces and nephews were over tired, out of control and if they saw sweets, all heck would break loose. Time for some chocolate and tea.
A trying day for us Febbies,
Everyone did great though.
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Originally Posted by tornrealization
I had my assessment today. I was pumped, the energy was ALIVE, I'm going to DO THIS RIGHT this time.
Then I started driving there, about 1/2way there, I got nervous. I noticed it because I was biting my nails and I never do that anymore unless I'm nervous.
I walked in there and instant shame. The receptionist must see people like me all the time and think we're losers. I saw a teenager sulking with his mom. I felt incredibly little.
Out comes a whippersnapper guy who wasn't too bad on the eyes and well he's my assessment taker. So embarrassed. Someone younger. I couldn't give answers on why I drink, just all the time. His computer acting up so it was slow and painful.
Turns out they have so many people do assessments that the next step is to meet with a counselor for an hour for background and to start a plan. Its walk in only and conveniently in the middle of the day. This isn't good for people like myself who work. So next week I have to work early, go win the walk in lottery and work at home to make up my hours to get into night IOP.
They only take the first 3 or 4 people who show up. I asked - is this because so many people don't follow through on appointments? Yes, yes it was. Makes sense. With the extreme raw emotions behind me (week 1), I felt I was of sound mind to know I wanted to do this. This is why I called it a lottery. However, if you show up and they can't see you, you do get an appointment. I guess you need to show your commitment. I think last time the requirement was X amount of days sober. This time he didn't recommend inpatient because of my 6 weeks, and now 2 weeks and switching from nightly to weekends AND - not having withdrawal symptoms anymore. Whew.
Its Tues-Thurs for 3 hours a night. I asked about school, you see I'm 3/4ths done with my Masters and I already screwed up my class with the hospital visit and had to drop and take a 10% tuition hit, but the class is offered right away in May and I have the books already. I asked, can I do two days a week in May? He said he counsels people in the morning and lets them do two days if there is a good reason. Ultimately it's up to the counselor who's on vacation. So I'm still going for it. I said well I think class is a good excuse. If not, I guess I can take that one online or try and find a Monday/Friday class instead.
Then off to dinner with my fam fam. Busy day.
SL - I am thankful your daughter is ok.
FABL - how's your night going?
Glee - I'll look into getting that book.
NT - I think I've been trying hap-hazardly to quit since 2008.
I wanted to order a dessert SO BAD for sweets, but my nieces and nephews were over tired, out of control and if they saw sweets, all heck would break loose. Time for some chocolate and tea.
A trying day for us Febbies,
Everyone did great though.
Then I started driving there, about 1/2way there, I got nervous. I noticed it because I was biting my nails and I never do that anymore unless I'm nervous.
I walked in there and instant shame. The receptionist must see people like me all the time and think we're losers. I saw a teenager sulking with his mom. I felt incredibly little.
Out comes a whippersnapper guy who wasn't too bad on the eyes and well he's my assessment taker. So embarrassed. Someone younger. I couldn't give answers on why I drink, just all the time. His computer acting up so it was slow and painful.
Turns out they have so many people do assessments that the next step is to meet with a counselor for an hour for background and to start a plan. Its walk in only and conveniently in the middle of the day. This isn't good for people like myself who work. So next week I have to work early, go win the walk in lottery and work at home to make up my hours to get into night IOP.
They only take the first 3 or 4 people who show up. I asked - is this because so many people don't follow through on appointments? Yes, yes it was. Makes sense. With the extreme raw emotions behind me (week 1), I felt I was of sound mind to know I wanted to do this. This is why I called it a lottery. However, if you show up and they can't see you, you do get an appointment. I guess you need to show your commitment. I think last time the requirement was X amount of days sober. This time he didn't recommend inpatient because of my 6 weeks, and now 2 weeks and switching from nightly to weekends AND - not having withdrawal symptoms anymore. Whew.
Its Tues-Thurs for 3 hours a night. I asked about school, you see I'm 3/4ths done with my Masters and I already screwed up my class with the hospital visit and had to drop and take a 10% tuition hit, but the class is offered right away in May and I have the books already. I asked, can I do two days a week in May? He said he counsels people in the morning and lets them do two days if there is a good reason. Ultimately it's up to the counselor who's on vacation. So I'm still going for it. I said well I think class is a good excuse. If not, I guess I can take that one online or try and find a Monday/Friday class instead.
Then off to dinner with my fam fam. Busy day.
SL - I am thankful your daughter is ok.
FABL - how's your night going?
Glee - I'll look into getting that book.
NT - I think I've been trying hap-hazardly to quit since 2008.
I wanted to order a dessert SO BAD for sweets, but my nieces and nephews were over tired, out of control and if they saw sweets, all heck would break loose. Time for some chocolate and tea.
A trying day for us Febbies,
Everyone did great though.
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