IreLander

4 weeks Odelle! You're doing it. Keep showing me the way! Good luck on a good nights sleep! I'll try and wish you one up too.

ronjohn

Last time I saw 4:30AM was coming from the wrong direction...

I have started getting up at 6AM to hit the gym and that has been brutal. This coming from a guy that typically rolled out of bed at 9AM.

Hats down to you for getting up at 4:30.

Odelle

The updated class roster for January 2014 follows, stay strong everyone!

1 2bstrong
2 Adee
3 ApisPadre
4 Arjip
5 Arteh
6 ArticSA
7 Autan
8 Avra
9 BigShoe
10 Binge1989
11 Blondsober
12 BradJustBrad
13 Branches
14 Briar
15 Butterfly33
16 Cairns87
17 Cara39
18 Carebearlost
19 Carlygirl
20 Cheeky1
21 Chefhunter
22 ClearMind
23 ClydeChief
24 ColoradoMan
25 Countingdays
26 Dancerinthedark
27 Dan Dare
28 Danthehunter
29 Dbskid
30 Desertsweetpea
31 Dirk626
32 Django
33 Dj72075
34 Dorris
35 EagerforChange
36 Ed2715
37 Eldy
38 Emkay
39 Ethos23
40 Finnie
41 Fishy
42 Fleuryp
43 Forabetterlife
44 ForestRunner
45 FourSeasons
46 Free2Bsober13
47 FreddyBear
48 Frugal14
49 Gatorgirl67
50 Gimliman
51 Gman13
52 Goldcoastgirl
53 Grahammt21312
54 GreenEggsAndHam
55 Grindilow
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57 GypsyHeart
58 Haennie
59 Halfvictory
60 Hearts
61 Imabuleva
62 Ineedhelp123
63 IreLander
64 Jazzfish
65 Jeff1962
66 Jenn80
67 Jessicacat2
68 Johnny555
69 Jojoreese
70 jra55
71 JustSarah
72 Kakanola
73 Kat60
74 kcbf
75 Kelle96
76 Kensho
77 Kiya
78 Kris47
79 Ky2Beijing
80 Lifeplant
81 Lifes4living
82 Liss74
83 Littlelma
84 letustrythis123
85 Lulu212
86 Marcellina
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88 Marius76
89 Martina12
90 Marymacsmith
91 Medion
92 MetalMatt
93 Milly4me
94 Muhv
95 Mulligan72
96 Mvngon
97 Needtostopthis
98 NewMe30
99 New Star
100 Noexcuse
101 Ntzomb
102 Odelle
103 OliveDog
104 Paralysedforce
105 Pataphor
106 PaulinaPolitely
107 Peacehappyness
108 Peeka
109 Pinktinkfairy
110 PinkShooter
111 Pmaub
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115 Rose1234
116 RunnerBean
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118 Sammy1974
119 Sazzle
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122 Scott76
123 Serious
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125 SHG13
126 SilentCinemaFan
127 Sinderos
128 Snaggle
129 soberbob11
130 SoberChristmas
131 Soberella66
132 SoberMarathon
133 SoberMM
134 SombodyElse
135 Sonrisa12
136 Startingnew2
137 Swaps
138 Tang
139 Tempe
140 Timetotry1
141 Toxicsoul
142 TrickyDave
143 TheAceFace
144 Thefist
145 TTBABP
146 Unproudone
147 Webdev
148 Withope
149 Yestoffreedom
150 Ynmamflm
151 Zeepa

ryanvandrake

Admitting powerlessness second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour. I cannot have just one.... I don't work that way...... stay in the fight, hold on to your sobriety like a pit bull locks onto a bone!!! When those voices, cravings, etc rear their ugly head I have to punch them in the face and put my boot on their neck to keep them at bay (figuratively of course).... and then acknowledge my powerlessness.....

I know a place
Where the future is denied
I know a hand
That twitches inside
For some of us the glass
Is filled with lights
But if the honey
Makes you sick
Honey, there is a line
That must be walked
If you wanna make it stop
Then stop
Stop

Odelle

I can't stop at one or two either Ryan. The 1st is the most dangerous for me because I have no off switch. Not only that, but with time, the AV loses a lot of its power over me, but that first drink ignites it like an inferno! I accept that fact and so I choose not to give in to that 1st drink, never again!

Kris47

Give me inspiration!!

Fishy

So half of day 2 is over. I still have the awful sweats and i hate it. I have been out all day and yuck even in the air con i was all hot and flushed and my rosacea was really bad making my face beetroot red. My head is so itchy like lice all through it but i don't have any. It is so bad, i almost want all my hair cut off to make the feeling go away.

I know this will only last a few days before getting better but urgh, it feels just awful.

It is good coming here to see i am not alone with these side effects.

adee

This is where I am today:

Strength and hope to all of you. Ending day 24, sober.

Odelle

We all start on day one Kris, and one day at a time really starts snowballing after awhile. I drank a lot of water with lemon the first couple of weeks, I couldn't get enough. If you feel like you are missing something, try a cup of herbal tea with cinnamon, take a bubble bath, read and respond to posts. Even if you go to bed feeling frustrated, tomorrow you will wake up so glad that you didn't drink! You can do this. Think of all you will be able to do after your knee surgery, especially now that you aren't limited on where you can go. There's so much to look forward to Kris, look at all the positives that lay in wait for you!

adee

Ditto to Odelle, Kris. Sometimes it's simply about getting through the day so you can wake up and have it behind you. Hang in there. You will be so happy with yourself that you did. Nobody every woke up in the morning upset that they didn't drink.

Odelle

Fishy, all of those awful symptoms are just the toxins leaving your body. This too shall pass. Grab a big glass of cold water and get into a hot Epson Salts bath, your body will thank you!

ForestRunner

Feeling so frustrated right now. My evening wine used to help tone down the constant drama of the kids and just help me muddle through. Tonight, I was helping my 11 year-old complete a project for school and my 9 year-old kept distracting him. I warned him several times, then got angry, yelled at him, and sent him away. Then, he refused to eat his dinner so his father said, OK, then, straight to bed. He cried about that for about 30 minutes then came to me at 9:00 to complain about it and I reminded him that, after 9:00 is mommy's time. This is a new rule after the new year and I need it to stay sane (and sober). He is now in bed, sobbing, saying nobody loves him, etc. In the old days I would be "relaxed" enough to just let it all slide, but that wasn't working for me or for them. Now that I am setting more boundaries, I feel more confident in my own goals but my heart breaks when my kids feel they are not loved. Oddly, I feel more selfish than I did when I was drinking, as I was less strict and I let bad behavior slide more easily...

Dee74

Hey FR - I think there's gonna be a time of transition for everyone.

I actually think boundaries are great.

I'm sure your son knows he is loved - I'm also sure he'll probably think twice about naughty behaviour in future too.

I think the trouble is we were so 'not there' before as drinkers that being present now maybe seems strict and selfish - but it's really neither of those things.

D

adee

FR, I completely understand. It is a rough transition to be sure. My 10 year old is in a really tough phase and can escalate in an instant to screaming and crying that nobody understand her when I try to set a very simple boundary. I hear what she is really saying: All of a sudden, you are changing the rules, and I don't understand. This isn't part of our deal. I'm just trying to have faith that if I keep doing the right thing, she will adapt. I KNOW she sees the benefits at other times of me being more present, but she has gotten pretty used to getting her own way and it's not easy for her. Very, very frustrating. I feel for you. Hang in there.

ForestRunner

Thanks Dee and adee

Dee74

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D