Class of September 2013 - Part 22
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Thank you for the love guys. I'm doing a bit better today. I'm taking meds around the clock as opposed to here and there and I feel much better. I had some great quality time with my mom today so that is good.
LG, you sound really different about sobriety. I wonder if that was your bottom. It sounds so, so miserable. I think for those of us who were/are so high functioning and haven't lost anything major or had relationships affected, physical effects are a big eye opener. I could not deny that liver pain and constant nausea and you can't deny the serious physical hell you went through this week, just as Rochele can't deny what happened to her related to the drinking. In every system we have studied so far there have been snippets here and there about how heavy alcohol intake is damaging. It has really started to freak me out and I don't want to damage my body anymore.
I love hearing that you want alcohol out of your life and nothing seems more important right now.
I had this thought pop in my head a few days ago when I was thinking about some events coming up - There is nothing that can or will make me drink anymore. I just can't think of anything realistic that would make me pick up. I just can't think of anything that is worth it. This is a huge change for me mentally.
I now have a lot of fears related to alcohol. I'm afraid of the effects on my liver. I'm afraid of the hangover - how did I live with that on a daily basis? I'm afraid of my reduced tolerance - I have NO idea what my response would be - what I would do and how I would react - because 4 months is the longest I've been without alcohol since I was 16. I'm afraid of morning after guilt. I'm afraid of throwing out my day count which has kept me hanging on many times. I'm afraid of reaction from my family. I don't want to have to come here and fess up. I'm afraid of gaining that weight back! I'm afraid of what it will do to my health conditions. I'm afraid of spending all of that money. I'm afraid of not being so productive - I have been more productive in the last four months than I ever have before.
I am getting to the point where I have more obvious reasons NOT to drink than to drink.
whoever said that the bloom is off the rose - I LOVE that. Now that we all know we have problems and we want sobriety to some degree, drinking will never ever be the same.
LG, you sound really different about sobriety. I wonder if that was your bottom. It sounds so, so miserable. I think for those of us who were/are so high functioning and haven't lost anything major or had relationships affected, physical effects are a big eye opener. I could not deny that liver pain and constant nausea and you can't deny the serious physical hell you went through this week, just as Rochele can't deny what happened to her related to the drinking. In every system we have studied so far there have been snippets here and there about how heavy alcohol intake is damaging. It has really started to freak me out and I don't want to damage my body anymore.
I love hearing that you want alcohol out of your life and nothing seems more important right now.
I had this thought pop in my head a few days ago when I was thinking about some events coming up - There is nothing that can or will make me drink anymore. I just can't think of anything realistic that would make me pick up. I just can't think of anything that is worth it. This is a huge change for me mentally.
I now have a lot of fears related to alcohol. I'm afraid of the effects on my liver. I'm afraid of the hangover - how did I live with that on a daily basis? I'm afraid of my reduced tolerance - I have NO idea what my response would be - what I would do and how I would react - because 4 months is the longest I've been without alcohol since I was 16. I'm afraid of morning after guilt. I'm afraid of throwing out my day count which has kept me hanging on many times. I'm afraid of reaction from my family. I don't want to have to come here and fess up. I'm afraid of gaining that weight back! I'm afraid of what it will do to my health conditions. I'm afraid of spending all of that money. I'm afraid of not being so productive - I have been more productive in the last four months than I ever have before.
I am getting to the point where I have more obvious reasons NOT to drink than to drink.
whoever said that the bloom is off the rose - I LOVE that. Now that we all know we have problems and we want sobriety to some degree, drinking will never ever be the same.
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Hi renarde glad your feeling better.
I dont want to drink but im so unsettled I can get thoughts of my ex and his lies out of my head. I've been to 2 aa meetings today ive given over to my hp ive prayed for them butvi can't stop thinking. I know drinking wont help but I need some peace in my head
I dont want to drink but im so unsettled I can get thoughts of my ex and his lies out of my head. I've been to 2 aa meetings today ive given over to my hp ive prayed for them butvi can't stop thinking. I know drinking wont help but I need some peace in my head
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Originally Posted by lommey 
Hi renarde glad your feeling better.
I dont want to drink but im so unsettled I can get thoughts of my ex and his lies out of my head. I've been to 2 aa meetings today ive given over to my hp ive prayed for them butvi can't stop thinking. I know drinking wont help but I need some peace in my head
I dont want to drink but im so unsettled I can get thoughts of my ex and his lies out of my head. I've been to 2 aa meetings today ive given over to my hp ive prayed for them butvi can't stop thinking. I know drinking wont help but I need some peace in my head
get them out of your mind xx
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Thanks thoughts get worse when I tryvto sleep and I wake up in the early hours. I keep busy all day maybe some meditation before bed might work . Never done mediation before anyone recomend anything
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Originally Posted by lommey
Thanks thoughts get worse when I tryvto sleep and I wake up in the early hours. I keep busy all day maybe some meditation before bed might work . Never done mediation before anyone recomend anything
http://m.gaiam.com/on/demandware.sto...ow?pid=91-0224
I bet you could download it on iTunes!
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Lorelei, lovely to see you posting here !
Lommey, yes do try meditation. For me, I only realised the benefits of meditation if I dont practice it. I tend not to be as calm or at peace. Kinda weird. The iTunes app I use is called Insight Timer, you can get the free or paid version. BUt it is mainly a timer. I would suggest that you try Renarde's suggestion first.
Lommey, yes do try meditation. For me, I only realised the benefits of meditation if I dont practice it. I tend not to be as calm or at peace. Kinda weird. The iTunes app I use is called Insight Timer, you can get the free or paid version. BUt it is mainly a timer. I would suggest that you try Renarde's suggestion first.
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