Class of September 2013 - Part 15
Velveteen Rabbit
Join Date: Sep 2013
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Originally Posted by 1stepup 
Evening all, just got in from aa meeting, its a pretty quiet one so got to share, haven't felt like drinking today which is good. Feeling 'normal' has been my undoing this year though, that's why im hammering the meetings just to keep myself grounded and reaffirming my knowledge that I cannot drink safely.
I used to love reading biographies on famous alcoholics- probably the obsession part of the illness coming out, and today I came across a new Oliver Reed one, I used to love reading about his drinking behaviour (check his interviews and appearance on 'After Dark' on you tube), the wild side interested me, but alas it did me no good.
I used to love reading biographies on famous alcoholics- probably the obsession part of the illness coming out, and today I came across a new Oliver Reed one, I used to love reading about his drinking behaviour (check his interviews and appearance on 'After Dark' on you tube), the wild side interested me, but alas it did me no good.
I've noticed the heavy drinking celebrities don't make it to old age. I'm glad you're not one of them. The world would be a lesser place without you, and everyone else here.
You're better without the drink. :-)
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Originally Posted by Br00ksie
Ditto! -except I WISH I didn't remember!! 
Had a dream last night that I was in Paris with you-know-who's makeup person at a five-star hotel overlooking the Seine and we went club hopping and I was miserable being in Paris unable to drink.
Right before I woke up I had made the decision to drink wine, justifying doing so by the fact that I was in Paris, and that's the feeling I woke up with.
I ACTUALLY lay in bed for a few minutes after waking up and agreed that, were I in that situation in reality, I would drink!
I've since snapped out of it, but GOT DAMN! I HATE that my dreams can have THAT much power over my thinking!!
Had a dream last night that I was in Paris with you-know-who's makeup person at a five-star hotel overlooking the Seine and we went club hopping and I was miserable being in Paris unable to drink.
Right before I woke up I had made the decision to drink wine, justifying doing so by the fact that I was in Paris, and that's the feeling I woke up with.
I ACTUALLY lay in bed for a few minutes after waking up and agreed that, were I in that situation in reality, I would drink!
I've since snapped out of it, but GOT DAMN! I HATE that my dreams can have THAT much power over my thinking!!
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So my boss just dropped a complete load of BS on me at 4:45 that will pretty much take all my time for the next week. Stress went through the roof. Considered getting hammered then was like, nah. Don't need that.
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UI
Maybe its work that is causing you to have those dreams ? I am not sure they are strictly alcohol related as I remember when I was highly stressed or anxious (but sober) I used to have horrible nightmares where I would wake up in panic and jumping out of my skin.
Take 4-5 long deep breaths from the belly. Be still and hold your breath for as long as possible after each exhalation. Then check how you are feeling.
Maybe its work that is causing you to have those dreams ? I am not sure they are strictly alcohol related as I remember when I was highly stressed or anxious (but sober) I used to have horrible nightmares where I would wake up in panic and jumping out of my skin.
Take 4-5 long deep breaths from the belly. Be still and hold your breath for as long as possible after each exhalation. Then check how you are feeling.
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Lillian, that massage sounds wonderful. I could use one of those.
We are traveling for the weekend and I pack myself and the children and the feed bag to cover the dietary needs of my daughter and myself. Nobody is listening to anything I say. I had a bit of a fit on all of them. I keep trying to discuss serious plans for the trip with my husband and the kids will talk over me and he responds to them! So, he is basically giving them permission to interrupt and talk over me by indulging it. Pet peeve of mine. Nobody listens to me here.
We are traveling for the weekend and I pack myself and the children and the feed bag to cover the dietary needs of my daughter and myself. Nobody is listening to anything I say. I had a bit of a fit on all of them. I keep trying to discuss serious plans for the trip with my husband and the kids will talk over me and he responds to them! So, he is basically giving them permission to interrupt and talk over me by indulging it. Pet peeve of mine. Nobody listens to me here.
Velveteen Rabbit
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Originally Posted by rochele
We are traveling for the weekend and I pack myself and the children and the feed bag to cover the dietary needs of my daughter and myself. Nobody is listening to anything I say. I had a bit of a fit on all of them. I keep trying to discuss serious plans for the trip with my husband and the kids will talk over me and he responds to them! So, he is basically giving them permission to interrupt and talk over me by indulging it. Pet peeve of mine. Nobody listens to me here.
Try and have a nice weekend though.
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Originally Posted by FishnHippy
Okay I did it I went to my first AA meeting at lunch today it was okay. 4 people + me one guy just under 2 years sobriety. Everyone else sober long time.
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I have been having a lot of strange dreams too some of them are just really odd. But last night was scary I bought a new house I went in the basement when I heard a scary noise three people jumped out and I started screaming and they attacked me with ice picks I remember laying on the ground and the guy was poking me in the eye ball with one of the ice picks I woke up screamin and sweaty. And I almost peed my pants. So I got a pretty early start on my day. I'm glad there was no booze in the house because I needed a shot.
I think I dreamed about my eye getting poked because my eye has been hurting since my eye surgery.
I think I dreamed about my eye getting poked because my eye has been hurting since my eye surgery.
I could see peace instead of this
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Wow, awesome Fish!!
I asked for tomorrow off from work as a vacation day so I can have a 4-day weekend. I need to regroup and attempt to ground myself again. I also hope to attend a morning meeting not too far from home. But if I don't make it to that for some reason, I plan to hit the AA conference tomorrow night anyway.
I'm feeling a little shy after being away for all this time, but also feeling hopeful as well as relieved I'm finally doing something. I know it will be good; like going back home after a long time away in a not-so-nice place.
I asked for tomorrow off from work as a vacation day so I can have a 4-day weekend. I need to regroup and attempt to ground myself again. I also hope to attend a morning meeting not too far from home. But if I don't make it to that for some reason, I plan to hit the AA conference tomorrow night anyway.
I'm feeling a little shy after being away for all this time, but also feeling hopeful as well as relieved I'm finally doing something. I know it will be good; like going back home after a long time away in a not-so-nice place.
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Originally Posted by rochele
I am having Thursday night cravings combined with stress. And just watched husband chill himself some beers. I think I have some more laundry to fold. Sigh.
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Went on a bike ride with my kids in the trailer today and made it around 3 miles. That's a lot for me. Before giving up drinking I would get out on the bike and be so out of breath and tired trying to bike uphill, I'd just give up and walk, but now I'm able to persevere and push through it more and am feeling stronger than ever. Day 56 here. Feeling great. got another biofeedback session tomorrow and I'm actually going to start working for him part time to help pay for my sessions. It's 60.00 each time and I'm ten days in. That's a lot of money! 
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Originally Posted by Uninvited
So my boss just dropped a complete load of BS on me at 4:45 that will pretty much take all my time for the next week. Stress went through the roof. Considered getting hammered then was like, nah. Don't need that.
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Fishy
Well done on going to AA and the 33 days. You've made a lot of progress indeed. How was the AA meeting ? Did you think it was of any use ? Any connection with the other AA folks or did you think they were nut jobs
That's one heck of a nightmare. Good material for a horror movie, give David Cronenberg a call
Well done on going to AA and the 33 days. You've made a lot of progress indeed. How was the AA meeting ? Did you think it was of any use ? Any connection with the other AA folks or did you think they were nut jobs
That's one heck of a nightmare. Good material for a horror movie, give David Cronenberg a call
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