Class of February 2013 Part 9
Hi Fantail!
Thrilled you popped by. Sorry to hear that the job turned out that way, BUT you are going on to MUCH MUCH MUCH better things.
Everything you mentioned is typical of a poorly run startup and the 'out of balance' is there even with the well run ones. Something much better will come along. It's possible that you will qualify for unemployment and that will keep you going for a bit.
Glad you mentioned the PMS factor too. It had me in it's clutches 2 weeks ago. It was a particularly nasty one and I burned a few bridges. Glad you're getting clarity that it is such a force in your life! I read that most women relapse during PMS - so will be a good thing to be aware of for everyone.
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I need to do some deep work on my emotions too. I realized tonight that I think that's my current PAWS cycle. First round PAWS was memory focused, then that went away, now the stress is triggering emotions. And I had the 'gosh I wish my brain would just function like it used to and manage the emotions!" thought - which is a PAWS indicator for me. And I'm super tired again, and other things. DUH!
Makes sense now why I'm interested in a guy suddenly - it's not just bad emotions, it's all emotions.
I think I'll start by accepting that I have PAWS, it's manifesting itself in emotions, and I need to help it heal by talking to someone, etc. Gosh, I feel better already writing that out.
Hugs Mel, V, Fantail, FirstWeek, Liss.
Thrilled you popped by. Sorry to hear that the job turned out that way, BUT you are going on to MUCH MUCH MUCH better things.
Everything you mentioned is typical of a poorly run startup and the 'out of balance' is there even with the well run ones. Something much better will come along. It's possible that you will qualify for unemployment and that will keep you going for a bit.
Glad you mentioned the PMS factor too. It had me in it's clutches 2 weeks ago. It was a particularly nasty one and I burned a few bridges. Glad you're getting clarity that it is such a force in your life! I read that most women relapse during PMS - so will be a good thing to be aware of for everyone.
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I need to do some deep work on my emotions too. I realized tonight that I think that's my current PAWS cycle. First round PAWS was memory focused, then that went away, now the stress is triggering emotions. And I had the 'gosh I wish my brain would just function like it used to and manage the emotions!" thought - which is a PAWS indicator for me. And I'm super tired again, and other things. DUH!
Makes sense now why I'm interested in a guy suddenly - it's not just bad emotions, it's all emotions.
I think I'll start by accepting that I have PAWS, it's manifesting itself in emotions, and I need to help it heal by talking to someone, etc. Gosh, I feel better already writing that out.
Hugs Mel, V, Fantail, FirstWeek, Liss.
Was cleaning up my room before bed and picked up a photo album - turns out it was Christmas right before I got sober. I remember at the time I felt really good, but now I see evidence of alcohol all over - dull hair, splotchy bloated face, tired eyes.
Wow do I look so much healthier now.
Highly recommend checking out a before photo if you haven't done so in a while.
Wow do I look so much healthier now.
Highly recommend checking out a before photo if you haven't done so in a while.
Thanks for that serene, sometimes I forget that we are still technically newbies and experiencing paws in this whole recovery thing and need to be gentle with myself.
Fan, I'm glad to see you. Sometimes what seems like a roadblock is really just the universe rerouting us towards our destiny, I have a feeling big things are coming your way. How have you been handling sobriety?
Fan, I'm glad to see you. Sometimes what seems like a roadblock is really just the universe rerouting us towards our destiny, I have a feeling big things are coming your way. How have you been handling sobriety?
Thanks Serene love.
Need all the support I can get right now.
Bad news re my dad, just have to wait.
Congratulations on 8 months wehav!!!
Much love to you.
And to everyone,
V xx
Need all the support I can get right now.
Bad news re my dad, just have to wait.
Congratulations on 8 months wehav!!!
Much love to you.
And to everyone,
V xx
Welcome back Dee! Really good to hear that you're feeling better.
Venus - Sorry to hear that you're Dad's struggling right now. Thanks for sharing. I made wish tonight on the first start I saw that he would be ok. Love & Hugs
Venus - Sorry to hear that you're Dad's struggling right now. Thanks for sharing. I made wish tonight on the first start I saw that he would be ok. Love & Hugs
Hi all,
I don't know what happens in Europe or other parts of Oz, but where I live Halloween is not that big a deal.
Until a few years ago, it was almost non-existent here, but then the supermarkets and card companies got smart and decided they could make even more money.
So all the goodies are available, and I guess some people have parties and such, but in my suburb for example, there is not even any trick or treating.
