Class of September 2013 - Part 22
My oldest girl is hosting a NYE party for her friends. Unfortunately, she is of legal age and hence we cant ban alcohol completely. Having said that, I am going to be a very nasty door b*tch for the evening
I believe alcohol places a layer over problems, especially relationships. I am also finding out the hard way over the past 6 weeks. Without the drink, these problems become exposed with nowhere to hide. I dont think they simply occur overnight. Also, I dont believe that drinking created these problems. Drinking may have exacerbated it or vice -versa, i.e., the problem caused the drinking. Either way, the fundamental issues would have always been there irrespective of alcohol.
As for where you are right now, the Chinese have a popular proverb which I think makes a lot of sense: *********痛***************************痛
Essentially, it says that suffering acute pain for a short time is better than suffering mild pain for a long time.
The tough part is putting that into practice !
I think we have escaped party invitations for New year's Eve. Yay! One friend who usually asks us over, always very last minute, simply to her being that way, not because we are last on her list. she throws the party together in 12-24 hours, lol. Well, her hubby has a gig, so I know they will be out. Their party was very tame last couple of times anyway. I am just tired and wanting to be a hermit. We could go where he is playing, but it is usually too far, and I like to include our children in New Year's eve. If we can. They are excited for it. Maybe movie, games, fun food, like apptizers/snacky things. I will posible go to bed before midnight! Maybe.
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I basically blew it I had a four day binge the week of Christmas passed out a couple different times. Checked into the hospital Thursday afternoon to have my heart cath on Friday they ended up replacing two stints that I had put in 2005 I got to go home Saturday morning. I'm still sore the procedure doesn't hurt too bad when you're done this 250 pound man sticks his elbow in your crotch to stop the bleeding hollering at you hold still how can I hold still you have your elbow in my crotch. I have been super depressed since my slip I should have checked in here but I just been lurking. I am ashamed of my constant failures of sobriety. I hope everyone is well.
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No you're not. You wouldn't be here if you were
We're glad you're back here in the forum.
Apart from the the feeling of guilt and the coronary angiography and that groin compression, are you ok?
You can do it Fish! We all can
We're glad you're back here in the forum.
Apart from the the feeling of guilt and the coronary angiography and that groin compression, are you ok?
You can do it Fish! We all can
If you are feeling like you should have seen it coming ~ well, that's a game in your head that will drive you crazy. Your spouse is supposed to be the one person on earth you CAN trust....but human beings aren't perfect, and neither is he.
Sounds like you have lots of good stuff going on for 2014!
(((Fish))) I really missed you. I'm so glad you are back.
You're not a hopeless alcoholic, anymore than the rest of us. You're an alcoholic who feels hopeless. There is a difference.
You have to do something different this time.
What are your reasons for not going to rehab?
I know you want sobriety.
Hang in there with us man. Keep posting.
You're not a hopeless alcoholic, anymore than the rest of us. You're an alcoholic who feels hopeless. There is a difference.
You have to do something different this time.
What are your reasons for not going to rehab?
I know you want sobriety.
Hang in there with us man. Keep posting.
We are alcoholics. It is what we do unless we get sober.
I am still trying. How about you? Bottom line for me is my health totally rides on it in several areas. I think you and I share that, Fish. Diabetes, liver issues. Not good for longevity, ya know? My kids are too young.
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