But I bet after having said that, it will all be on this year. We shall see.
Hope you have (or had) a fab time at your party Serene.
Don't know where everybody is?
Mel? liss? firstweek? 1stepup? wehav? fantail?
I miss you guys.
My thinking has been really negative lately, and I have been extremely down on myself. And that can only lead to disaster.
So I have taken some good advice from SR friends this week, and boosted my recovery tools.
I need to remember that life can smack you in the butt sober or not sober, and I am refocusing on living in the solution.
Still struggling to get little V well, and my dad is kind of a full-time job once again, so working on acceptance and changing the things I can verses can't is paramount.
Love to all my Februbuddies,
V xx
I don't know what happens in Europe or other parts of Oz, but where I live Halloween is not that big a deal.
Until a few years ago, it was almost non-existent here, but then the supermarkets and card companies got smart and decided they could make even more money.
So all the goodies are available, and I guess some people have parties and such, but in my suburb for example, there is not even any trick or treating.
But I bet after having said that, it will all be on this year. We shall see.
Hope you have (or had) a fab time at your party Serene.
Don't know where everybody is?
Mel? liss? firstweek? 1stepup? wehav? fantail?
I miss you guys.
My thinking has been really negative lately, and I have been extremely down on myself. And that can only lead to disaster.
So I have taken some good advice from SR friends this week, and boosted my recovery tools.
I need to remember that life can smack you in the butt sober or not sober, and I am refocusing on living in the solution.
Still struggling to get little V well, and my dad is kind of a full-time job once again, so working on acceptance and changing the things I can verses can't is paramount.
Love to all my Februbuddies,
V xx
Hi V I'm here but the SR app is no longer compatible with my iPhone for some reason so it's been harder for me to post.
What are these new recovery tools? I'm sorry to hear things have been tough andI will keep sending you positive thoughts.
I went to a Halloween party tonight. Last year I went to this party and blacked out and then continued to chug a solo cup 3/4 full of tequila. I was afraid I was going to die so I quit drinking until I relapsed on thanksgiving which resulted in 3 month binge until I quit for good in feb and found all of you.
It felt healing to go to this same party a year later. I drank some soda, really connected with people and came home to relax afterwards. I remember last year spending the days leading up worrying that something bad would happen and this year It's all so much easier now.
All for now, M.
What are these new recovery tools? I'm sorry to hear things have been tough andI will keep sending you positive thoughts.
I went to a Halloween party tonight. Last year I went to this party and blacked out and then continued to chug a solo cup 3/4 full of tequila. I was afraid I was going to die so I quit drinking until I relapsed on thanksgiving which resulted in 3 month binge until I quit for good in feb and found all of you.
It felt healing to go to this same party a year later. I drank some soda, really connected with people and came home to relax afterwards. I remember last year spending the days leading up worrying that something bad would happen and this year It's all so much easier now.
All for now, M.
Hi Mel,
You can ask your question in the technical issues forum....there have been a few issues lately.
I haven't heard about that one specifically, but I know the the new Apple OS is having a lot of problems all around.
Re my recovery tools?
Just basic things....keeping it simple, one day at a time, making sure I eat,
trying to not isolate when I'm feeling low, talking more instead of dwelling on things,
trying to be kinder to myself.
I already use the serenity prayer a lot, and I've gone back to the Big Book and my other AA readings.
I don't do AA, but I love immersing myself in the texts; somehow I forgot about that.
Also, I spend a lot of time here; I'm in a lot of threads.
It keeps me grounded. If I stop for a few days, it is a big warning sign for me that my thinking is skewiff.
Anyway, that's just some of what I'm doing.
Love to everyone,
V xx
You can ask your question in the technical issues forum....there have been a few issues lately.
I haven't heard about that one specifically, but I know the the new Apple OS is having a lot of problems all around.
Re my recovery tools?
Just basic things....keeping it simple, one day at a time, making sure I eat,
trying to not isolate when I'm feeling low, talking more instead of dwelling on things,
trying to be kinder to myself.
I already use the serenity prayer a lot, and I've gone back to the Big Book and my other AA readings.
I don't do AA, but I love immersing myself in the texts; somehow I forgot about that.
Also, I spend a lot of time here; I'm in a lot of threads.
It keeps me grounded. If I stop for a few days, it is a big warning sign for me that my thinking is skewiff.
Anyway, that's just some of what I'm doing.
Love to everyone,
V xx
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